I just performed, on stage (actually not, the stage was too small for the group I'm in, so we decided not to perform on it). And I spontaneously talked to people I don't know during the orientation period.

I got the fresh start that I want in university and I'm not going to waste it. And I also want a girlfriend ;_;

I learned php the three days ago and immediately used it on a project that was due yesterday.
I really do think that php will really help me later on.

I started to go outside.

I bought some Manga.

JAKACHAN wrote:

Little update for me:

I have still been in California and actually extended my trip to an entire month. I have also decided once this trip ends to move back and will be driving back to California with all my stuff coming next week. I will be pursuing a career in photography and film and will be attempting to become sponsored by one of my favorite climbing companies. Everything is going well and falling into place!

I can't wait to be a part of this soon

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1. I decided to not continue school because I couldn't do it anymore.
2. I'll start learning for my drivers license soon, and I'll also start my apprenticeship as stewardess in a few weeks.

I renewed my gym membership and payed for a personal trainer, my body might not be ready for this.

ive stopped smoking for a whole 2 days

I've started to become more open to others at school and left my problems behind in the past and I'm going to follow my life goals!

After getting blocked on Instagram by 8 of my classmates I just decided the best and only decision was to be an asshole just to them...

kirueggy wrote:

After getting blocked on Instagram by 8 of my classmates I just decided the best and only decision was to be an asshole just to them...

#firstworldproblems

Jordan wrote:

kirueggy wrote:

After getting blocked on Instagram by 8 of my classmates I just decided the best and only decision was to be an asshole just to them...

#firstworldproblems

I lol'd.

Have not played league for 2 weeks.

Got a haircut for the first time in a year, feels good.

studying, not watching tv for 1 week

Studying a lot :v

i started do deal with a stress, depression and anger issue now.
reading about this forum inspired me to push even harder to fix my problems
thank you JAKACHAN.

Update:

I just started training in a gym with some of my freinds ^^, im going to train and eat healthy stuff, its about time that i leave my cave at home.

My inspiration: Kaneki Ken (Spoiler Alert this picture is from the Tokyo Ghoul manga, and is ahead of the anime series)
Take ur own responsibility, its a little spoiler but still

Finally applied to college and probably gonna start doing sports again

After graduating 4 years ago now things have been progressively going down hill. I didn't get into a program I wanted to go into (Commerce) back in high school so I settled for a different alternative (Economics), that was my first mistake in a long LONG line of mistakes. Going into economics I found something out, I HATED IT! Like I really didn't find any joy or fulfillment in economics. So I made it my goal to get out and do something better. Only problem was I didn't have an action plan or way of getting out. For some reason I thought in my mind that I will just get handed things to me. That's mistake number 2. After then I started wasting year after year trying to "find something better" by doing really nothing. Seeing my friends all graduating, starting their careers, doing what they have a passion for, while I'm still in the same spot "trying" to move on. Years go on and people start to leave one by one, now I'm all alone, well that's what I thought. As those years move on, so does the cost of going to school for nothing. My student debt starts to pile as I'm going no where. Currently I'm about $16,000 in debt so far and to the university, they label me as a 1st year student. Imagine how that feels, having $16Gs in debt being a damn first year student...

A problem I have is not letting people see what's truly going on inside of me. I tell lies to cover up my flaws to maintain a certain image to people. That is mistake number 3. I started telling lies to the people I hold dear to me, my parents, family, girlfriend, friends, almost everyone, just to show that I can deal with things by myself and can be independent. I started getting tangled in my own web of lies that I lost it. People started to find out, people started to get mad at me for lie and I deserve it. Every bit of it I deserve. I broke down, I couldn't handle it any longer. I was hurting the people that mean the universe to me all just to maintain a fake image. Stupid right?

So I started letting people know that I need help, real help and quick. That's where things started to get better for me. At first it didn't seem like it, people still mad that I wasted time doing nothing, but they are honestly there to help me if they really do care about me. So now as I sit at home for this fall semester, I take this moment for fix everything up and get things organized and set. As I work full time at a local McDonald's (been there for 4 years but part time, which I hate!!! Lol) I decided to leave university in general and apply to something that is more suited for me called college. Apply to it at the beginning of September and guess what! I GOT IN!!! Got accepted into computer science, something I dabbled into and actually loved! Come the winter I start school again and this time its a new start!! A brand new me that is ready to change, ready to communicate better with people and to start expanding my horizon. I'm 22, I have my whole life ahead of me. Doesn't matter if the people around me are starting their lives now, everyone goes at it at their own pace and this is my pace!!!


TL:DR version:
I fucked up with school for 4 years and messed around with people. Took some time to step back and look at my situation, to get my shit together and start doing what I love to do. Keep people close, people that care will always have your back.

Weez wrote:

Wall of text

Good job on writing a lot of text, Good luck.

I wish there was a way too read this quickly.

I finally managed to put effort in my exams (wrote 4 to 6,5 pages in each - aside from English and Swedish, all the exams were essay-only), will see the results in 2 weeks + some days. Guess I should be stoked. New semester started on Thursday, I hope I will do just as well or even better this time, despite being rather lonely and abandoned at school, not going to let that dampen my spark, no damn way. I guess there's always the chance for making new friends, too.

Cut down on smoking and plan to quit for new years...

Osu :3

Studying and more errands
Must work hard :<

being lazy.

A lot of you know that I'm a pretty pessimistic person, and a mad perfectionist. I let one single mistake get me down, and I beat myself up about every mistake for ages on end. Bad test results, being terrible in P.E no change there, getting something wrong... all of those things make me sad. When I look back on myself, I just think how pathetic I am.

Well, I've taken something to heart that my teacher (who I've known since middle school) said to me a while ago: "Leave your pessimistic self behind at the old school, and embrace the optimistic light of this new school!"
Although I have been failing to reach this, after having a fairly bad day, I've decided to be a bit more determined about achieving one goal. To eliminate my pessimism for GOOD. I need to stop saying I'm stupid and labelling myself like that.

I've set goals for myself at the gym and today (after years of wishing) i was finally able to do a muscle up. I did 2. I haven't felt this good since i don't know when, its a feeling that doesn't come around anymore. Made me happy ^_^

Started Studying for test more often now

studying more

Ichara wrote:

studying more

Drake_Infinite wrote:

Started Studying for test more often now

That's cool guys People say "I don't know how to do math" or "How am I supposed to understand this weird biological process with all these technical terms", but that's because they never have tried studying before.
It might not become "Dang, this is so easy I can do this while sleeping"-level-easy (Though with enough studying that is possible for sure!), but it will help A LOT more than doing nothing and agonizing/running.

CoolChris wrote:

I've set goals for myself at the gym and today (after years of wishing) i was finally able to do a muscle up. I did 2. I haven't felt this good since i don't know when, its a feeling that doesn't come around anymore. Made me happy ^_^

Every (second) day 2 muscle ups, and later this month it becomes 3 muscle ups. Then 4 and 5... by 2015 you might be able to hit 10! It's all about not giving up and appreciating the small successes like you're already doing. The feeling is amazing and it can be incredibly fun to see yourself improving.

I started out doing 10 pushups and 20 bycicle crunches every day. Few weeks later I did 15 pushups, 25 crunches => ... . Now I'm at 25 pushups and 35 crunches and it's hellofalot rewarding to see my physique looking better on top of being stronger!!
Just keep on going and it WILL be worth it

Magicphoenix wrote:

Ichara wrote:

studying more

Drake_Infinite wrote:

Started Studying for test more often now

That's cool guys People say "I don't know how to do math" or "How am I supposed to understand this weird biological process with all these technical terms", but that's because they never have tried studying before.
It might not become "Dang, this is so easy I can do this while sleeping"-level-easy (Though with enough studying that is possible for sure!), but it will help A LOT more than doing nothing and agonizing/running.

yeah very true ~

Ilfri-chan wrote:

Cut down on smoking and plan to quit for new years...

I wish I had your motivation to cut it as well.

TheNekoNextDoor wrote:

A lot of you know that I'm a pretty pessimistic person, and a mad perfectionist. I let one single mistake get me down, and I beat myself up about every mistake for ages on end. Bad test results, being terrible in P.E no change there, getting something wrong... all of those things make me sad. When I look back on myself, I just think how pathetic I am.

Well, I've taken something to heart that my teacher (who I've known since middle school) said to me a while ago: "Leave your pessimistic self behind at the old school, and embrace the optimistic light of this new school!"
Although I have been failing to reach this, after having a fairly bad day, I've decided to be a bit more determined about achieving one goal. To eliminate my pessimism for GOOD. I need to stop saying I'm stupid and labelling myself like that.

You know, I really love your teacher for saying that.
I tell this to you from my own experience, I, too, am a perfectionist. Everything I do has to be on point. Be it group work or sports, you can be damn sure when your whole team is trolling, I'll be that one 1,68m asian guy who still tries to turn it around on his own (the sport aspect still hasn't change, I'm a tryhard through and through). That doesn't sound so bad does it?
But when it comes to things like test or , in my case, relapsing (Masturbating even though you set yourself the goal not to) and you beat yourself up over that, it really is not gonna help!
The first and most important step is to forgive yourself. Of course in retrospect you realize all you've done wrong, how you could have done that and that better. But it's in the past, and for most things which happened in the past they remain unchangable. If you can change it - do it, if not - don't fret over it. That also applies to things where you slipped up in the past and you can't help it in the present moment.
Just remember the second most important step is that you learn from those mistakes. Maybe even write it down - "On my next test, I will score 100 points/an A/a 1. But to do that, I need to study"

For every mistake you do, forgive yourself, then change yourself so you don't repeat the same mistake. It's still like being a perfectionist - a unique characteristic that you can't change from one day to the other (surely if you genuinely want to change you can though) - but with forgiving yourself. And with those two attributes, you're really set out for life

Magicphoenix wrote:

TheNekoNextDoor wrote:

A lot of you know that I'm a pretty pessimistic person, and a mad perfectionist. I let one single mistake get me down, and I beat myself up about every mistake for ages on end. Bad test results, being terrible in P.E no change there, getting something wrong... all of those things make me sad. When I look back on myself, I just think how pathetic I am.

Well, I've taken something to heart that my teacher (who I've known since middle school) said to me a while ago: "Leave your pessimistic self behind at the old school, and embrace the optimistic light of this new school!"
Although I have been failing to reach this, after having a fairly bad day, I've decided to be a bit more determined about achieving one goal. To eliminate my pessimism for GOOD. I need to stop saying I'm stupid and labelling myself like that.

You know, I really love your teacher for saying that.
I tell this to you from my own experience, I, too, am a perfectionist. Everything I do has to be on point. Be it group work or sports, you can be damn sure when your whole team is trolling, I'll be that one 1,68m asian guy who still tries to turn it around on his own (the sport aspect still hasn't change, I'm a tryhard through and through). That doesn't sound so bad does it?
But when it comes to things like test or , in my case, relapsing (Masturbating even though you set yourself the goal not to) and you beat yourself up over that, it really is not gonna help!
The first and most important step is to forgive yourself. Of course in retrospect you realize all you've done wrong, how you could have done that and that better. But it's in the past, and for most things which happened in the past they remain unchangable. If you can change it - do it, if not - don't fret over it. That also applies to things where you slipped up in the past and you can't help it in the present moment.
Just remember the second most important step is that you learn from those mistakes. Maybe even write it down - "On my next test, I will score 100 points/an A/a 1. But to do that, I need to study"

For every mistake you do, forgive yourself, then change yourself so you don't repeat the same mistake. It's still like being a perfectionist - a unique characteristic that you can't change from one day to the other (surely if you genuinely want to change you can though) - but with forgiving yourself. And with those two attributes, you're really set out for life

Thank you! Although I have been having a bad time lately and failing to reach my little goal there, I'm going to make the push.
My first target: this upcoming maths assessment I'm scared about. I'll go in, in a great mood, and feeling like I can succeed.

Magicphoenix wrote:

CoolChris wrote:

I've set goals for myself at the gym and today (after years of wishing) i was finally able to do a muscle up. I did 2. I haven't felt this good since i don't know when, its a feeling that doesn't come around anymore. Made me happy ^_^

Every (second) day 2 muscle ups, and later this month it becomes 3 muscle ups. Then 4 and 5... by 2015 you might be able to hit 10! It's all about not giving up and appreciating the small successes like you're already doing. The feeling is amazing and it can be incredibly fun to see yourself improving.

I started out doing 10 pushups and 20 bycicle crunches every day. Few weeks later I did 15 pushups, 25 crunches => ... . Now I'm at 25 pushups and 35 crunches and it's hellofalot rewarding to see my physique looking better on top of being stronger!!
Just keep on going and it WILL be worth it

Thank you for the motivation! And funny how you say 10, because that was the new goal i've set for myself, I must be able to do 10 in a row in order for it to be accomplished. Never give up, never say you can't, because when i started out lifting 10 lbs i was laughed at. Who's laughing now, when i bench 205 lbs 4 times and i only weigh 132 lbs. You should see the looks on peoples faces, it fuels me to do more, keep staring at me, keep looking at someone who is short but able to do so much. They don't know that feel, they only know how to judge you, and look down upon you. I say F them and keep being yourself. let them stare, let them know that they wont ever be able to get to the level im at. I'm so glad i signed up, i was weak and pathetic before, thinking of why im such a loser. But gym made me realize how strong i can become. Even when im alone, i know im strong, i can see it, others can see it.

Thank You.

Nikkumi wrote:

Ilfri-chan wrote:

Cut down on smoking and plan to quit for new years...

I wish I had your motivation to cut it as well.

Walls of text



Good luck bro. What everyone else can do, you can do too.

Here you can find a few youtubers who I hope will help you, since they could also help me.
https://www.youtube.com/user/Kemetprince1/videos
https://www.youtube.com/user/elliottsaidwhat/featured
https://www.youtube.com/user/GoldJacketLuke/videos
Just pick a few or search for videos that interest you by the title. They will help you with smoking, other bad habits, and will surely help you get that motivation from within.

Special mention: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=z16vhtjWKL0 - "What is the Single Best Thing You Can Do to Quit Smoking?", a video that really hits the nail where it does the job. And in my opinion teaches a lot of other things, aside from just quit smoking - you should defintely check this out!