forum

What made you cry today?

posted
Total Posts
3,051
show more
Gumpy
Remembering my dog and childhood home.
Raisha Millenia
My friends puts an onion in front of my eyes
inflex
I just realized that I'm alone and sad :(
Hikona

LCS Destiny wrote:

I just realized that I'm alone and sad :(
:,/
a1l2d3r4e5d6
Remembering some nice people I met become really mean to me for no reason whatsoever...
Kyonko Hizara
Sent the bf something for valentines day but the package is still in transit and hasn't left the first sorting facility yet
-_Lazy_-_old

Static Noise Bird wrote:

I wrote things like this to NEDM every now and then when I was feeling shit, from 2013 autumn all the way till last summer. I did it again, because life has returned to suffocate me. Never before have I posted these here, but here we go for once. Not editing anything out, editing only minor changes in.

It was around a year ago that the best time of my non-childhood life started. Had no annoying courses, listened to really atmospheric music and was feeling good and happy for maybe the first time ever. Studied French with the good friend of mine, who did graduate soon after and also was on another course with her. I constantly had motivation in making music and photographing and all that. I don't know where did that all go and I'm not exactly sure how am I going to make this spring even remotely tolerable.

Speaking of childhood, another really surreal thing is that I'm never going to be a kid again. I never looked to those times as good times and I always wanted to get older. It's sad how I never got to enjoy being a kid, partially because of the bullying, though, but no matter what now I'll never have the chance to enjoy anything about it again at its purest, though surely all the nostalgic stuff exists.

Also my mom is being a hyperneo-nazi when it comes to responsibilities and money usage. She's literally not giving me any money and just increasing all the bullshit that I have to go through, not understanding a single bit that I want to graduate from school as soon as possible and not stress myself with additional job or anything - that'd bump most of my days up to 16 hours of work with easily under 8 hours to sleep when we count all the preparing and school-/work trips in. Basically, I need to find income support from the country and get to live on my own because I'm going to go insane if I don't do that in the coming weeks, maybe I can tolerate 2 months if I really have to. Unless this gets worse, in which case I need to get out in the next 3 weeks, I'd predict. I still get 18€ per month (32€ less than before, because why not), which isn't realistic, considering that I need to apparently start paying for my schoolbooks and -trips too.

Anyway, new semester starting now after exam week, nailed all of my exams, life shines. Hopefully getting a chance to get to know new people, including that one girl I talked about earlier. There's still some hope to help me with staying sane until I get to move out on my own. Though in this state I bet I manage to fuck even the last resort up.

I should try to sleep again now that I got everything that was bothering me off my chest. Didn't luckily take too long, though I have only barely 7,5 hours to sleep now. Send help.
damn son xDxDxDxDxDxD, and yeah that post made me cry
a1l2d3r4e5d6
Clicked on a video, turned out to be the proposal scene in Angel Beats!

tbh, any scenes from animes I enjoyed watching 3 years ago is considered a tearjerker...

I'm so soft
Ethoteric
Long distance relationship and my not knowing how to...life.
but those are like everyday things lol
Tiisa
Most of my friends will graduate this year while I'm still in school for at least two years. (There's no way I'm getting enough courses to graduate in a year) I got used to having friends in school but now I'll be all alone again and there's nothing I'm more scared of. I used to be alone all the time before and I hate it.

I'm also anxious because school hasn't been going that great.. During my first and in the beginning of my second year in my current school I basically skipped school at least once in a week and had no motivation at all. I got terrible grades and failed a bunch of courses. I just didn't care. Now when my depression is better I've realised that I shouldn't have been so stupid. I guess I needed the slacking to get better but now it makes me feel horrible. I just wish I could start school all over again. I know I can do so much better than this.

After upper secondary school I wish to move to Sweden and study religion but it feels like a unrealistic dream with my current grades. I don't know what to do, I just wish I hadn't been a lazy slacker for almost two years.
I basically spend my nights crying over school and my future even when I'm on holidays.
Aurani
As someone who literally did the same thing a couple of years back, I can tell you that you should definitely not focus on the past. Nothing is irreparable, and while you may regret what you did, it's ultimately a part of your life and who you were. Just don't ever give up on whatever dream you have, and work towards it - it'll pay off in the future, trust me.
Tiisa

Aurani wrote:

As someone who literally did the same thing a couple of years back, I can tell you that you should definitely not focus on the past. Nothing is irreparable, and while you may regret what you did, it's ultimately a part of your life and who you were. Just don't ever give up on whatever dream you have, and work towards it - it'll pay off in the future, trust me.
I really hope that I'll be able to reach my goals even if it means I'll have to work a lot harder and more to achieve them. Thank you, this actually made me feel a little better about my future!
Aurani

Aegyo wrote:

I really hope that I'll be able to reach my goals even if it means I'll have to work a lot harder and more to achieve them. Thank you, this actually made me feel a little better about my future!
You're welcome! I'm happy to hear that you're willing to work towards your happiness, as I definitely remember how I felt at the time I did that very same thing. Nothing is out of reach when you work hard enough for it! =)
Ethoteric

Aurani wrote:

Aegyo wrote:

I really hope that I'll be able to reach my goals even if it means I'll have to work a lot harder and more to achieve them. Thank you, this actually made me feel a little better about my future!
You're welcome! I'm happy to hear that you're willing to work towards your happiness, as I definitely remember how I felt at the time I did that very same thing. Nothing is out of reach when you work hard enough for it! =)
As cheesy as it sounds, things do get better with time. The only sad thing is that we're incredibly limited on that resource: time.

You'll find your way. Do what makes you happy c:
Raisha Millenia
My friends secretly hates me. And they're talking about me everytime I'm not around them
Tiisa
Rewatched Tokyo magnitude 8.0
a1l2d3r4e5d6
The scariest dream that I couldn't wake up from this morning.

If you want to know what the 'dream' was
I left my blinds up earlier in the day and forgot to roll it back down before leaving. I came back to my room at night. The other side of my window was pitch black. I looked towards my window, almost not noticing that there was a figure staring at me through my window. Her skin was pale. Her face was rough, bloody and full of scars. Hair was black and long. Eyes were black and razor sharp teeth were showing from her eerie smile. She just floated there (room on the second floor), staring at me. At this point I should have woken up, but I couldn't. I turned away and looked back again. She was gone. I quickly rolled down my blinds and just stood there. I then peered out and saw other figures looking at me behind the windows of the old building across from where I lived. All looking similar to the figure from before. I kept doing this over and over again (idk why ._.).

*wakes up*
Ethoteric
Today has actually been a pretty depressing day. All three of my friends (plus me) were crying due to relationship situations.

Being clingy. Cheating. Giving up. Not listening. Not being sympathetic.

It's a cruel world we live in.
Athrun
- I worried about my future in 3 years time...
Aurani
Not even an hour has passed since my arrival, yet I feel like jumping off a cliff.
Mistletain
Katze
a fight with my boyfriend
Yuudachi-kun
Replacing my keyboard tommorow.
whymeman
To be honest, I have a hard time trying not to cry after hearing some recent things and I can't even sleep cause of it.

Well, first off, I just learned that Monty Ohm died recently. For those who don't know who he is, he's the person that created RWBY and other great works like Dead Fantasy and Haloid in Rooster Teeth. It was more depressing to learn that he died at the age of 33. That alone was a major shock and I wonder on what will become of the future for the RWBY series. Next person was Scott from Element Animation. He helped do a lot of humorus voice acting in the vids I enjoyed watching. Then there's kitty0706. He was well known for the Gary's mod vids created. I haven't felt this bad since that day I learned Nujabes already passed away before learning about him.

... why do all the cool people keep dying?
kutora
While I didn't necessarily cry it definitely made me feel like it. Was reminded of someone who isn't with me anymore. It just makes me feel terrible and makes me want to cry, but I honestly don't cry that much from sad things.
I did cry while watching Shigatsu wa Kimi no Uso because it reminded me of how I don't really have super close friends like the main characters at my university, and I just recently took a trip home and saw all my super close friends there and I miss them a lot.
I've also had troubles "finding my place" here cause there really aren't many people with a lot of similar interests as me. They're not even that rare, but the people who like anime basically are only really into anime, gamers are only really into games and so on.
I just really feel lost socially here and it bothers me a lot. When there's people with similar interests it's not too bad but when I approach some people in the anime club all like "Ayy have you guys seen the new episode of ____" and then they're just like "uhh what's that??" it just gets really awkward for me.. :c
Raisha Millenia
No Burger King today ;v;
Nathan
Sunday has arrived, can't stop thinking about school tomorrow ;w;
HaruryuuSan
Remembered about several things that happened in the past.
Katze
A terrible headache that just won't leave..
HaruryuuSan

Katze wrote:

A terrible headache that just won't leave..
I hope you'll be alright soon. D: Take care.
Kyonko Hizara

Katze wrote:

A terrible headache that just won't leave..
Same happened to me last night
chaee
Someone I care about is hurting but I can't do anything about it
Birdy
Voxnola
chaee
A certain fagotini
Kyonko Hizara
Pretty much everything at this point.
Conor
.
TakuMii
Slipped and and landed on my phone... the bottom is shattered, and a third of the screen doesn't respond to touch. I can't unlock my phone, and unless I get it repaired (which would cost the same amount as what I paid for the phone itself), I'll lose over thousands upon thousands of text messages. Happy memories, gone. Just like that. I don't know what to do with myself.

...Not to mention that it was the best phone I've ever used (Nexus 4... I loved it in every way aside from battery life), and I don't have money to replace it with anything even half as decent. I'm stuck using a shitty phone that isn't even good enough to run Facebook. Ugh.
Novalogic
onion x_x
Birdy
In short, upcoming exams, ongoing lack of motivation (actually I've read a few short books about philosophy already, but... I'm still scared).

Currently scared about everything in life, in fact.
show more
Please sign in to reply.

New reply