Ok boys, time for the last rant (09.03.2023). Today (or yesterday) whispered has become a featured artist which is a big deal for me as you could guess by my maps. It's a band i love and loved making maps for, but guess what, in this featured post, on the official video, OSU misspelled my name. I know, it's nothing, but at the same time it's everything for me. The last event i was waiting for, the last hook i had for this game is gone. You may ask why, it's just 2 letters in the wrong order. Tbh it's the last slap in the face. The whole ranking process is a terrible experience, and i had to go through it for each map featured on that post (no hate on my bn bois tho, just the system, love you henry). Each time feeling like a bunch of slaps after pouring my heart into those creations. Having my face sore i get another slap in this love hate relationship, giving a lot of fun but in exchange for a lot of sorrow. After this final push i think i'm finally ready to let go of the ranking. MrK out. Peace.
Fallen amaterasu last rank?
I ranked exile, that took a year too long lmao, but the covid hit hard and made a hole in my way. I'm still updating this page for some reason.
I think there should be an option where the map is approved by the AI to check unrankables and let the player decide when he wants to open the leaderboard (it will reward no pp, just like loved). After that, the mapper won't be able to take down the map for a while (cooldown) and he could go for PP ranked status after actual BNs approval. There would be a lot less maps with pp, but it will finally release the leaderboards from the BNs hands. If your map is "just" rankable, you shouldn't really rank it, but you definitely should be able to.
I can quit playing now :v.
My only left motivation for mapping was annual mappers report. Someone writing something about me, some recognition. Once a year. Feels like it's gone now. Still gonna rank what i was gonna rank.
Busy
Holy fuk, jikininki qualified after 2 years. And now Ranked. The curse is gone!
i'm not making more whispered until i rank jikininki, bill plz
Circle comes and goes.
i'm gone again btw xd I'm coming back when winter makes dem hitsounds for jikininki so i can rank it.
i'm back btw
This game needs self-ranking.
I'm taking a break. Dunno when i'm back.
You can't make everyone happy. Focus on making yourself happy.
"You can rank it, but you don't need that" ~MrSergio
Hailie should be banned from ranking maps.
I'm ranking my maps again if Bibbity Bill goes BN. Let's go Bill!!
Loved shit is the best thing that happened to osu.
I would like to leave. It's not bad what i have, i... like being where i am. I just, want more to be somewhere else. Drop everything and explore the world. How do i do that tho.
I don't think i'll ever try to rank a map again. Maybe i'm too weak. Maybe i don't have what it takes. Whatever it is, i don't have the strength to try. It's beyond me. I did what i could to get my first rank, i don't need anything more. I can't. People who did gds for me, forgive me. And those few who enjoyed my maps and hoped to see them on the ranked section. This is so sad. Alexa play Recharging The Void.
Mr Mazzerin, i don't feel so good.
How do i rank every whispered song How do i not quit osu
I hate not knowing what to do next, when every idea seems to be the wrong one. I hate those moments when i finally get the idea but i'm unable to develop it. I hate all those nights when i sit in the park trying to figure out my life. But i'm also glad that i can sit there. That i have freedom of choice. That i can try everything and see if its right for me. Life's not so good, but life's not bad. Life's alright.
20.05.2018 i pased Image Material. My ultimate osu goal since i started osu. I also got everything i wanted as a mapper. I achieved everything i ever wanted in this game. The journey is completed, the book is finished. But we live on writing another one. https://osu.ppy.sh/ss/10989812 I wanna thank Zev for being my first osu friend, Wishkey for being an awesome person, Mazzerin for being my idol, Hobbes2 for seeing sth in my map and helping me with getting my first rank, Sunshine for first mod, ReFaller for guiding me on first maps, MrSergio on later maps and last but not least i wanna thank Lilyanna for her heart (metaphorically speaking ofc)
Though you cannot go back and start again, you can start from now and have a brand new end
Actually, getting a gf is same as getting a ranked map in my case. When i began looking for a relationship, i thought that me first try with a girl was the awesome thing. But i couldn't do anything with it. I began to wonder, why is that. And it was because it was shit. We didn't fit together, and later i realized i didn't even like her. I wanted that for pure accomplishment. The next few were similar. I liked them more, but i still couldn't get it anywhere. And i still struggle. But, with time, i am wiser, i also care less. So i think, there will be a point in time that this will be a possibility for me. But will i still care enough for it to make me happy? Edit: Yes, but idk with a gf yet xd. Edit2: Well. I guess, yes with both.
Women, those pretty, kind creatures, tend to be like a sweet poison for me. They're no danger from afar, in a distant relationship. But when i get closer, it starts to hurt. It clenches and stabs my heart. More and more. And eventually i need to let it go before i have a chance to do anything more meaningful. And i'm yet again, alone...
The biggest problem with me, is that i change quickly. One day i'm a salty bitch, second i'm a nice person ready to help everybody, and then i catch myself listening to metal for hours, crying on my chair.
If you're on that list, well, that means sth zev - An interesting person, variable, whatever that means. My first friend on osu. Wishkey - My friend and officer of my clan. Same music taste as me and awesome personality. MrSergio - And awesome human being. Helped me a lot, and we talked a lot, so even if he's not my mutual, i feel like i can call him a friend. ReFaller - I became a little bit of a better mapper thanks to him. One of the earliest helping hand in my mapping career.