Started revising, and basically strive for higher goals.

kynolenkun wrote:

Started to run with ankle weights and just the weights that you hold to hope i could get faster and stronger.
I'm not in track or anything, just its one of those things that would kind of help you in the long run.

>Help you in the long run.

That double entendre tho.

Is it not painful to wear weights around your ankles when you run? I feel as if I would injure myself if I tried to do that while jogging.

KazmiSain wrote:

My family has been worried about me, since im always in front of the computer playing video game and watching anime.
They are always saying the same thing over and over again like
Ex. ' You should go outside the weather is great. and ' you should socialize yourself more'
I cant blame them cuz they are right.

As a person iam shy and quiet. This is probly cuz of my speech disorder (stuttering) and Social anxiety disorder (SAD). In high school i got bullied a lot bcuz of my speech disorder, which also lowered my selfconfidence. I hated reading out loud for the class because my classmates, were grining and trying hard not to laugh out loud.
But i had a couple of good freinds, who were backing me up during that hard time.

My parents suggested that i should go to a private school this year, because its less students and the teachers care more.

Im also going to speak with a speech therapist soo that i stutter less and can build up my selfconfidence.
Im trying to get out of the house more
Im trying to use my computer and cell phone less now
Im going to bed earlier
Im going to be more social
Im less lazy then b4 and i started exercising

Good job and good luck!

Been a while and don't know if we can post several times about stuff, but I'm fully able to run a mile and a half and my physique has grown (along with my self confidence.) Already gained 10 pounds and can feel more energy in my body; it feels good to exercise.

P.S. JAKACHAN other than the rock climbing you do is there any other physical training you're committed to? Want to find new things to add to my routine.

Started cleaning up around the house, fixing up broken furniture and cleaning year-old messes around the workshop and garage. I can only put in a couple hours a day into it due to allergies but things are looking up rather nicely.

Started running and lifting again too; sleep schedule's still a mess though.

staying away from people who can lower my self-esteem; accepting people; trying to feel less detached even tho it's a bit hard (cos some days I think that it's better to be rather detached and distant. people are so fake anyway); and opening up to people when I could

-Seren- wrote:

staying away from people who can lower my self-esteem; accepting people; trying to feel less detached even tho it's a bit hard (cos some days I think that it's better to be rather detached and distant. people are so fake anyway); and opening up to people when I could

this is so inspiring, and its true ppl are fake . soooo fake

Sakura_rocks wrote:

-Seren- wrote:

staying away from people who can lower my self-esteem; accepting people; trying to feel less detached even tho it's a bit hard (cos some days I think that it's better to be rather detached and distant. people are so fake anyway); and opening up to people when I could

this is so inspiring, and its true ppl are fake . soooo fake

not all of them, ofc.

I've been keeping myself busy. constantly working on what I've learnt and applying it to my own projects.

Little update for me:

I have still been in California and actually extended my trip to an entire month. I have also decided once this trip ends to move back and will be driving back to California with all my stuff coming next week. I will be pursuing a career in photography and film and will be attempting to become sponsored by one of my favorite climbing companies. Everything is going well and falling into place!

CalignoBot wrote:

I got a job at a grocery store (primarily to start paying on the student loan bills) and have been focusing almost entirely on making sure my coworkers and managers have as positive an opinion as possible about me. Primarily, I've been trying to improve communication in my department and become a support that people can rely on since... our department is notorious for having people leave or get forcibly kicked out within two months of them joining. One side effect of working here is that I'm also actually gaining social skills since I never talked to anyone during high school.

I'm really damn glad I had the foresight to do this, since I was made aware of a future job opportunity that can finally get me out of that horrific work environment. Both of the managers I had worked under are pretty much guaranteed to give a full positive review of me when asked, and I have a couple other professional references from my coworkers that can point out that the strong points of my personality align perfectly with what they're looking for. On top of that, I have three people within the company I'm shooting for that can do the same thing. My resume is already completely done and ready to roll, so I basically only have to worry about making some kind of fatal mistake in an interview because I'm basically set.

Just having that job instead of my current one would improve my life drastically. Even discounting better pay and more benefits, pretty much everything is better. The hours are consistent (my current job is nowhere near consistent; I have times where I close the department at 9PM and have to be there at 7AM 2 days later), the work environment is calmer and supportive (constant stress about having to multitask various things while also worrying about having to help the front end at my current job), the dress code is incredibly lax (I walked to work in the company's 'uniform', which is basically winter clothes; SUMMER IS FUN), I sit for most of the day (it's hard to walk after most shifts since I work 9 hours a day; virtually all of it is on my feet), etc. etc.

The only real downside is that I'd be talking to people over a phone, which I don't have the best time doing. |:

Otherwise, I"m a lot more comfortable with where my life is going now than I did a couple months ago. Now I just need to get my motivation back and I'll be set \o/

I just performed, on stage (actually not, the stage was too small for the group I'm in, so we decided not to perform on it). And I spontaneously talked to people I don't know during the orientation period.

I got the fresh start that I want in university and I'm not going to waste it. And I also want a girlfriend ;_;

I learned php the three days ago and immediately used it on a project that was due yesterday.
I really do think that php will really help me later on.

I started to go outside.

I bought some Manga.

JAKACHAN wrote:

Little update for me:

I have still been in California and actually extended my trip to an entire month. I have also decided once this trip ends to move back and will be driving back to California with all my stuff coming next week. I will be pursuing a career in photography and film and will be attempting to become sponsored by one of my favorite climbing companies. Everything is going well and falling into place!

I can't wait to be a part of this soon

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1. I decided to not continue school because I couldn't do it anymore.
2. I'll start learning for my drivers license soon, and I'll also start my apprenticeship as stewardess in a few weeks.

I renewed my gym membership and payed for a personal trainer, my body might not be ready for this.

ive stopped smoking for a whole 2 days

I've started to become more open to others at school and left my problems behind in the past and I'm going to follow my life goals!

After getting blocked on Instagram by 8 of my classmates I just decided the best and only decision was to be an asshole just to them...

kirueggy wrote:

After getting blocked on Instagram by 8 of my classmates I just decided the best and only decision was to be an asshole just to them...

#firstworldproblems

Jordan wrote:

kirueggy wrote:

After getting blocked on Instagram by 8 of my classmates I just decided the best and only decision was to be an asshole just to them...

#firstworldproblems

I lol'd.

Have not played league for 2 weeks.

Got a haircut for the first time in a year, feels good.

studying, not watching tv for 1 week

Studying a lot :v

i started do deal with a stress, depression and anger issue now.
reading about this forum inspired me to push even harder to fix my problems
thank you JAKACHAN.

Update:

I just started training in a gym with some of my freinds ^^, im going to train and eat healthy stuff, its about time that i leave my cave at home.

My inspiration: Kaneki Ken (Spoiler Alert this picture is from the Tokyo Ghoul manga, and is ahead of the anime series)
Take ur own responsibility, its a little spoiler but still

Finally applied to college and probably gonna start doing sports again

After graduating 4 years ago now things have been progressively going down hill. I didn't get into a program I wanted to go into (Commerce) back in high school so I settled for a different alternative (Economics), that was my first mistake in a long LONG line of mistakes. Going into economics I found something out, I HATED IT! Like I really didn't find any joy or fulfillment in economics. So I made it my goal to get out and do something better. Only problem was I didn't have an action plan or way of getting out. For some reason I thought in my mind that I will just get handed things to me. That's mistake number 2. After then I started wasting year after year trying to "find something better" by doing really nothing. Seeing my friends all graduating, starting their careers, doing what they have a passion for, while I'm still in the same spot "trying" to move on. Years go on and people start to leave one by one, now I'm all alone, well that's what I thought. As those years move on, so does the cost of going to school for nothing. My student debt starts to pile as I'm going no where. Currently I'm about $16,000 in debt so far and to the university, they label me as a 1st year student. Imagine how that feels, having $16Gs in debt being a damn first year student...

A problem I have is not letting people see what's truly going on inside of me. I tell lies to cover up my flaws to maintain a certain image to people. That is mistake number 3. I started telling lies to the people I hold dear to me, my parents, family, girlfriend, friends, almost everyone, just to show that I can deal with things by myself and can be independent. I started getting tangled in my own web of lies that I lost it. People started to find out, people started to get mad at me for lie and I deserve it. Every bit of it I deserve. I broke down, I couldn't handle it any longer. I was hurting the people that mean the universe to me all just to maintain a fake image. Stupid right?

So I started letting people know that I need help, real help and quick. That's where things started to get better for me. At first it didn't seem like it, people still mad that I wasted time doing nothing, but they are honestly there to help me if they really do care about me. So now as I sit at home for this fall semester, I take this moment for fix everything up and get things organized and set. As I work full time at a local McDonald's (been there for 4 years but part time, which I hate!!! Lol) I decided to leave university in general and apply to something that is more suited for me called college. Apply to it at the beginning of September and guess what! I GOT IN!!! Got accepted into computer science, something I dabbled into and actually loved! Come the winter I start school again and this time its a new start!! A brand new me that is ready to change, ready to communicate better with people and to start expanding my horizon. I'm 22, I have my whole life ahead of me. Doesn't matter if the people around me are starting their lives now, everyone goes at it at their own pace and this is my pace!!!


TL:DR version:
I fucked up with school for 4 years and messed around with people. Took some time to step back and look at my situation, to get my shit together and start doing what I love to do. Keep people close, people that care will always have your back.

Weez wrote:

Wall of text

Good job on writing a lot of text, Good luck.

I wish there was a way too read this quickly.

I finally managed to put effort in my exams (wrote 4 to 6,5 pages in each - aside from English and Swedish, all the exams were essay-only), will see the results in 2 weeks + some days. Guess I should be stoked. New semester started on Thursday, I hope I will do just as well or even better this time, despite being rather lonely and abandoned at school, not going to let that dampen my spark, no damn way. I guess there's always the chance for making new friends, too.

Cut down on smoking and plan to quit for new years...

Osu :3

Studying and more errands
Must work hard :<

being lazy.

A lot of you know that I'm a pretty pessimistic person, and a mad perfectionist. I let one single mistake get me down, and I beat myself up about every mistake for ages on end. Bad test results, being terrible in P.E no change there, getting something wrong... all of those things make me sad. When I look back on myself, I just think how pathetic I am.

Well, I've taken something to heart that my teacher (who I've known since middle school) said to me a while ago: "Leave your pessimistic self behind at the old school, and embrace the optimistic light of this new school!"
Although I have been failing to reach this, after having a fairly bad day, I've decided to be a bit more determined about achieving one goal. To eliminate my pessimism for GOOD. I need to stop saying I'm stupid and labelling myself like that.