sametdze wrote:
im really starting to miss those times (2018 if my memory serves me right) where indie games were being played by lets players and every character would have their own fangirl which would be both a girlfriend and wife for said character.
notable games from this time period were:
cuphead (i remember being intrigued by the art style)
baldi's basics in education and learning (i feel like this was the last indie game from this time period)
bendy and the ink machine (i was also really intrigued by the art style, but i also really liked the story too)
doki doki literature club (only thing i remember was the fact that i didn't really care about all the graphic stuff in the game, i really liked the characters though. i was quite fond of sayori.)
i really do miss watching the random encounters musicals for these games, the terrabit unused files episodes on these games, those ddlc mods where the main story would be changed, the lhugeny musical videos for these games, those fangirl cringe videos where i would be hearing a girl who probably wasn't much older than me at the time scream "SANS IS MOINE11!!1!" over and over again with terrible art drawn in flipaclip.
it feels incredibly surreal to see that a video which i actively watched and enjoyed say its from 6 years ago when it really felt like i watched it 2 years ago.
i honestly don't really remember why i was so interested into these games, probably because at the time train stuff was kind of dying and these games were what was popular, so i just let into it i guess.
...i remember that era, vaguely
the fanmade love interests, the lets-players, flipaclip videos. in my case, it included a lot of videos about drama and allegations about other community members as well. lots of sensationalized events that i look back on with a pound of shame, but... something about them was addictive in the sense of "this is the human experience, and imagining a life here seems interesting", but the digital voyeuristic nature of parasocially digging into people was a brutal unforgiving cycle of death that i just can't allow myself to be comfortable with
i really truly wish i could relive it and drink it in more than i did, i want to be truly self-indulgent about it all, taking note of the strange and delightful passions people have
in hindsight, even with all the damage we've done to each other as a social species in recent years, there is so much to love about almost every year of the past two decades, for all the various things we created and exchanged with each other online and offline. i hope that one day i can learn to really live in the moment in these environments
idk, either way, i'm glad there was something for you to reminisce about with fondness <3