I'm just not able to socialize with the community because of my autism bullshit that I have. I can't fucking help it and I hate it. I was banned from the osz because I just couldn't keep my mouth shut about my maps being unfixable. I couldn't find any other way to get any mods for anything or even get feedback. This has only shown me that the Osu! community doesn't fucking care about people with mental disorders. They will do what they see fit, regardless of if you are autistic, bipolar, and sick in the head. I am no longer going to be playing Osu! anymore because everywhere I go, I fuck something up and make everyone mad at me for something I have barely any control over. I'm also deleting ALL of my maps (They are now gone). Even the ones that were not uploaded are going to be permanently deleted.

I can't help that I am so negative and pessimistic about my maps. I'm different and I'm just not able to fit in with the community. I wanted to have fun and get to know the community better, but I now know that the community is not welcoming to people with mental disorders. It almost makes me want to not exist anymore. Maybe then will the community be better off. They aren't nice to challenged users, so maybe if I just cease, it will all be over.

I'm not well anymore. I was never well. I only made things worse for myself by not keeping my mouth zipped.

So, this is it. I quit. Thanks for at least giving me the chance to talk. This is my last interaction with the community. After that, it's will be like this account, and in turn me, didn't exist.

See you all. I'll have a hard time finding a new game because I played this almost all my teen life. It sucks to see how fucked the community is towards mentally challenged people.

So, for the last time, goodbye.

Best of luck,

LaymooDR

damn im sorry for your loss

😢

I am not sure on the exact details of what happened in the osz server, but for osu! forums, it seems to me that people are actually trying to give you feedback. I just think you took it the wrong way or didn't really understand.

There definitely needs to be a way for you to calm down as well. From what I seen on your past posts, you've been on a negative mindset for a while now. Take a break maybe, rethink. If mapping is really this important, you need to keep yourself in the positive. otherwise, you will just keep going down a rabbit hole.

If nothing works out, mapping just might not be for you.

welcome to the club of quitters

Wimpy Cursed wrote:

I am not sure on the exact details of what happened in the osz server, but for osu! forums, it seems to me that people are actually trying to give you feedback. I just think you took it the wrong way or didn't really understand.

There definitely needs to be a way for you to calm down as well. From what I seen on your past posts, you've been on a negative mindset for a while now. Take a break maybe, rethink. If mapping is really this important, you need to keep yourself in the positive. otherwise, you will just keep going down a rabbit hole.

If nothing works out, mapping just might not be for you.

I've already deleted all of my maps, so this won't happen again. Also, quitting is completely different than taking a break. I don't know why Osu!'s community is exclusively rude against mentally challenged users.

LaymooDR wrote:

Wimpy Cursed wrote:

I am not sure on the exact details of what happened in the osz server, but for osu! forums, it seems to me that people are actually trying to give you feedback. I just think you took it the wrong way or didn't really understand.

There definitely needs to be a way for you to calm down as well. From what I seen on your past posts, you've been on a negative mindset for a while now. Take a break maybe, rethink. If mapping is really this important, you need to keep yourself in the positive. otherwise, you will just keep going down a rabbit hole.

If nothing works out, mapping just might not be for you.

I've already deleted all of my maps, so this won't happen again. Also, quitting is completely different than taking a break. I don't know why Osu!'s community is exclusively rude against mentally challenged users.

well then good luck on whatever you decide to do next.

Goodbye O/

rematyar wrote:

Goodbye O/

I feel like none of you care.

I forgot to mention that the maps I uploaded are going to be deleted as well.

Thought you quitted, why are you still here? Not trying to be rude. But you've been complaining about the community blah blah and quit. If you think this community is that bad, you shouldn't be here, then.

Just come back here after 28 days to delete your maps, and there you go!

Hope you could find a better community out there

Unless you specifically tell people, nobody will think or treat you as if you have a mental deficiency in any regard (apart from being an osu! player/mapper). What other people think about you is none of your business. I don't know how long you've been mapping for or how many mods you've tried to reach out to / for how long you have waited, but things like mapping take a lot of patience.

If you have received feedback, keep in mind that its best to try and take advice without thinking about how it makes you look or feel, that only causes more trouble than it's worth and you won't benefit from anything you are told. Adaptability and being willing to listen to and implement feedback are your best friends in almost every creative field.

Best of luck with whatever you spend your time on instead of mapping, hope your mindset improves.

rematyar wrote:

Thought you quitted, why are you still here? Not trying to be rude. But you've been complaining about the community blah blah and quit. If you think this community is that bad, you shouldn't be here, then.

Just come back here after 28 days to delete your maps, and there you go!

Hope you could find a better community out there

I already quitted and I'm just responding to messages until the maps are deleted. After that, I'm not logging on anymore.

I have read everything you’ve posted in the last 30 days, and I kinda have to agree on the mapper’s side. Even though I don’t map or barely map at all, it’s actually hard to believe that you started mapping 5 yrs ago. Why didn’t you create an account 5 years prior then?

I promise you. If you created your account years ago, you would get so much mapping experience from now. I think the reason on why you want to create an account just now is because you want to be the youngest mapper of all time. Do not take this as an argument, cuz that’s only my opinion.

And it seems all you respond seem to be pessimistic. You know that being pessimistic is just going to make it worse. Don’t ever think like that. This would affect your future too. and don't even expect that you can easily rank a map. Like me, I also tried to map and I had a friend (still my friend) who taught me mapping and all that kind of stuff, and it was just overwhelming and stuff. So I decided to stop mapping for a while.

And please do not think that you have no hope on mapping or in general. There are people who have much harder than you. Like me (again lmao). I've been struggling to find a job and keep getting rejected on it and always thought that everyone doesn’t even care about me. My Parents try to help me and I also cried on bed because of it. It’s not because of hatred, it’s because of skill. You could've watched numerous of videos on YouTube on how to map during your 5 years.

And that n-word stuff are probably raiders on the server, and no, they don’t hate you.

Welp, that’s all I'm going to say. And if I still can’t convince you enough, then what else can I do for you.

Seeya then, I hope you have it better somewhere else. I would help you, but it's really hard to do. 😊😔

Aireunaeus wrote:

I have read everything you’ve posted in the last 2 months, and I kinda have to agree on the mapper’s side. Even though I don’t map or barely map at all, it’s actually hard to believe that you started mapping 5 yrs ago. Why didn’t you create an account 5 years prior then?

I promise you. If you created your account years ago, you would get so much mapping experience from now. I think the reason on why you want to create an account just now is because you want to be the youngest mapper of all time. Do not take this as an argument, cuz that’s only my opinion.

And it seems all you respond seem to be pessimistic. You know that being pessimistic is just going to make it worse. Don’t ever think like that. This would affect your future too. and don't even expect that you can easily rank a map. Like me, I also tried to map and I had a friend (still my friend) who taught me mapping and all that kind of stuff, and it was just overwhelming and stuff. So I decided to stop mapping for a while.

And please do not think that you have no hope on mapping or in general. There are people who have much harder than you. Like me (again lmao). I've been struggling to find a job and keep getting rejected on it and always thought that everyone doesn’t even care about me. My Parents try to help me and I also cried on bed because of it. It’s not because of hatred, it’s because of skill. You could've watched numerous of videos on YouTube on how to map during your 5 years.

And that n-word stuff are probably raiders on the server, and no, they don’t hate you.

Welp, that’s all I'm going to say. And if I still can’t convince you enough, then what else can I do for you.

Seeya then, I hope you have it better somewhere else. I would help you, but it's really hard to do. 😊😔

I was scared of the internet back then. That's why I hesitated to make the account until 2 months ago. And the n-word stuff wasn't raiders.

LaymooDR wrote:

Aireunaeus wrote:

I have read everything you’ve posted in the last 2 months, and I kinda have to agree on the mapper’s side. Even though I don’t map or barely map at all, it’s actually hard to believe that you started mapping 5 yrs ago. Why didn’t you create an account 5 years prior then?

I promise you. If you created your account years ago, you would get so much mapping experience from now. I think the reason on why you want to create an account just now is because you want to be the youngest mapper of all time. Do not take this as an argument, cuz that’s only my opinion.

And it seems all you respond seem to be pessimistic. You know that being pessimistic is just going to make it worse. Don’t ever think like that. This would affect your future too. and don't even expect that you can easily rank a map. Like me, I also tried to map and I had a friend (still my friend) who taught me mapping and all that kind of stuff, and it was just overwhelming and stuff. So I decided to stop mapping for a while.

And please do not think that you have no hope on mapping or in general. There are people who have much harder than you. Like me (again lmao). I've been struggling to find a job and keep getting rejected on it and always thought that everyone doesn’t even care about me. My Parents try to help me and I also cried on bed because of it. It’s not because of hatred, it’s because of skill. You could've watched numerous of videos on YouTube on how to map during your 5 years.

And that n-word stuff are probably raiders on the server, and no, they don’t hate you.

Welp, that’s all I'm going to say. And if I still can’t convince you enough, then what else can I do for you.

Seeya then, I hope you have it better somewhere else. I would help you, but it's really hard to do. 😊😔

I was scared of the internet back then. That's why I hesitated to make the account until 2 months ago. And the n-word stuff wasn't raiders.

Can you prove me that the people who posted the n-word are mappers. (don't post the screenshot though, I'm afraid that we can get silenced from it 😰). I do understand the internet stuff. (the internet can be dangerous sometimes) But how did you find osu and why mapping?

Aireunaeus wrote:

LaymooDR wrote:

Aireunaeus wrote:

I have read everything you’ve posted in the last 2 months, and I kinda have to agree on the mapper’s side. Even though I don’t map or barely map at all, it’s actually hard to believe that you started mapping 5 yrs ago. Why didn’t you create an account 5 years prior then?

I promise you. If you created your account years ago, you would get so much mapping experience from now. I think the reason on why you want to create an account just now is because you want to be the youngest mapper of all time. Do not take this as an argument, cuz that’s only my opinion.

And it seems all you respond seem to be pessimistic. You know that being pessimistic is just going to make it worse. Don’t ever think like that. This would affect your future too. and don't even expect that you can easily rank a map. Like me, I also tried to map and I had a friend (still my friend) who taught me mapping and all that kind of stuff, and it was just overwhelming and stuff. So I decided to stop mapping for a while.

And please do not think that you have no hope on mapping or in general. There are people who have much harder than you. Like me (again lmao). I've been struggling to find a job and keep getting rejected on it and always thought that everyone doesn’t even care about me. My Parents try to help me and I also cried on bed because of it. It’s not because of hatred, it’s because of skill. You could've watched numerous of videos on YouTube on how to map during your 5 years.

And that n-word stuff are probably raiders on the server, and no, they don’t hate you.

Welp, that’s all I'm going to say. And if I still can’t convince you enough, then what else can I do for you.

Seeya then, I hope you have it better somewhere else. I would help you, but it's really hard to do. 😊😔

I was scared of the internet back then. That's why I hesitated to make the account until 2 months ago. And the n-word stuff wasn't raiders.

Can you prove me that the people who posted the n-word are mappers. (don't post the screenshot though, I'm afraid that we can get silenced from it 😰) but I do understand the internet stuff, but how did you find osu and why mapping?

I used it as a aim trainer to get better at FNAF 2, but it was fun and I got hooked.

I later found out that I could make my own maps, so I mapped, and mapped, and mapped. I slowly got more serious about rhythm instead of making purposeful shitmaps, so I changed to serious mapping soon enough. I learned the basics, different slider sections, streams, jump patterns. I was enjoying it. It all got soured though 5 years later on this fateful day.

Also, most of the maps from another computer was lost against my will, due to an OS corruption.

If I had the ability to go into the hard drive of that computer, maybe I could recover every single map from that and archive them, as those are the earliest maps I made. It reminds me of how I was back in my prime. God, how I wish to be able to see those maps again.

Oh, one of the users said it. I never got a screenshot, as I was banned shortly after.

If the community manages to be nice for the next month, I might consider coming back. Otherwise, well, you know.

LaymooDR wrote:

Aireunaeus wrote:

LaymooDR wrote:

Aireunaeus wrote:

I have read everything you’ve posted in the last 2 months, and I kinda have to agree on the mapper’s side. Even though I don’t map or barely map at all, it’s actually hard to believe that you started mapping 5 yrs ago. Why didn’t you create an account 5 years prior then?

I promise you. If you created your account years ago, you would get so much mapping experience from now. I think the reason on why you want to create an account just now is because you want to be the youngest mapper of all time. Do not take this as an argument, cuz that’s only my opinion.

And it seems all you respond seem to be pessimistic. You know that being pessimistic is just going to make it worse. Don’t ever think like that. This would affect your future too. and don't even expect that you can easily rank a map. Like me, I also tried to map and I had a friend (still my friend) who taught me mapping and all that kind of stuff, and it was just overwhelming and stuff. So I decided to stop mapping for a while.

And please do not think that you have no hope on mapping or in general. There are people who have much harder than you. Like me (again lmao). I've been struggling to find a job and keep getting rejected on it and always thought that everyone doesn’t even care about me. My Parents try to help me and I also cried on bed because of it. It’s not because of hatred, it’s because of skill. You could've watched numerous of videos on YouTube on how to map during your 5 years.

And that n-word stuff are probably raiders on the server, and no, they don’t hate you.

Welp, that’s all I'm going to say. And if I still can’t convince you enough, then what else can I do for you.

Seeya then, I hope you have it better somewhere else. I would help you, but it's really hard to do. 😊😔

I was scared of the internet back then. That's why I hesitated to make the account until 2 months ago. And the n-word stuff wasn't raiders.

Can you prove me that the people who posted the n-word are mappers. (don't post the screenshot though, I'm afraid that we can get silenced from it 😰) but I do understand the internet stuff, but how did you find osu and why mapping?

I used it as a aim trainer to get better at FNAF 2, but it was fun and I got hooked.

I later found out that I could make my own maps, so I mapped, and mapped, and mapped. I slowly got more serious about rhythm instead of making purposeful shitmaps, so I changed to serious mapping soon enough. I learned the basics, different slider sections, streams, jump patterns. I was enjoying it. It all got soured though 5 years later on this fateful day.

Also, most of the maps from another computer was lost against my will, due to an OS corruption.

If I had the ability to go into the hard drive of that computer, maybe I could recover every single map from that and archive them, as those are the earliest maps I made. It reminds me of how I was back in my prime. God, how I wish to be able to see those maps again.

Oh, one of the users said it. I never got a screenshot, as I was banned shortly after.

If the community manages to be nice for the next month, I might consider coming back. Otherwise, well, you know.

fnaf 2 lmaoooo. (no offense though).

Man, it does suck if the maps are gone due to a corruption. For Example, I lost all my chats Before January 2022 and these were kinda nostalgic to me, I don't know why but yeah. they were gone as soon as I transferred into my new phone.

Ah, I see, it was rather a random guy and the server was probably not moderated well.

Yeah, we would be nice to you, but only if you don't think really bad or talk bad stuff about the community. They tried to help you, but you seem to be hopeless the whole time. You also remind me of the guy called "loserotaku". He always made threads on how to improve in osu and it just didn't work. Even though everyone wanted to help him, he always made new threads. So much that we just gave up at this point lmao. Please do not make 1000s of threads. You can always relearn the mapping stuff you did during the 5 years. You have soooo much time, don't think that osu's gonna die. No one can stop you.

Aireunaeus wrote:

LaymooDR wrote:

Aireunaeus wrote:

LaymooDR wrote:

Aireunaeus wrote:

I have read everything you’ve posted in the last 2 months, and I kinda have to agree on the mapper’s side. Even though I don’t map or barely map at all, it’s actually hard to believe that you started mapping 5 yrs ago. Why didn’t you create an account 5 years prior then?

I promise you. If you created your account years ago, you would get so much mapping experience from now. I think the reason on why you want to create an account just now is because you want to be the youngest mapper of all time. Do not take this as an argument, cuz that’s only my opinion.

And it seems all you respond seem to be pessimistic. You know that being pessimistic is just going to make it worse. Don’t ever think like that. This would affect your future too. and don't even expect that you can easily rank a map. Like me, I also tried to map and I had a friend (still my friend) who taught me mapping and all that kind of stuff, and it was just overwhelming and stuff. So I decided to stop mapping for a while.

And please do not think that you have no hope on mapping or in general. There are people who have much harder than you. Like me (again lmao). I've been struggling to find a job and keep getting rejected on it and always thought that everyone doesn’t even care about me. My Parents try to help me and I also cried on bed because of it. It’s not because of hatred, it’s because of skill. You could've watched numerous of videos on YouTube on how to map during your 5 years.

And that n-word stuff are probably raiders on the server, and no, they don’t hate you.

Welp, that’s all I'm going to say. And if I still can’t convince you enough, then what else can I do for you.

Seeya then, I hope you have it better somewhere else. I would help you, but it's really hard to do. 😊😔

I was scared of the internet back then. That's why I hesitated to make the account until 2 months ago. And the n-word stuff wasn't raiders.

Can you prove me that the people who posted the n-word are mappers. (don't post the screenshot though, I'm afraid that we can get silenced from it 😰) but I do understand the internet stuff, but how did you find osu and why mapping?

I used it as a aim trainer to get better at FNAF 2, but it was fun and I got hooked.

I later found out that I could make my own maps, so I mapped, and mapped, and mapped. I slowly got more serious about rhythm instead of making purposeful shitmaps, so I changed to serious mapping soon enough. I learned the basics, different slider sections, streams, jump patterns. I was enjoying it. It all got soured though 5 years later on this fateful day.

Also, most of the maps from another computer was lost against my will, due to an OS corruption.

If I had the ability to go into the hard drive of that computer, maybe I could recover every single map from that and archive them, as those are the earliest maps I made. It reminds me of how I was back in my prime. God, how I wish to be able to see those maps again.

Oh, one of the users said it. I never got a screenshot, as I was banned shortly after.

If the community manages to be nice for the next month, I might consider coming back. Otherwise, well, you know.

fnaf 2 lmaoooo. (no offense though).

Man, it does suck if the maps are gone due to a corruption. For Example, I lost all my chats Before January 2022 and these were kinda nostalgic to me, I don't know why but yeah. they were gone as soon as I transferred into my new phone.

Ah, I see, it was rather a random guy and the server was probably not moderated well.

Yeah we would be nice to you, if you don't think really bad or talk bad stuf on the community. they tried to help you but you seem to be hopeless the whole time. You also remind me of the guy called "loserotaku". He always made threads on how to improve in osu and it just didn't work. even though everyone wanted to help him, he always made new threads. so much that we just gave up at this point, lmao. please do not make 1000s of threads. you can always relearn the mapping stuff you did during the 5 years. you have soooo much time. No one can stop you.

To be honest, it did help, as I beat 10/20 mode. Twice.

Also, not all hope for the lost maps are lost. The OS corruption didn't corrupt anything other that the OS files. The maps are still there, sitting in limbo.

LaymooDR wrote:

Aireunaeus wrote:

LaymooDR wrote:

Aireunaeus wrote:

LaymooDR wrote:

Aireunaeus wrote:

I have read everything you’ve posted in the last 2 months, and I kinda have to agree on the mapper’s side. Even though I don’t map or barely map at all, it’s actually hard to believe that you started mapping 5 yrs ago. Why didn’t you create an account 5 years prior then?

I promise you. If you created your account years ago, you would get so much mapping experience from now. I think the reason on why you want to create an account just now is because you want to be the youngest mapper of all time. Do not take this as an argument, cuz that’s only my opinion.

And it seems all you respond seem to be pessimistic. You know that being pessimistic is just going to make it worse. Don’t ever think like that. This would affect your future too. and don't even expect that you can easily rank a map. Like me, I also tried to map and I had a friend (still my friend) who taught me mapping and all that kind of stuff, and it was just overwhelming and stuff. So I decided to stop mapping for a while.

And please do not think that you have no hope on mapping or in general. There are people who have much harder than you. Like me (again lmao). I've been struggling to find a job and keep getting rejected on it and always thought that everyone doesn’t even care about me. My Parents try to help me and I also cried on bed because of it. It’s not because of hatred, it’s because of skill. You could've watched numerous of videos on YouTube on how to map during your 5 years.

And that n-word stuff are probably raiders on the server, and no, they don’t hate you.

Welp, that’s all I'm going to say. And if I still can’t convince you enough, then what else can I do for you.

Seeya then, I hope you have it better somewhere else. I would help you, but it's really hard to do. 😊😔

I was scared of the internet back then. That's why I hesitated to make the account until 2 months ago. And the n-word stuff wasn't raiders.

Can you prove me that the people who posted the n-word are mappers. (don't post the screenshot though, I'm afraid that we can get silenced from it 😰) but I do understand the internet stuff, but how did you find osu and why mapping?

I used it as a aim trainer to get better at FNAF 2, but it was fun and I got hooked.

I later found out that I could make my own maps, so I mapped, and mapped, and mapped. I slowly got more serious about rhythm instead of making purposeful shitmaps, so I changed to serious mapping soon enough. I learned the basics, different slider sections, streams, jump patterns. I was enjoying it. It all got soured though 5 years later on this fateful day.

Also, most of the maps from another computer was lost against my will, due to an OS corruption.

If I had the ability to go into the hard drive of that computer, maybe I could recover every single map from that and archive them, as those are the earliest maps I made. It reminds me of how I was back in my prime. God, how I wish to be able to see those maps again.

Oh, one of the users said it. I never got a screenshot, as I was banned shortly after.

If the community manages to be nice for the next month, I might consider coming back. Otherwise, well, you know.

fnaf 2 lmaoooo. (no offense though).

Man, it does suck if the maps are gone due to a corruption. For Example, I lost all my chats Before January 2022 and these were kinda nostalgic to me, I don't know why but yeah. they were gone as soon as I transferred into my new phone.

Ah, I see, it was rather a random guy and the server was probably not moderated well.

Yeah we would be nice to you, if you don't think really bad or talk bad stuf on the community. they tried to help you but you seem to be hopeless the whole time. You also remind me of the guy called "loserotaku". He always made threads on how to improve in osu and it just didn't work. even though everyone wanted to help him, he always made new threads. so much that we just gave up at this point, lmao. please do not make 1000s of threads. you can always relearn the mapping stuff you did during the 5 years. you have soooo much time. No one can stop you.

To be honest, it did help, as I beat 10/20 mode. Twice.

Also, not all hope for the lost maps are lost. The OS corruption didn't corrupt anything other that the OS files. The maps are still there, sitting in limbo.

Nice, osu kind of work on pretty much everything lmao

Perfect, you can use them to study your mapping techniques. but i dont wanna be offending, try to watch other videos like pishifat's mapping tutorials

ooh speaking of pishifat watch this video

but yeah if you dont wanna map again, then i can't blame you 😭. mapping is pretty hard nowadays. but that video proves that new players can rank a map too. you just need to be in the community and being nice in general.

Aireunaeus wrote:

LaymooDR wrote:

Aireunaeus wrote:

LaymooDR wrote:

Aireunaeus wrote:

LaymooDR wrote:

Aireunaeus wrote:

I have read everything you’ve posted in the last 2 months, and I kinda have to agree on the mapper’s side. Even though I don’t map or barely map at all, it’s actually hard to believe that you started mapping 5 yrs ago. Why didn’t you create an account 5 years prior then?

I promise you. If you created your account years ago, you would get so much mapping experience from now. I think the reason on why you want to create an account just now is because you want to be the youngest mapper of all time. Do not take this as an argument, cuz that’s only my opinion.

And it seems all you respond seem to be pessimistic. You know that being pessimistic is just going to make it worse. Don’t ever think like that. This would affect your future too. and don't even expect that you can easily rank a map. Like me, I also tried to map and I had a friend (still my friend) who taught me mapping and all that kind of stuff, and it was just overwhelming and stuff. So I decided to stop mapping for a while.

And please do not think that you have no hope on mapping or in general. There are people who have much harder than you. Like me (again lmao). I've been struggling to find a job and keep getting rejected on it and always thought that everyone doesn’t even care about me. My Parents try to help me and I also cried on bed because of it. It’s not because of hatred, it’s because of skill. You could've watched numerous of videos on YouTube on how to map during your 5 years.

And that n-word stuff are probably raiders on the server, and no, they don’t hate you.

Welp, that’s all I'm going to say. And if I still can’t convince you enough, then what else can I do for you.

Seeya then, I hope you have it better somewhere else. I would help you, but it's really hard to do. 😊😔

I was scared of the internet back then. That's why I hesitated to make the account until 2 months ago. And the n-word stuff wasn't raiders.

Can you prove me that the people who posted the n-word are mappers. (don't post the screenshot though, I'm afraid that we can get silenced from it 😰) but I do understand the internet stuff, but how did you find osu and why mapping?

I used it as a aim trainer to get better at FNAF 2, but it was fun and I got hooked.

I later found out that I could make my own maps, so I mapped, and mapped, and mapped. I slowly got more serious about rhythm instead of making purposeful shitmaps, so I changed to serious mapping soon enough. I learned the basics, different slider sections, streams, jump patterns. I was enjoying it. It all got soured though 5 years later on this fateful day.

Also, most of the maps from another computer was lost against my will, due to an OS corruption.

If I had the ability to go into the hard drive of that computer, maybe I could recover every single map from that and archive them, as those are the earliest maps I made. It reminds me of how I was back in my prime. God, how I wish to be able to see those maps again.

Oh, one of the users said it. I never got a screenshot, as I was banned shortly after.

If the community manages to be nice for the next month, I might consider coming back. Otherwise, well, you know.

fnaf 2 lmaoooo. (no offense though).

Man, it does suck if the maps are gone due to a corruption. For Example, I lost all my chats Before January 2022 and these were kinda nostalgic to me, I don't know why but yeah. they were gone as soon as I transferred into my new phone.

Ah, I see, it was rather a random guy and the server was probably not moderated well.

Yeah we would be nice to you, if you don't think really bad or talk bad stuf on the community. they tried to help you but you seem to be hopeless the whole time. You also remind me of the guy called "loserotaku". He always made threads on how to improve in osu and it just didn't work. even though everyone wanted to help him, he always made new threads. so much that we just gave up at this point, lmao. please do not make 1000s of threads. you can always relearn the mapping stuff you did during the 5 years. you have soooo much time. No one can stop you.

To be honest, it did help, as I beat 10/20 mode. Twice.

Also, not all hope for the lost maps are lost. The OS corruption didn't corrupt anything other that the OS files. The maps are still there, sitting in limbo.

Nice, osu kind of work on pretty much everything lmao

Perfect, you can use them to study your mapping techniques. but i dont wanna be offending, try to watch other videos like pishifat's mapping tutorials

ooh speaking of pishifat watch this video

but yeah if you dont wanna map again, then i can't blame you 😭. mapping is pretty hard nowadays. but that video proves that new players can rank a map too. you just need to be in the community and being nice in general.

I've watched them before. Can't say they made an impact on my mapping skill though.

LaymooDR wrote:

Aireunaeus wrote:

LaymooDR wrote:

Aireunaeus wrote:

LaymooDR wrote:

Aireunaeus wrote:

LaymooDR wrote:

Aireunaeus wrote:

I have read everything you’ve posted in the last 2 months, and I kinda have to agree on the mapper’s side. Even though I don’t map or barely map at all, it’s actually hard to believe that you started mapping 5 yrs ago. Why didn’t you create an account 5 years prior then?

I promise you. If you created your account years ago, you would get so much mapping experience from now. I think the reason on why you want to create an account just now is because you want to be the youngest mapper of all time. Do not take this as an argument, cuz that’s only my opinion.

And it seems all you respond seem to be pessimistic. You know that being pessimistic is just going to make it worse. Don’t ever think like that. This would affect your future too. and don't even expect that you can easily rank a map. Like me, I also tried to map and I had a friend (still my friend) who taught me mapping and all that kind of stuff, and it was just overwhelming and stuff. So I decided to stop mapping for a while.

And please do not think that you have no hope on mapping or in general. There are people who have much harder than you. Like me (again lmao). I've been struggling to find a job and keep getting rejected on it and always thought that everyone doesn’t even care about me. My Parents try to help me and I also cried on bed because of it. It’s not because of hatred, it’s because of skill. You could've watched numerous of videos on YouTube on how to map during your 5 years.

And that n-word stuff are probably raiders on the server, and no, they don’t hate you.

Welp, that’s all I'm going to say. And if I still can’t convince you enough, then what else can I do for you.

Seeya then, I hope you have it better somewhere else. I would help you, but it's really hard to do. 😊😔

I was scared of the internet back then. That's why I hesitated to make the account until 2 months ago. And the n-word stuff wasn't raiders.

Can you prove me that the people who posted the n-word are mappers. (don't post the screenshot though, I'm afraid that we can get silenced from it 😰) but I do understand the internet stuff, but how did you find osu and why mapping?

I used it as a aim trainer to get better at FNAF 2, but it was fun and I got hooked.

I later found out that I could make my own maps, so I mapped, and mapped, and mapped. I slowly got more serious about rhythm instead of making purposeful shitmaps, so I changed to serious mapping soon enough. I learned the basics, different slider sections, streams, jump patterns. I was enjoying it. It all got soured though 5 years later on this fateful day.

Also, most of the maps from another computer was lost against my will, due to an OS corruption.

If I had the ability to go into the hard drive of that computer, maybe I could recover every single map from that and archive them, as those are the earliest maps I made. It reminds me of how I was back in my prime. God, how I wish to be able to see those maps again.

Oh, one of the users said it. I never got a screenshot, as I was banned shortly after.

If the community manages to be nice for the next month, I might consider coming back. Otherwise, well, you know.

fnaf 2 lmaoooo. (no offense though).

Man, it does suck if the maps are gone due to a corruption. For Example, I lost all my chats Before January 2022 and these were kinda nostalgic to me, I don't know why but yeah. they were gone as soon as I transferred into my new phone.

Ah, I see, it was rather a random guy and the server was probably not moderated well.

Yeah we would be nice to you, if you don't think really bad or talk bad stuf on the community. they tried to help you but you seem to be hopeless the whole time. You also remind me of the guy called "loserotaku". He always made threads on how to improve in osu and it just didn't work. even though everyone wanted to help him, he always made new threads. so much that we just gave up at this point, lmao. please do not make 1000s of threads. you can always relearn the mapping stuff you did during the 5 years. you have soooo much time. No one can stop you.

To be honest, it did help, as I beat 10/20 mode. Twice.

Also, not all hope for the lost maps are lost. The OS corruption didn't corrupt anything other that the OS files. The maps are still there, sitting in limbo.

Nice, osu kind of work on pretty much everything lmao

Perfect, you can use them to study your mapping techniques. but i don't wanna be offending, try to watch other videos like pishifat's mapping tutorials

ooh, speaking of pishifat watch this video

but yeah, if you don't wanna map again, then I can't blame you 😭. mapping is pretty hard nowadays. but that video proves that new players can rank a map too. you just need to be in the community and being nice in general.

I've watched them before. Can't say they made an impact on my mapping skill, though.

If this hasn't impacted you, try watching other ones. or take notes of that video. you can't just binge-watch them and then remember everything.

LaymooDR wrote:

I've watched them before. Can't say they made an impact on my mapping skill though.

I think maybe getting some feedback from your friend or someone else who never map or barely map but play any rhythm game is better. Because if someone makes something, they could recognize at least the rhythm but other people couldn't so I think it's better for you

You need to be open to criticism in order for people to help you. These words may be harsh but they're ultimately for your improvement in mapping. Assume good intentions and don't assume that they bully the mentally challenged, they wouldn't be helping you in the first place if that's so.

You're negativity towards your own maps is honestly your fault. It's expected that the people would get tired of you if you always blabber about how bad your maps are. You also wouldn't like it if the person you're talking too always talks about how they make bad maps right? Change your view on your maps and be on your best behavior. Then people would actually be willing to treat you kindly.

And if this seems like I'm bullying you because you're mentally challenged, don't think that's the case. I am criticizing you of your own bad aspects. Don't assume that everyone in the world is out to get you.

Stomiks wrote:

You need to be open to criticism in order for people to help you. These words may be harsh but they're ultimately for your improvement in mapping. Assume good intentions and don't assume that they bully the mentally challenged, they wouldn't be helping you in the first place if that's so.

You're negativity towards your own maps is honestly your fault. It's expected that the people would get tired of you if you always blabber about how bad your maps are. You also wouldn't like it if the person you're talking too always talks about how they make bad maps right? Change your view on your maps and be on your best behavior. Then people would actually be willing to treat you kindly.

And if this seems like I'm bullying you because you're mentally challenged, don't think that's the case. I am criticizing you of your own bad aspects. Don't assume that everyone in the world is out to get you.

I have a strong indication of Asperger and ADHD, I was also a big mouth back then. It took me about 2-3 years to get me to stop talking too much. Hope he can also get better at communicating with other

"I quit" compilation when

Jangsoodlor wrote:

"I quit" compilation when

Is this a joke?

LaymooDR wrote:

Jangsoodlor wrote:

"I quit" compilation when

Is this a joke?

He said this because A LOT of osu players say that they want to quit and it's getting a little bit boring.

I AM VERY SMART wrote:

LaymooDR wrote:

Jangsoodlor wrote:

"I quit" compilation when

Is this a joke?

He said this because A LOT of osu players say that they want to quit and it's getting a little bit boring.

Well, excuse me for continuing the train of quitters.

LaymooDR wrote:

I AM VERY SMART wrote:

LaymooDR wrote:

Jangsoodlor wrote:

"I quit" compilation when

Is this a joke?

He said this because A LOT of osu players say that they want to quit and it's getting a little bit boring.

Well, excuse me for continuing the train of quitters.

but that was rather coincidental tbh that people decided to leave in a sudden

Most gameplay oriented thread in G&R🔥

AccountWontWork wrote:

Most gameplay oriented thread in G&R🔥

If you think so.

Honestly, I'm trying to hope that one of my maps gets ranked, but it gets very complicated in the nomination and ranking side. I can only do shit mapping.

THETM wrote:

Honestly, I'm trying to hope that one of my maps gets ranked, but it gets very complicated in the nomination and ranking side. I can only do shit mapping.

I'm not sure if my situation is the same as yours. I get nothing at all and when feedback does come, I'm already pissed over something else, which fucks me over.

people in life come and go, just here to wish you good luck

Being a mapper and making good maps takes a lot of work. You have not put in enough work to make good maps.

LaymooDR wrote:

I couldn't find any other way to get any mods for anything or even get feedback.

The mapping community is focused on creating QUALITY maps. If you suck at mapping there's plenty of resources out there for you to learn from. It sounds heartless but no one with any sort of skill wants to waste time giving you feedback when you clearly are not even learning the basics.

People want to give feedback to mappers who will use it. If they see that you don't know the basics then they wont bother giving you feedback because its a waste of time. Mappers that have potential are the ones who get feedback.

LaymooDR wrote:

This has only shown me that the Osu! community doesn't fucking care about people with mental disorders. They will do what they see fit, regardless of if you are autistic, bipolar, and sick in the head.

The Osu community is not a psychiatrist, they will treat you the same as everyone else. You don't get special treatment for having a mental disorder. People are focused on mapping, not on your feelings. This how it should be, you are not special.

LaymooDR wrote:

I am no longer going to be playing Osu! anymore because everywhere I go, I fuck something up and make everyone mad at me for something I have barely any control over.

That sounds like a problem with you, not the community.

LaymooDR wrote:

I wanted to have fun and get to know the community better, but I now know that the community is not welcoming to people with mental disorders.

They are actually very welcoming. Blushing give you a massive, well though out response to you when you posted your other thread. However in your case it seems you feel you are entitled to something from the community and you perceive that as "unwelcoming". Like I said before, you have not put in any work and no one knows you. You are entitled to nothing.

LaymooDR wrote:

See you all. I'll have a hard time finding a new game because I played this almost all my teen life. It sucks to see how fucked the community is towards mentally challenged people.

Bye.

Maybe one day you will see that playing the victim doesn't solve your problems. This whole "I'm quitting" thing is not achieving anything. You are just creating meaningless drama and trying to lash out at people who didn't do anything to begin with.

come back from refraining from replying to your thread just to say this one:

Honestly it seems like to me you're way too unstable to do anything.

You got kicked on one server out of a plethora and then suddenly you went "the community doesn't care about mental disorder".

You only posted 1 map, on 1 modding queue, got no response on said queue without checking others, and then you also went "My map is unmoddable".

So my suggestion is, you guess it, quit. But not just the game in general, but the forum as well.

I think you really need time to stabilize yourself, and keep posting on forums just ain't gonna cut it. Even true newbies can go really far off if they have that much of people's feedback just from the forums alone. I want you to disconnect from osu as a whole, let it out of your mind completely, and try to do something else irl. If not 6 months, at least a year, or even 2, or 3, or even longer. You really need a full break to recover yourself, because overwhelming yourself by trying to continue ain't something one should do.

second_wave wrote:

people in life come and go, just here to wish you good luck

Same, after all, we're all just chilling here!

Fxjlk wrote:

Being a mapper and making good maps takes a lot of work. You have not put in enough work to make good maps.

LaymooDR wrote:

I couldn't find any other way to get any mods for anything or even get feedback.

The mapping community is focused on creating QUALITY maps. If you suck at mapping there's plenty of resources out there for you to learn from. It sounds heartless but no one with any sort of skill wants to waste time giving you feedback when you clearly are not even learning the basics.

People want to give feedback to mappers who will use it. If they see that you don't know the basics then they wont bother giving you feedback because its a waste of time. Mappers that have potential are the ones who get feedback.

LaymooDR wrote:

This has only shown me that the Osu! community doesn't fucking care about people with mental disorders. They will do what they see fit, regardless of if you are autistic, bipolar, and sick in the head.

The Osu community is not a psychiatrist, they will treat you the same as everyone else. You don't get special treatment for having a mental disorder. People are focused on mapping, not on your feelings. This how it should be, you are not special.

LaymooDR wrote:

I am no longer going to be playing Osu! anymore because everywhere I go, I fuck something up and make everyone mad at me for something I have barely any control over.

That sounds like a problem with you, not the community.

LaymooDR wrote:

I wanted to have fun and get to know the community better, but I now know that the community is not welcoming to people with mental disorders.

They are actually very welcoming. Blushing give you a massive, well though out response to you when you posted your other thread. However in your case it seems you feel you are entitled to something from the community and you perceive that as "unwelcoming". Like I said before, you have not put in any work and no one knows you. You are entitled to nothing.

LaymooDR wrote:

See you all. I'll have a hard time finding a new game because I played this almost all my teen life. It sucks to see how fucked the community is towards mentally challenged people.

Bye.

Maybe one day you will see that playing the victim doesn't solve your problems. This whole "I'm quitting" thing is not achieving anything. You are just creating meaningless drama and trying to lash out at people who didn't do anything to begin with.

Strike 1. Playing victim isn't what I'm doing here.

LaymooDR wrote:

Strike 1. Playing victim isn't what I'm doing here.

I counted 5 threads that you made saying "im deleting these maps" or im quitting. There's probably more

Its a FACT you are playing the victim. If you were a real victim and not fishing for attention you wouldn't be posting your cry story over and over again. Not to mention you ignore all advice and all the people offering help.

Its a FACT your beatmaps are unrankable but instead of accepting that and working on it, you blame the community and the ranking system for not catering to your autism.

You are playing the victim.

Fxjlk wrote:

LaymooDR wrote:

Strike 1. Playing victim isn't what I'm doing here.

I counted 5 threads that you made saying "im deleting these maps" or im quitting. There's probably more

Its a FACT you are playing the victim. If you were a real victim and not fishing for attention you wouldn't be posting your cry story over and over again. Not to mention you ignore all advice and all the people offering help.

Its a FACT your beatmaps are unrankable but instead of accepting that and working on it, you blame the community and the ranking system for not catering to your autism.

You are playing the victim.

Nope. I tried to keep on going, but it became too much to deal with anymore, so I decided to quit, unless the community is more tame in the next month.

I tried to take the advice I was getting at the time, but they never worked.

All I am trying to do is documenting a big issue regarding the community. I'm not crying. I'm just simply pissed off.

Attention seeking isn't for me. It's something I would never want to do. If you are still sure about me acting victim, I can't change your mind. If you don't believe I'll actually delete my maps and quit, I can't wait to prove you wrong in the near future.

We know you quit.

Any more posts like this essentially looking for attention (whether you realise youre doing this or not) Will likely be insta-locked. Youve already made another 1 or 2 posts here saying youve quit. So leave the game if thats your choice