I'm quite an experienced mapper, and with modding it seems everything should be fine, but no.
For three years, I dreamed of becoming a bn so that I could make a mark on the history of osu, and I steadily aspired to this. But at some point, I began to slowly lose interest in modding, along with it, I abandoned mapping for a month. Now I'm trying to get back, I made one beatmap that will probably go to the ranked, but the desire to become bn remains, unfortunately modding does not arouse my interest.
I just want to understand at what point and how it all started and what prevents me from continuing to write mods?
Even if I don’t know the answer myself, I may not get it here, but nevertheless I kept it in myself for a very long time and was afraid to tell at least someone about it because of condemnation.
For three years, I dreamed of becoming a bn so that I could make a mark on the history of osu, and I steadily aspired to this. But at some point, I began to slowly lose interest in modding, along with it, I abandoned mapping for a month. Now I'm trying to get back, I made one beatmap that will probably go to the ranked, but the desire to become bn remains, unfortunately modding does not arouse my interest.
I just want to understand at what point and how it all started and what prevents me from continuing to write mods?
Even if I don’t know the answer myself, I may not get it here, but nevertheless I kept it in myself for a very long time and was afraid to tell at least someone about it because of condemnation.