Me too...
for ps!expunged: what's something precious about mister cresswell that never changes over the many years you've known him?lostsilver wrote:
dave: "give me something silly about bandu."
bambi: "gimme somethin' cuddly about ex."
expunged: "give me something cozy about mr. cornwall ^^"
bandu: "gimme something goofy about dave!!"
ps!expunged: "give me something cute about mr. cresswell."
ps!bandu: "gimme something cuddly about mr. ambrose!!"
hi!! :DAchromalia wrote:
good morning lostie!! good morning to the ashwood-cornbluffs and the ambwell-bandellos <3for ps!expunged: what's something precious about mister cresswell that never changes over the many years you've known him?lostsilver wrote:
dave: "give me something silly about bandu."
bambi: "gimme somethin' cuddly about ex."
expunged: "give me something cozy about mr. cornwall ^^"
bandu: "gimme something goofy about dave!!"
ps!expunged: "give me something cute about mr. cresswell."
ps!bandu: "gimme something cuddly about mr. ambrose!!"
for ps!bandu: what do you believe makes up good cuddles, and how does mister ambrose fulfill those criteria for you?
i feel that honestly,,Achromalia wrote:
on phone rn....
so tired but i havent been awake any more than an hour, i didnt even rlly do anything x'p
for everyone!!: breakfast? what is some cooking trivia you know about now?
never seen it, srry ;v;ShinRun wrote:
Anyone love snow
urgh sleepy eyessslostsilver wrote:
i feel that honestly,,
dave: "mhm! we haven't learned any more cooking trivia just yet."
bambi: "we've all hydrated too."
expunged, rubbing their eyes: "sleepy..."
bandu: "hehe <3"
ps!dave: "yup! we haven't learned any cooking trivia yet."
ps!bambi: "we've hydrated aswell."
ps!expunged: "mm."
ps!bandu: "awawawaaa <3"
ok!! rest if you must, i'll be here ^^Achromalia wrote:
urgh sleepy eyessslostsilver wrote:
i feel that honestly,,
dave: "mhm! we haven't learned any more cooking trivia just yet."
bambi: "we've all hydrated too."
expunged, rubbing their eyes: "sleepy..."
bandu: "hehe <3"
ps!dave: "yup! we haven't learned any cooking trivia yet."
ps!bambi: "we've hydrated aswell."
ps!expunged: "mm."
ps!bandu: "awawawaaa <3"
going to bed i think... or at least resting for a moment :p
soft music...
good luck today ^^
tyyylostsilver wrote:
ok!! rest if you must, i'll be here ^^Achromalia wrote:
urgh sleepy eyessslostsilver wrote:
i feel that honestly,,
dave: "mhm! we haven't learned any more cooking trivia just yet."
bambi: "we've all hydrated too."
expunged, rubbing their eyes: "sleepy..."
bandu: "hehe <3"
ps!dave: "yup! we haven't learned any cooking trivia yet."
ps!bambi: "we've hydrated aswell."
ps!expunged: "mm."
ps!bandu: "awawawaaa <3"
going to bed i think... or at least resting for a moment :p
soft music...
good luck today ^^
trying to finish sprites,, working on the left pose for the haywalls as gf!!
then when the sprites are done, i'll probably do the ex dragging a blanket around doodle + other random doodles :>
<3Achromalia wrote:
tyyylostsilver wrote:
ok!! rest if you must, i'll be here ^^Achromalia wrote:
urgh sleepy eyessslostsilver wrote:
i feel that honestly,,
dave: "mhm! we haven't learned any more cooking trivia just yet."
bambi: "we've all hydrated too."
expunged, rubbing their eyes: "sleepy..."
bandu: "hehe <3"
ps!dave: "yup! we haven't learned any cooking trivia yet."
ps!bambi: "we've hydrated aswell."
ps!expunged: "mm."
ps!bandu: "awawawaaa <3"
going to bed i think... or at least resting for a moment :p
soft music...
good luck today ^^
trying to finish sprites,, working on the left pose for the haywalls as gf!!
then when the sprites are done, i'll probably do the ex dragging a blanket around doodle + other random doodles :>
in bed but half-awake bcz i got distracted brainstorming a friend abt symbolism in our mouthwashing au
and also bcz points :>
ex deserves to be comfyyy....
i did see snow semi-recently (i think two or three weeks ago?), though it wasn't much. last time i saw much snow would've been... long ago enough for the memories to be kinda foggyShinRun wrote:
Anyone love snow
for expunged: are there any foods mister cornwall has made for you that regularly comfort you and/or incentivize you to eat?lostsilver wrote:
dave: "give me something silly about bandu."
bambi: "gimme somethin' cuddly about ex."
expunged: "give me something cozy about mr. cornwall ^^"
bandu: "gimme something goofy about dave!!"
expunged: "yeah!! i really like cheeseburgers, so they're basically a comfort food for me. he likes to make them for me sometimes, and i really love it <3"Achromalia wrote:
for expunged: are there any foods mister cornwall has made for you that regularly comfort you and/or incentivize you to eat?lostsilver wrote:
dave: "give me something silly about bandu."
bambi: "gimme somethin' cuddly about ex."
expunged: "give me something cozy about mr. cornwall ^^"
bandu: "gimme something goofy about dave!!"
for bandu: how well does dave improvise in response to a character impression you've done?
dave: "mhm! we've eaten + hydrated!"Achromalia wrote:
for everyone: lunch? water?
they (or we technically? i don't know if im still considered a thread necromancer anymore) focus on this game far more than the snow. honestly, i respect itShinRun wrote:
Damn Yall fr missing out on some snow
my natural climate...sametdze wrote:
they (or we technically? i don't know if im still considered a thread necromancer anymore) focus on this game far more than the snow. honestly, i respect itShinRun wrote:
Damn Yall fr missing out on some snow
for dave: your favorite roleplay session with bandu in recent memory?lostsilver wrote:
dave: "give me something silly about bandu."
bambi: "gimme somethin' cuddly about ex."
its ok!! make sure you hydrate <3Achromalia wrote:
ate a few hours ago, but haven't gotten water yet... maybe soon, although i may also have to leave at around the same time for while... :<for dave: your favorite roleplay session with bandu in recent memory?lostsilver wrote:
dave: "give me something silly about bandu."
bambi: "gimme somethin' cuddly about ex."
for bambi: was there a time when you were surprised by ex cuddling with you?
dave: "give me something goofy/cute about bandu."Achromalia wrote:
self-neglect, and warped priorities...
for everyone: qna queue! <3
going afk now...lostsilver wrote:
dave: "give me something goofy/cute about bandu."
bambi: "gimme somethin' cuddly/sleepy about ex."
expunged: "give me something cuddly/cozy about mr. cornwall!!"
bandu: "gimme something silly/cute about dave!!"
ps!dave: "give me something cute about cresswell."
ps!bambi: "gimme somethin' silly about ambrose."
ps!expunged: "give me something cuddly/cute about ps!bandu."
ps!bandu: "gimme something cuddly/cozy about ps!ex!!"
ps!expunged: "i think the most precious memory i have of cuddling with ps!bandu is when ze got used to the infection. when i held zem close, ze sunk into me happily. after all of the pain ze was in, i wanted to find a way to give zem some comfort. ze was super happy. <3"Achromalia wrote:
going afk now...lostsilver wrote:
dave: "give me something goofy/cute about bandu."
bambi: "gimme somethin' cuddly/sleepy about ex."
expunged: "give me something cuddly/cozy about mr. cornwall!!"
bandu: "gimme something silly/cute about dave!!"
ps!dave: "give me something cute about cresswell."
ps!bambi: "gimme somethin' silly about ambrose."
ps!expunged: "give me something cuddly/cute about ps!bandu."
ps!bandu: "gimme something cuddly/cozy about ps!ex!!"
for ps!ex, what's a precious memory you have of cuddling with ps!bandu when you were younger?
for ps!bandu, do you often wish you could explore the world with ps!ex while cuddled up with sem?
for ps!dave, what were some really adorable things youve heard mister cresswell say in his sleep?lostsilver wrote:
dave: "give me something goofy/cute about bandu."
bambi: "gimme somethin' cuddly/sleepy about ex."
expunged: "give me something cuddly/cozy about mr. cornwall!!"
bandu: "gimme something silly/cute about dave!!"
ps!dave: "give me something cute about cresswell."
ps!bambi: "gimme somethin' silly about ambrose."
ps!dave: "i've heard him say how much we all mean to him in his sleep."Achromalia wrote:
for ps!dave, what were some really adorable things youve heard mister cresswell say in his sleep?lostsilver wrote:
dave: "give me something goofy/cute about bandu."
bambi: "gimme somethin' cuddly/sleepy about ex."
expunged: "give me something cuddly/cozy about mr. cornwall!!"
bandu: "gimme something silly/cute about dave!!"
ps!dave: "give me something cute about cresswell."
ps!bambi: "gimme somethin' silly about ambrose."
for ps!bambi, do you hear mister ambrose talk to himself sometimes? what's a funny topic he was mumbling to himself about?
for expunged, a memory of a time whete you absolutely melted when cuddling with mister cornwall?lostsilver wrote:
dave: "give me something goofy/cute about bandu."
bambi: "gimme somethin' cuddly/sleepy about ex."
expunged: "give me something cuddly/cozy about mr. cornwall!!"
bandu: "gimme something silly/cute about dave!!"
Achromalia wrote:
for expunged, a memory of a time whete you absolutely melted when cuddling with mister cornwall?lostsilver wrote:
dave: "give me something goofy/cute about bandu."
bambi: "gimme somethin' cuddly/sleepy about ex."
expunged: "give me something cuddly/cozy about mr. cornwall!!"
bandu: "gimme something silly/cute about dave!!"
for bandu, is there anything you've watched or listened to with dave that he quotes or references a lot?
<3 im glad that helped them...lostsilver wrote:
expunged: "okay, so..."bandu: "we had binged gravity falls a few weeks ago, and he's been quoting/referencing it since!! it's super silly <3""a few days ago, my stomach was hurting so bad from what i ate that i couldn't fall asleep, no matter what i tried, so i just... sat there in my bed for a while. after a bit of being in pain, i decided to go to mr. cornwall for comfort. i sat next to his and mr. haywood's bed (mr. haywood was asleep already), and asked if i could huddle up with the two to try and make myself feel better. he said yes and let me lay down between him and mr. haywood, and i just... sunk into him. i immediately started purring super loud the second he held me, causing mr. haywood to wake up. mr. haywood wasn't bothered though, as he knew it was just me being comfy. mr. haywood ended up falling back asleep, and it wasn't long before me and mr. cornwall fell asleep too. it was super nice <3"
ok!! im gonna go play games so i'll be back later :)Achromalia wrote:
<3 im glad that helped them...lostsilver wrote:
expunged: "okay, so..."bandu: "we had binged gravity falls a few weeks ago, and he's been quoting/referencing it since!! it's super silly <3""a few days ago, my stomach was hurting so bad from what i ate that i couldn't fall asleep, no matter what i tried, so i just... sat there in my bed for a while. after a bit of being in pain, i decided to go to mr. cornwall for comfort. i sat next to his and mr. haywood's bed (mr. haywood was asleep already), and asked if i could huddle up with the two to try and make myself feel better. he said yes and let me lay down between him and mr. haywood, and i just... sunk into him. i immediately started purring super loud the second he held me, causing mr. haywood to wake up. mr. haywood wasn't bothered though, as he knew it was just me being comfy. mr. haywood ended up falling back asleep, and it wasn't long before me and mr. cornwall fell asleep too. it was super nice <3"
no questions yet... im feeling the ick too so i think im gonna go and shower...
quickly checking in before continuing...lostsilver wrote:
dave: "give me something goofy/cute about bandu."
bambi: "gimme somethin' cuddly/sleepy about ex."
dave: "he had asked me to give kandi a box of chocolates on valentine's, and he put a little note in there. he said 'don't tell her who this is from, it's a surprise!' and i was just like 'eh. okay.' and then she came to bandu and thanked him, so bandu came to me and thanked me for giving them to her, as he was too nervous to. it was sweet. <3"Achromalia wrote:
quickly checking in before continuing...lostsilver wrote:
dave: "give me something goofy/cute about bandu."
bambi: "gimme somethin' cuddly/sleepy about ex."
for dave, what's a super creative way bandu has convinced you to do a favor for him?
for bambi, what do you think about when you cuddle with expunged? do you have conversations with them around subjects of interest that last until they fall asleep
<3Achromalia wrote:
(thats so sweeeet ;-;)
for the ashwood-cornbluffs and ambwell-bandellos: dinnertime!! stay watered, you're worth it <3
Kolmas wrote:
this is a simulation
wake up
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What if I haven't slept?Achromalia wrote:
Kolmas wrote:
this is a simulation
wake up
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Kolmas wrote:
this isn't a simulation
go to bed
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"i tried to sneak through the door man.. DOOR STUCK! DOOR STUCK! DOOR STUCK!"synthwavesquid wrote:
doors stuck
Come try to stop us. The Chaos Insurgency shall tear the Foundation and the old normalcy that holds us in place to shreds. The Foundation has 106,642 personnel. The Chaos Insurgency has 7,683,427,328.
We are the Chaos Insurgency — or should I say, every last human outside the Veil.
Define "next time"Kolmas wrote:
next time for sure
maybe next timeTateshina Eve wrote:
Define "next time"Kolmas wrote:
next time for sure
good morning!! merry christmas to you all too ^^lostsilver wrote:
good morning everyone, and merry christmas!!
the ashwood-cornbluffs and the ambwell-bandellos say hello + merry christmas too!! <3
yeah lol <3Achromalia wrote:
good morning!! merry christmas to you all too ^^lostsilver wrote:
good morning everyone, and merry christmas!!
the ashwood-cornbluffs and the ambwell-bandellos say hello + merry christmas too!! <3
just waking up rn, getting food... i take it today would be a busy day, yeah? things won't be very different from where i am though :p
burrito on a cold morning... <3
for everyone: qna queue!!
for dave: is there anything you still lovingly tease expunged about from when they were much younger?lostsilver wrote:
dave: "give me something cute about ex."
bambi: "gimme somethin' goofy about bandu."
expunged: "give me something cozy about mr. haywood!"
bandu: "gimme something goofy about bambi!!"
ps!dave: "give me something silly about the haywalls."
ps!bambi: "gimme something cute about the ashbluffs."
ps!expunged: "give me something cozy about ps!bandu."
ps!bandu: "gimme something cuddly about ps!ex!!"
<3Achromalia wrote:
in any case, take your time and enjoy the festivities with family first and foremost, if you'd like ^^for dave: is there anything you still lovingly tease expunged about from when they were much younger?lostsilver wrote:
dave: "give me something cute about ex."
bambi: "gimme somethin' goofy about bandu."
expunged: "give me something cozy about mr. haywood!"
bandu: "gimme something goofy about bambi!!"
ps!dave: "give me something silly about the haywalls."
ps!bambi: "gimme something cute about the ashbluffs."
ps!expunged: "give me something cozy about ps!bandu."
ps!bandu: "gimme something cuddly about ps!ex!!"
for bambi: a funny mishap you had together with bandu in his flower garden?
hehe,,Achromalia wrote:
a fluffy form and dirt eaten...
hmmn im still so sleepy what,, weird
for everyone: nutrition and hydration check? :p
for expunged: do you ever have the chance to watch mister haywood during his own morning routine? do you find that process to be comforting to watch?lostsilver wrote:
expunged: "give me something cozy about mr. haywood!"
bandu: "gimme something goofy about bambi!!"
ps!dave: "give me something silly about the haywalls."
ps!bambi: "gimme something cute about the ashbluffs."
ps!expunged: "give me something cozy about ps!bandu."
ps!bandu: "gimme something cuddly about ps!ex!!"
expunged: "if i'm awake early enough, yeah! he normally always gets up before me so i don't really get to see it. but when i do, it's always super cozy and comforting <3"Achromalia wrote:
for expunged: do you ever have the chance to watch mister haywood during his own morning routine? do you find that process to be comforting to watch?lostsilver wrote:
expunged: "give me something cozy about mr. haywood!"
bandu: "gimme something goofy about bambi!!"
ps!dave: "give me something silly about the haywalls."
ps!bambi: "gimme something cute about the ashbluffs."
ps!expunged: "give me something cozy about ps!bandu."
ps!bandu: "gimme something cuddly about ps!ex!!"
for bandu: has bambi crafted anything super silly for you that you've kept with you ever since?
for ps!dave: what's an unexpected arrangement you found yourself in with the haywalls? did anyone have a creative or interesting solution?lostsilver wrote:
ps!dave: "give me something silly about the haywalls."
ps!bambi: "gimme something cute about the ashbluffs."
ps!expunged: "give me something cozy about ps!bandu."
ps!bandu: "gimme something cuddly about ps!ex!!"
ps!dave: "i'm not sure if there has been one yet."Achromalia wrote:
for ps!dave: what's an unexpected arrangement you found yourself in with the haywalls? did anyone have a creative or interesting solution?lostsilver wrote:
ps!dave: "give me something silly about the haywalls."
ps!bambi: "gimme something cute about the ashbluffs."
ps!expunged: "give me something cozy about ps!bandu."
ps!bandu: "gimme something cuddly about ps!ex!!"
for ps!bambi: have there been any outfits the ashbluffs have worn that you thought were super endearing?
for ps!expunged: what makes ps!bandu a unique source of comfort for you, unlike the ambwells?lostsilver wrote:
ps!expunged: "give me something cozy about ps!bandu."
ps!bandu: "gimme something cuddly about ps!ex!!"
ps!expunged: "i'm not sure... it may be where we have a stronger bond from being siblings, though."Achromalia wrote:
for ps!expunged: what makes ps!bandu a unique source of comfort for you, unlike the ambwells?lostsilver wrote:
ps!expunged: "give me something cozy about ps!bandu."
ps!bandu: "gimme something cuddly about ps!ex!!"
for ps!bandu: does ps!ex seem to be as attached to cuddling as you might be? what do you think se feels?
dave: "give me something cute/silly about cornwall."Achromalia wrote:
for everyone: qna queue?
for dave: blep at mister cornwall, maybe?lostsilver wrote:
dave: "give me something cute/silly about cornwall."
bambi: "gimme somethin' sleepy/cuddly about haywood."
expunged: "give me something cute about bandu!"
bandu: "gimme something goofy about ex!!"
ps!dave: "give me something cuddly about ps!bandu."
ps!bambi: "gimme somethin' cute about ps!ex."
ps!expunged: "give me something silly about mr. cresswell."
ps!bandu: "gimme something cozy about mr. ambrose!!"
dave: "okay!"Achromalia wrote:
extremely tired... if only...for dave: blep at mister cornwall, maybe?lostsilver wrote:
dave: "give me something cute/silly about cornwall."
bambi: "gimme somethin' sleepy/cuddly about haywood."
expunged: "give me something cute about bandu!"
bandu: "gimme something goofy about ex!!"
ps!dave: "give me something cuddly about ps!bandu."
ps!bambi: "gimme somethin' cute about ps!ex."
ps!expunged: "give me something silly about mr. cresswell."
ps!bandu: "gimme something cozy about mr. ambrose!!"
for bambi: does mister haywood commonly fall asleep while resting in your lap out of exhaustion?
for expunged: what's your favorite reaction from bandu once he received his christmas presents?lostsilver wrote:
expunged: "give me something cute about bandu!"
bandu: "gimme something goofy about ex!!"
ps!dave: "give me something cuddly about ps!bandu."
ps!bambi: "gimme somethin' cute about ps!ex."
ps!expunged: "give me something silly about mr. cresswell."
ps!bandu: "gimme something cozy about mr. ambrose!!"
expunged: "just all of them really <3"Achromalia wrote:
for expunged: what's your favorite reaction from bandu once he received his christmas presents?lostsilver wrote:
expunged: "give me something cute about bandu!"
bandu: "gimme something goofy about ex!!"
ps!dave: "give me something cuddly about ps!bandu."
ps!bambi: "gimme somethin' cute about ps!ex."
ps!expunged: "give me something silly about mr. cresswell."
ps!bandu: "gimme something cozy about mr. ambrose!!"
for bandu: what kinds of chaos would you love to try with ex next year?
for everyone: staying watered and fed, everyone?lostsilver wrote:
expunged: "just all of them really <3"Achromalia wrote:
for expunged: what's your favorite reaction from bandu once he received his christmas presents?
for bandu: what kinds of chaos would you love to try with ex next year?
bandu: "hm,, well, i do know i wanna try to do some origin form stuff with ex next year!! hopefully we both learn how to use our powers better by then lol"
dave: "yup!"Achromalia wrote:
for everyone: staying watered and fed, everyone?lostsilver wrote:
expunged: "just all of them really <3"Achromalia wrote:
for expunged: what's your favorite reaction from bandu once he received his christmas presents?
for bandu: what kinds of chaos would you love to try with ex next year?
bandu: "hm,, well, i do know i wanna try to do some origin form stuff with ex next year!! hopefully we both learn how to use our powers better by then lol"
for ps!dave: how often do you get into a blanket burrito with ps!bandu whenever it's super cold?lostsilver wrote:
ps!dave: "give me something cuddly about ps!bandu."
ps!bambi: "gimme somethin' cute about ps!ex."
ps!expunged: "give me something silly about mr. cresswell."
ps!bandu: "gimme something cozy about mr. ambrose!!"
ps!dave: "very often. ze loves it, and i do too. <3"Achromalia wrote:
for ps!dave: how often do you get into a blanket burrito with ps!bandu whenever it's super cold?lostsilver wrote:
ps!dave: "give me something cuddly about ps!bandu."
ps!bambi: "gimme somethin' cute about ps!ex."
ps!expunged: "give me something silly about mr. cresswell."
ps!bandu: "gimme something cozy about mr. ambrose!!"
for ps!bambi: what's something you adore about ps!ex when you catch a glimpse of sem working in seir lab?
From the moment I understood the weakness of my flesh, it disgusted me. I craved the strength and certainty of steel. I aspired to the purity of the Blessed Machine. Your kind cling to your flesh, as if it will not decay and fail you. One day the crude biomass that you call a temple will wither, and you will beg my kind to save you. But I am already saved, for the Machine is immortal… ...even in death I serve the Omnissiah.
option #1: "something about that elicits sympathy from me, as theatrical and removed from my contexts as it is. although i don't have the words for why/how or in what manner, nor do i have a conclusion about how much it'll matter to me..."synthwavesquid wrote:
From the moment I understood the weakness of my flesh, it disgusted me. I craved the strength and certainty of steel. I aspired to the purity of the Blessed Machine. Your kind cling to your flesh, as if it will not decay and fail you. One day the crude biomass that you call a temple will wither, and you will beg my kind to save you. But I am already saved, for the Machine is immortal… ...even in death I serve the Omnissiah.
for ps!expunged: did you get any really unexpected reactions from mister cresswell after showing him something you've seen on the internet?lostsilver wrote:
ps!expunged: "give me something silly about mr. cresswell."
ps!bandu: "gimme something cozy about mr. ambrose!!"
ps!expunged: "i think i have. i just can't remember what exactly it was."Achromalia wrote:
option #1: "i vaguely sympathize, although i don't have the words for why/how or in what manner..."synthwavesquid wrote:
From the moment I understood the weakness of my flesh, it disgusted me. I craved the strength and certainty of steel. I aspired to the purity of the Blessed Machine. Your kind cling to your flesh, as if it will not decay and fail you. One day the crude biomass that you call a temple will wither, and you will beg my kind to save you. But I am already saved, for the Machine is immortal… ...even in death I serve the Omnissiah.
option #2: "maybe this is what it feels like when you've ben counting forty thousand warm hams"
option #3: [remain a silent observer]
option #4: [indecisively represent any major branching impulses for relative breadth and transparency at the cost of possibly-diluted effect]for ps!expunged: did you get any really unexpected reactions from mister cresswell after showing him something you've seen on the internet?lostsilver wrote:
ps!expunged: "give me something silly about mr. cresswell."
ps!bandu: "gimme something cozy about mr. ambrose!!"
for ps!bandu: how do you respond to mister ambrose offering you comforting items and gestures?
dave: "give me something goofy about expunged."Achromalia wrote:
something about already being visible, and the way that becomes its own compulsion...to present a consistent persona that "must" survive (as though it were your own physical life)... therefore becoming more visible and more attached to that persona, in a reality where any informative impression you contribute is irreversibly forfeited to the cognition and decisionmaking of other people from then onward
every moment of conversation and connection is another seed from which a tree may be planted. every time you feed each patch of soil, you dig yourself deeper in with your very own root network, from which freedom/escape means ripping yourself off of the imprints of selfhood you've submitted to the earth and its wildlife (all the while, the roots remain there in lifeless decay at the whims of its surroundings, vestiges which lie indifferent to your flighty spells)
ecosystems that never forget, and agents which seek to survive and advance their interests within/throughout/beyond species of kingdoms of life, and their many contexts that are each differentiated from your own in some form...
individually, how much control do you really have? treated largely by whatever apparent essence there is to your nature, and the limited variable scopes across each agent's capacity to nurture and adapt... and that from which adoption is to some degree dependent, based on the very-tangible very-concrete barely-mutable consequences of an origin point you had no responsibility for... but even still, you may well hold responsibility for your present moment, and you are here now, so you ought to move on...
...or something like that...
a shame that it can(?) be natural(?) to choose(?) to nurture the habit(?) of hardly living at all, and then mourn for it as though it wasn't my own doing (or so we could say)
(do i believe this? what a curious choice of narrativization...)
for everyone: qna queue!! :D