since i got a job i've tried to get back into mania as i used to, but damn, honestly playing feels sad, i used to chellenge myself a lot but now i feel like bruh.
it's very hard for me to accept that i won't be able to be like i used to, i cant play at night after work bc of the noise my keyboard does and honestly i just feel very bad, playing online is worse bc playing agains't teenagers who play 14 hours a day makes me feel like the old jenking form spongebob lol.
i still try to have fun tho, but it feels akward if im not pushing myself
it's very hard for me to accept that i won't be able to be like i used to, i cant play at night after work bc of the noise my keyboard does and honestly i just feel very bad, playing online is worse bc playing agains't teenagers who play 14 hours a day makes me feel like the old jenking form spongebob lol.
i still try to have fun tho, but it feels akward if im not pushing myself