Not really, maybe at most, startled.
Momiji wrote:
would you say that your own consideration and whether you are able to come to terms with it or not has an impact as well? Do you think there were any other, better options to help you with that "realization"?
I've heard a line of questioning similar to this.
Anyways, what do you mean by "has an impact"? has an impact with what?
In terms of better options to help me with me realizing my life was actual shit, I'd say there are, but honestly after years of indifference and something on as deep of a level as suicide, there really isnt much out there.
Have you heard of how deeply affected people can be dependent on the risk of loss in their life? That's basically how it works.
Momiji wrote:
I'm not really interested in/entertained by stuff like playing games, etc. It might sound narrow-minded but I only want to take care of real life stuff and do romantic stuff (uhh) with my boyfriend, nothing else really.
Honestly, I think that perfectly reasonable. Not really sure how it's narrow-minded, as it doesnt necessarily reject any other explanation for why people can like videogames or anything. So yeah! I think you should just do you want, especially when you have a boyfriend, since your relationship should be more important.
About feeling heavy and weak, mentally tired with awareness and perception not being optimal, That's pretty similar to me xD
Do you feel like you base your conclusions on objectivity?