This beatmap was submitted using in-game submission on Thursday, October 10, 2024 at 2:00:01 AM
Artist: sanjaux
Title: The Castle Above
BPM: 280
Filesize: 9111kb
Play Time: 01:34
Difficulties Available:
Information: Scores/Beatmap Listing
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i've done as you told, killed as you ordered, lied as you spoke, so listen...
can you plug the hole in my mind now, because it's killing me, and the noise won't stop.
it claws at me from the inside, fills every crack, every thought, like a thousand voices all screaming at once.
i can't tell what's me anymore, what's left of me, me or a doll?
now it's all I am, this hollow, bleeding thing, echoing your commands, and i can't shut it off.
i don't need your praise, or whatever peace you pretend is at the end of this.
i just need quiet.
i just need this constant tearing, gnawing ache to end.
just make it stop, before there's nothing left of me to beg.
you broke the pact we made, you were supposed to tell.
i dont know with which mindset i believed you to tell the tale
you wont hear my words i scream i yell i yell i yell
leaning on a tree at the end of this stupidity my face all pale
i watch the darkness, my shadow stretching long and thin, as i wonder if you ever really listened
what destroys me is the silence, the beating heart, your absence, like salt on a wound
what havent i given to you? my devotion, my loyalty, i sacrificed everything, i gave it all, what for?
for the slightest idea of a reverberation, an answer, a response, hoping for some semblance of understanding.
nothing is left of me, besides a crumbling shell of who i really was, a shadow of my true self.
am i a vessel, a shell or a host for a parasite, a parasite that is your words that lead me to my demise?
what is left to salvage? do i continue this parade, this dance, this nonsensical jumble of actions?
or do i end it all without a care in the world? what is it that you want, what?
in this tree of decisions which branch was the first one to break all the leading ones? the leaf ones?
this end isnt an end, it's a beginning. a beginning of a new story. a blank canvas, up to you to decide.
Artist: sanjaux
Title: The Castle Above
BPM: 280
Filesize: 9111kb
Play Time: 01:34
Difficulties Available:
- kfrert (5.85 stars, 46 notes)
- unbounded &**&**&*&***&***&*&* (3.85 stars, 86 notes)
- ungodly profane (8.17 stars, 88 notes)
Information: Scores/Beatmap Listing
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i've done as you told, killed as you ordered, lied as you spoke, so listen...
can you plug the hole in my mind now, because it's killing me, and the noise won't stop.
it claws at me from the inside, fills every crack, every thought, like a thousand voices all screaming at once.
i can't tell what's me anymore, what's left of me, me or a doll?
now it's all I am, this hollow, bleeding thing, echoing your commands, and i can't shut it off.
i don't need your praise, or whatever peace you pretend is at the end of this.
i just need quiet.
i just need this constant tearing, gnawing ache to end.
just make it stop, before there's nothing left of me to beg.
you broke the pact we made, you were supposed to tell.
i dont know with which mindset i believed you to tell the tale
you wont hear my words i scream i yell i yell i yell
leaning on a tree at the end of this stupidity my face all pale
i watch the darkness, my shadow stretching long and thin, as i wonder if you ever really listened
what destroys me is the silence, the beating heart, your absence, like salt on a wound
what havent i given to you? my devotion, my loyalty, i sacrificed everything, i gave it all, what for?
for the slightest idea of a reverberation, an answer, a response, hoping for some semblance of understanding.
nothing is left of me, besides a crumbling shell of who i really was, a shadow of my true self.
am i a vessel, a shell or a host for a parasite, a parasite that is your words that lead me to my demise?
what is left to salvage? do i continue this parade, this dance, this nonsensical jumble of actions?
or do i end it all without a care in the world? what is it that you want, what?
in this tree of decisions which branch was the first one to break all the leading ones? the leaf ones?
this end isnt an end, it's a beginning. a beginning of a new story. a blank canvas, up to you to decide.