I am in a better place. Please do not miss me, nor hope I will be back. I will not, and have no interest to do so. osu! was, in many forms, an escaping or coping method.
At times harmful, and at times fun, it is a closed chapter of my book.
Enjoying someone, or something, oft comes with a time limit.
This is not a sad thought. It makes every moment spent even more precious. No one can shackle themselves to another, nor impose their will on another.
I appreciate the memories, and that is how they will remain - as memories. If you knew me, surely you'll understand - this does not mean I dislike, or otherwise found meaningless, the people I've met or the time I've spent. It is but one decision. While some may not understand, or still be upset by, these words, please remember freedom and space are the highest form of respect and care you can give to someone.
These are things I've always highly valued. And in my anxiety, depression, and escapism, I eventually came to realize.
I'd never find my life inside this cluttered room.
To the ones who remain, I am profoundly greatful and wish only the best. My lack of communication does not mean you are forgotten, or unseen. I still see your progresses, and I hope we can all achieve what we truly want. Leaving has led me closer, and I would hope you are all happy for me as I would be for you.
Exert your freedom, seek your goals, hope for the best, and move to the place you desire. No matter how badly anxiety, depression, bipolarity would want otherwise. Take care of your mental and physical health, branch out, try different things, and above all - enjoy living. You and only you can help yourself, take responsibility for your own life, and grow into that which you long for.
I have regained the happiness that I lost and long sought without actually doing anything to recover. If you are in a similar position, do not give up, and do start trying. At times lonely, at times harsh, and at times desperate, to beat such issues is a long road.