Hello! My name is CJ(19) mostly known as "Arkana" in the mania community. I first started my journey in VSRG with Robeats 3 years ago by being introduced to the game by a best friend of mine and after playing for less than a year he quickly introduced me to osu!mania then after playing 4k for a year i got quickly bored because i capped out at around alpha and found new inspiration to switch keymodes in May of 2021 by watching one of my idols and still is Alter- play in some random vc i stumbled upon. And ever since that day I've been hooked on playing 7k!
Ego. The way i improved generally was just all mental mindset. Every player i saw above me in country leaderboards were all seen as future goals and eventually stepping stones. And thats just how it is. Unfortunately I no longer find joy in the game so now i find joy knowing that im better than certain players. No hate to any players in particular i am just using you all for motivation to improve.
PLEASE JUST GET OUT OF MY HEAD. I DID EVERYTHING YOU ASKED OF ME. PLEASE JUST GET OUT OF MY HEAD. GET OUT OF MY HEAD. GET OUT OF MY HEAD. GET OUT OF MY HEAD. GET OUT OF MY HEAD. GET OUT OF MY HEAD. GET OUT OF MY HEAD. GET OUT OF MY HEAD. GET OUT OF MY HEAD. JUST LET ME WAKE UP LET GO OF ME PLEASE. I CANT TAKE THIS ANYMORE IT WONT LET ME WAKE UP SOMEONE HELP.