I started better myself, but since corona I fell a bit back in old behaviors. I stopped being polite and started being lazy again
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A bit of backstory.
I am disabled. This is primarily due to severe mental illnesses (including, but sadly not limited to, PTSD, Dissociative Identity Disorder (DID), clinical depression, and social anxiety.) I also am extremely frail for my age. Despite being about 5'6", I can barely ever weigh more than 105.
As you can probably imagine, this makes my everyday life pretty difficult. I have little to no motivation to do anything. In fact, when I'm not playing osu! someone else is probably fronting. Quarantine and these two hurricanes and everything else happening in the world have taken a huge toll on me mentally. I rarely leave my room. I haven't been taking my medicine like I should be.
However I've been trying to get myself back on track. My boyfriend (the kind soul) has been texting me reminders to take my meds. I've been attending therapy instead of skipping it, and am in the process of getting a psychiatric service dog. My system and I have all been working together on communication, so that we can be less confused if someone fronts in the middle of something someone else was doing. (What a confusing sentence...) I've even been trying to keep up with my classes.
It's a hard journey, but I'm slowly starting to feel more like myself. I even had to courage to come out as non-binary to my mother, who was accepting through and through.
I have a lot to work on still, but this is definitely a start.
I am disabled. This is primarily due to severe mental illnesses (including, but sadly not limited to, PTSD, Dissociative Identity Disorder (DID), clinical depression, and social anxiety.) I also am extremely frail for my age. Despite being about 5'6", I can barely ever weigh more than 105.
As you can probably imagine, this makes my everyday life pretty difficult. I have little to no motivation to do anything. In fact, when I'm not playing osu! someone else is probably fronting. Quarantine and these two hurricanes and everything else happening in the world have taken a huge toll on me mentally. I rarely leave my room. I haven't been taking my medicine like I should be.
However I've been trying to get myself back on track. My boyfriend (the kind soul) has been texting me reminders to take my meds. I've been attending therapy instead of skipping it, and am in the process of getting a psychiatric service dog. My system and I have all been working together on communication, so that we can be less confused if someone fronts in the middle of something someone else was doing. (What a confusing sentence...) I've even been trying to keep up with my classes.
It's a hard journey, but I'm slowly starting to feel more like myself. I even had to courage to come out as non-binary to my mother, who was accepting through and through.
I have a lot to work on still, but this is definitely a start.
jpsn
i'm not sure... i was diagnosed with bipolar disorder since 13 y.o, everyday is really difficult for me. when night comes it's like a nightmare and i got an insomnia. i always stayed up all night, no. actually i'm afraid to fall asleep and wake up with the same anxiety. every second of my life is filled with overthinking
even i don't know what i'm worried about, what makes me overthinking, i really don't understand the way of my mind and myself. it feels like i'm not able to control this fucking mood. i stopped getting treatment since last year because it's expensive and my family's economy isn't that good.
honestly i want to die but i must thinking about my uni too. i can't tell anyone that i have a pain and trauma, so i just crying to get better myself. my family is the same. they have their own problems so i don't want to add to anyone's burden
i'm sorry i really suck haha
even i don't know what i'm worried about, what makes me overthinking, i really don't understand the way of my mind and myself. it feels like i'm not able to control this fucking mood. i stopped getting treatment since last year because it's expensive and my family's economy isn't that good.
honestly i want to die but i must thinking about my uni too. i can't tell anyone that i have a pain and trauma, so i just crying to get better myself. my family is the same. they have their own problems so i don't want to add to anyone's burden
i'm sorry i really suck haha
I always lighten up my mood by listening to Classical or any Music. Then investing time into taking care of my pets, watching VTuber stream or clips.
ive been trying to support small buisnesses and also collect cute videos of small animals.
Studying for the bar exam… not quite sure what to do though, anxiety is accumulating faster than actual knowledge.
During these last months I have been exercising.
Why the heck didn't I start before? I have noticed myself being quite stronger than before, and I have started to feel physically better as well.
Why the heck didn't I start before? I have noticed myself being quite stronger than before, and I have started to feel physically better as well.
sametyhjyys wrote:
NOTHING
Sort of an update:Arctos Sagittario wrote:
Studying for the bar exam… not quite sure what to do though, anxiety is accumulating faster than actual knowledge.
Last night the phase I (multiple choice section) result was out. I passed.
I can’t even explain how I feel… Phase II (short essay section) is incoming in just two weeks, and I still have barely prepared. It’s most likely to be a mixture of joy, relief, and escalated anxiety…
I decide to intentionally double post because the last one was 6 days ago and it doesn’t quite feel right if I just edit it—- or so I think.
Long story short, I made up a decision to really go for it.
Long story short, I made up a decision to really go for it.
i had recently been sleeping earlier and earlier. my sleeping schedule is so fucked and i'm trying to fix it.
For me, slowly but getting there. Just have to take it slow, do what I want while not ignoring what I need to do! Mental health is getting better is what I'm trying to say.
Nothing. I’m still a major disappointment to everyone around me.
play osu less
Since quarantine started, my sleeping schedule and... my lifestyle in general is getting worse and worse, as 2020 is come to close soon, i expect and hoping that myself to (hopefully) fix all of those issues
osu! wise : listen to the rhythm more and stop playing for rank
osu! wise : listen to the rhythm more and stop playing for rank
Play less and work out or go outside more often and socializing.
Quaze
i also used to have anger issues, and i basically developed a habit of drinking tea whenever i feel pissed off
my fav tea is earl grey btw that shits good asf
my fav tea is earl grey btw that shits good asf
That is amazing. Tea works for everything especially milk tea. Except i started drinking milk tea due to frustration and been drinking a cup or two every daymozawa wrote:
i also used to have anger issues, and i basically developed a habit of drinking tea whenever i feel pissed off
my fav tea is earl grey btw that shits good asf
. Actually, at this certain moment, Im drinking milk teaWow, old post-
My problems are that I'm too mean and self-centered, and I also have trouble with expressing myself properly.
People usually mind me being bold
I've realised this and now I'm just... Trying to socialise more and learn about ethics. It's not really important for y'all, but I just wanted to let it out.
My problems are that I'm too mean and self-centered, and I also have trouble with expressing myself properly.
People usually mind me being bold
I've realised this and now I'm just... Trying to socialise more and learn about ethics. It's not really important for y'all, but I just wanted to let it out.
I'm coming to terms with the fact that due to my circumstances, which i wont get into here, I have to do things differently than most people do. Even though I feel as if I should be able to do the all same things as "normal" people, this past year has shown me pretty clearly that no I cant. So I've been looking for ways to get around the problems I have to face and have recently found things that are actually working for once.
I'll share some things I've found over this past year of misery that can help anybody, even if you aren't in my special circumstances:
1. On productivity:
pretend motivation does not exist. it will not get you though life. treat it as a sometimes thing, because it is.
discipline also is not the entire answer to productivity, but a byproduct, because how are you going to start building new habits? how do you start having discipline in the first place if it has to be trained?
True productivity is a change in your lifestyle and surroundings. By default we are like water, or electricity - taking the path of least resistance, its the way everything works in nature. if you want something to get done, skip the thinking about doing it, make it the easy thing to do, the only choice.
if you have to make a decision, there's a chance you will never start.
2. The strongest motivators are the short term ones. if the reward or punishment is too far in the future, even if you think rationally about it, it will never register as strongly as short term ones. If I had to rank it would be like this: Instant gratification > instant punishment > delayed punishment > delayed gratification. this is the reason that addiction is a thing. monkey brain is stronger than your rational thought.
3. Don't make changes to your life too fast. start slow and barely outside your comfort zone. if you ever find yourself in the kind of hole I'm in, trying to just jump out of it will not work, you will either never reach the top or if you do get out you could easily just fall back in. you have to work to build a permanent staircase that you can use in the future.
4. If you are like me and hate to-do lists with a passion, but really need them, try out Habitica Its an interactive to-do list that does more than be an intimidating list of deadlines that you never want to look at or add to. it give you a reason to open it up other than "I have to" it might be a bit cringe to turn a to-do list into a game, but its working for me so far and there's a decent sized community there, though I haven't gotten into it much.
5. If you ever tell anyone "just do it" as advice or "motivation": you are the scum of the earth.
I'll share some things I've found over this past year of misery that can help anybody, even if you aren't in my special circumstances:
1. On productivity:
pretend motivation does not exist. it will not get you though life. treat it as a sometimes thing, because it is.
discipline also is not the entire answer to productivity, but a byproduct, because how are you going to start building new habits? how do you start having discipline in the first place if it has to be trained?
True productivity is a change in your lifestyle and surroundings. By default we are like water, or electricity - taking the path of least resistance, its the way everything works in nature. if you want something to get done, skip the thinking about doing it, make it the easy thing to do, the only choice.
if you have to make a decision, there's a chance you will never start.
2. The strongest motivators are the short term ones. if the reward or punishment is too far in the future, even if you think rationally about it, it will never register as strongly as short term ones. If I had to rank it would be like this: Instant gratification > instant punishment > delayed punishment > delayed gratification. this is the reason that addiction is a thing. monkey brain is stronger than your rational thought.
3. Don't make changes to your life too fast. start slow and barely outside your comfort zone. if you ever find yourself in the kind of hole I'm in, trying to just jump out of it will not work, you will either never reach the top or if you do get out you could easily just fall back in. you have to work to build a permanent staircase that you can use in the future.
4. If you are like me and hate to-do lists with a passion, but really need them, try out Habitica Its an interactive to-do list that does more than be an intimidating list of deadlines that you never want to look at or add to. it give you a reason to open it up other than "I have to" it might be a bit cringe to turn a to-do list into a game, but its working for me so far and there's a decent sized community there, though I haven't gotten into it much.
5. If you ever tell anyone "just do it" as advice or "motivation": you are the scum of the earth.
so your calling 90% of the osu community scum eh,other than number 5,the rest i can somewhat agree withWitherMite wrote:
I'm coming to terms with the fact that due to my circumstances, which i wont get into here, I have to do things differently than most people do. Even though I feel as if I should be able to do the all same things as "normal" people, this past year has shown me pretty clearly that no I cant. So I've been looking for ways to get around the problems I have to face and have recently found things that are actually working for once.
I'll share some things I've found over this past year of misery that can help anybody, even if you aren't in my special circumstances:
1. On productivity:
pretend motivation does not exist. it will not get you though life. treat it as a sometimes thing, because it is.
discipline also is not the entire answer to productivity, but a byproduct, because how are you going to start building new habits? how do you start having discipline in the first place if it has to be trained?
True productivity is a change in your lifestyle and surroundings. By default we are like water, or electricity - taking the path of least resistance, its the way everything works in nature. if you want something to get done, skip the thinking about doing it, make it the easy thing to do, the only choice.
if you have to make a decision, there's a chance you will never start.
2. The strongest motivators are the short term ones. if the reward or punishment is too far in the future, even if you think rationally about it, it will never register as strongly as short term ones. If I had to rank it would be like this: Instant gratification > instant punishment > delayed punishment > delayed gratification. this is the reason that addiction is a thing. monkey brain is stronger than your rational thought.
3. Don't make changes to your life too fast. start slow and barely outside your comfort zone. if you ever find yourself in the kind of hole I'm in, trying to just jump out of it will not work, you will either never reach the top or if you do get out you could easily just fall back in. you have to work to build a permanent staircase that you can use in the future.
4. If you are like me and hate to-do lists with a passion, but really need them, try out Habitica Its an interactive to-do list that does more than be an intimidating list of deadlines that you never want to look at or add to. it give you a reason to open it up other than "I have to" it might be a bit cringe to turn a to-do list into a game, but its working for me so far and there's a decent sized community there, though I haven't gotten into it much.
5. If you ever tell anyone "just do it" as advice or "motivation": you are the scum of the earth.
not sure what you're getting at with this?animesquadgp wrote:
so your calling 90% of the osu community scum eh,other than number 5,the rest i can somewhat agree with
if youre talking about the play more thing. thats not what I mean, thats different. telling someone to "just do it" dosent fix anything, its the equivalent of the whole "youre depressed? just be happy" thing. Its toxic positivity, and can hurt someone when they dont meet the expectations their selves and others put on them.
play more on the other hand is about the fact that to improve at a task like playing osu you have to play the game, there isnt anything we can tell you that will make you better immediately without knowing more about what youre having trouble with.
you want to run fast or far? go run.
you want to draw well? draw something.
if the question is too generic there isnt a good answer.
that is very different from telling someone their struggles arent real.
What I was doing 3 years ago.
I posted this in my freshman year of high school. keremaru wrote:
well actually, this is a bit less of what i've done to better myself, and more of a realization of what it is i'm doing that should be fixed sooner or later.
so because i like to play online games a bunch (play pokemon mmos, not the shitty ones, and osu), i started to notice that my grades aren't really looking up for the best right now. and at home, i'm starting to lack on my chores, which is supposed to help me "build up responsibility".
i always disregarded what my mom said about "you're going to have to take care of yourself when you grow up" and thought that if i could get good enough at competitive esport games that i could join a team, i'd do it, but i realize that there has to be some sort of a stepping stone for me to achieve that goal. and now that i'm not really focused on trying to play games like league of legends or rocket league, i'm a bit more skeptical to how my future is going to paint itself out. because i'm only 14 years old, i still don't have a good grasp on how my life is going to be in 4 years, or when i graduate. more like "if", at this point.
so i might start playing less games (10 hours or more per day as of right now), and focus more on my education rather than how i'm going to figure out how i would do 6k muscle memories on osu!mania. i might also take myself more seriously, because at this point in my life, i'm only eating lunch most of the days of the week, and i rarely drink water/liquids, and i wake up somewhat earlier than the rest of my family. thinking about how i'm going to do this, i might have to lose some of my online "friends" (quotations because i'm not sure anymore), but i practically died on discord. i didn't want to, but real life called, and i'm contemplating what would have happened if i still could use discord. as i type this, i wonder what could have been if i didn't die on discord, if i, i don't know, didn't leave. now, i didn't leave, technically, but i feel like there's a part of me that's missing, and the part that has an open gap in it is sucking out all the interest that i ever had in any subject that i liked doing, like drawing, or learning hiragana and katakana. and now, i feel like i don't even know myself anymore. i'm practically losing myself when i wake up everyday, waiting for the inevitable end of my online life. someday, and i don't know when, i'm going to lose interest in everything that i found fun, that i found, interesting. and after a few years, i'll be signing papers in some rundown office building, with each phase of my life slowly passing by, mocking me for "what could have been."
now this post sounds more like a sad life story than what i've done to better myself.
It's my senior year.
When I made this post, I had no idea what I was going to spiral into in the future. I figured that I would probably just live a quiet life, get a job when I was sixteen, and just live life normally.
I couldn't have been more wrong.
It's been three years since that post, and lots of things have happened. I had a pseudo-girlfriend (pseudo because she was manipulative and avoidant in retrospect), I got to go back home, Hawaii, a few times annually, but the biggest thing I had to come face-to-face with was my mental instability. At least a year after that post, I admitted at school that I was having suicidal thoughts and actions, and straight up confessed that I wanted to end my life. This was the shallow sand of what would eventually flood into an abyss, and I was at the forefront of that situation. I didn't know what to expect, what to do, and most importantly, how I would recover. I had several years of self-imposed guilt, a lack of feeling for anything that I genuinely wanted to care for, and I just didn't feel like my life was worth living through. Worst of all, the advice that I gave people to get through their traumas just didn't work for me because of contradictive anxiety. Any and every tactic that I employed for others and reserved in my planning binder just utterly failed when faced up against me and my self-loathing brain. When I told myself that everything was okay, I knew it wasn't. When I told myself to breathe, I started hyperventilating and panicking, because those were tactics that I used with people that I knew those tactics would work on. But I never bothered to think of myself, because I was always so busy and worried about caring for others. That's the problem with supports; you either need one super good support main, or you need two to reciprocate off of each other and help the team. I was in both situations at the same time. I was supporting everyone that I knew in the best way that I knew how, but I didn't learn how to heal myself; and ultimately, my tactics were nothing more than false teachings that I built off of a foundation of hope; that my comfort would be able to heal my friends to the point that what I comforted them with would inevitably heal me.
It wasn't.
I've gone to two different psych wards in the course of that period of time. To this day, I take medication to make sure that I never go back into that pit again, but I also have to stay on top of my school priorities, like I used to back in freshman year. It's nothing much, nowadays, but it can definitely stockpile.
For osu!, I don't play for performance points. I never really felt like I did. I typically only play, and ever played, for recognition. It wasn't really possible in osu!standard or osu!mania, because everyone and their grandma plays those, but I felt it was easier in the other two; osu!taiko and osu!catch. Catch especially, because literally nobody touches it as a gamemode. FCs, leaderboards, the amount of plays I'd have to achieve in order to really make it onto those leaderboards. It kind of surprises me how I haven't gotten the Jack of All Trades achievement yet. Gotta bump those taiko plays up.
TL;DR, the past 3 years have had their ups and downs. From suicidal thoughts, to getting jebaited by a girl who led me on for almost 2 years, I don't feel like my story would ever be complete this early on. This isn't a comparison or a flex of any kind to how hard my life is compared to yours. I can never imagine, replicate nor top what anyone has to go through. But I can share my personal story and hope that it grounds my life. Until the next time that I post here.
ケレ♡
Well, lately some crazy stuff has been happening to me and such, so this may be a lot different in 2-3 years.
Almost in High School, it's kind of giving me anxiety. I'm currently not gonna be so active online and such for a while, which means I'll rarely be on the forums and stuff which I'd find better for me. I mainly have decided to stay in my room most of the day doing stuff, come down to eat regularly and maybe talk a bit in a conversation or two. I'm a mainly very quiet person, not to start or even speak in a conversation, so I'd find me mainly just enjoying my life more in my room talking to people online a bit and vibing to stuff. Not being the best socializer, staying quiet most of the time actually has been making me feel better. I'm a bit of an artist and a good writer and such, so if I ever feel bad or just wrong I write or draw my feelings and rarely share them. To the people I share them to it's only really my closest friends and special people to me that I know will talk to me about it and help. I decide to not talk to the people I don't feel comfortable around, just ignoring anything they say to me, even if that seems rude.
About Osu! I've kinda just gotten out of the game really, not having as much fun as normal. I used to always try to go up in ranked and quit if I never got a Full Combo and 98.00% at the LEAST and try to play 4.5* in taiko, but always over whelmed myself while trying to. I've lowered down to a at the most an Full Combo and a 89.00-97.00% maybe. Just trying not to do anything that would make me feel over whelmed and such.
About my personal life in a whole, I'd rather not talk about it 'cause of some things, but it's going better than I'd find it to be then before. I'm just more happy and such then I was.. I'd say.. 2 years ago. Thank you for reading this ^^
Almost in High School, it's kind of giving me anxiety. I'm currently not gonna be so active online and such for a while, which means I'll rarely be on the forums and stuff which I'd find better for me. I mainly have decided to stay in my room most of the day doing stuff, come down to eat regularly and maybe talk a bit in a conversation or two. I'm a mainly very quiet person, not to start or even speak in a conversation, so I'd find me mainly just enjoying my life more in my room talking to people online a bit and vibing to stuff. Not being the best socializer, staying quiet most of the time actually has been making me feel better. I'm a bit of an artist and a good writer and such, so if I ever feel bad or just wrong I write or draw my feelings and rarely share them. To the people I share them to it's only really my closest friends and special people to me that I know will talk to me about it and help. I decide to not talk to the people I don't feel comfortable around, just ignoring anything they say to me, even if that seems rude.
About Osu! I've kinda just gotten out of the game really, not having as much fun as normal. I used to always try to go up in ranked and quit if I never got a Full Combo and 98.00% at the LEAST and try to play 4.5* in taiko, but always over whelmed myself while trying to. I've lowered down to a at the most an Full Combo and a 89.00-97.00% maybe. Just trying not to do anything that would make me feel over whelmed and such.
About my personal life in a whole, I'd rather not talk about it 'cause of some things, but it's going better than I'd find it to be then before. I'm just more happy and such then I was.. I'd say.. 2 years ago. Thank you for reading this ^^
I've been pushing myself to be more active, lifting weights and doing intense cardio in my room after work even when I'm tired. Making sure my surroundings are organized, treating myself if I feel like I deserve it, just overall being kinder to my being and more aware of my health. I've also been picky about who I surround myself with, who I give my love and attention to. My friend group has shifted dramatically in the last 6 months, but I can honestly say I'm feeling far more lighthearted.
That means you bad at that carrier change your work,Lol This Intense of psychology broker.
Join military, raise a daughter, become big money big osu
I started meditation and since then I feel much better. I also forced myself to do more sports and go to the gym even though I was tired at night.
I've started dieting about a month ago and lost about 12 pounds. Also I'm returning to college this fall after putting it off for so many years.
things ive done to change my self was getting rid of the toxic friends i had in my life and started to work out again
started working out again
I've been playing guitar, particularly in the Bossa Nova genre for a year or two now.
idk really mostly i just eat so i get better and just socialize
Started a vault with https://obsidian.md/ - going to use it to record things daily, and as a "second brain" where I dump all the information I get when I go on content sponge sprees. Been setting up my organization scheme the past few days and learning the program.
Hoping this helps me with my executive dysfunction by externalizing my thoughts and allowing me to get into a flow of just planning and making schedules instead of getting stuck between thinking and doing. If I can stick to it, it will also be nice to be able to come back to topics I hyperfocused on in the past and refresh myself without doing all that research again. Plus its an opportunity to actually learn how to effectively study, never really had to do it in school.
Hoping this helps me with my executive dysfunction by externalizing my thoughts and allowing me to get into a flow of just planning and making schedules instead of getting stuck between thinking and doing. If I can stick to it, it will also be nice to be able to come back to topics I hyperfocused on in the past and refresh myself without doing all that research again. Plus its an opportunity to actually learn how to effectively study, never really had to do it in school.
Touching grass literately t o u c h i n g g r a s s it was traumatizing
i'm going to a psycologist
Lifting weights, and building up my skills for job applications.
starting to be more honest to myself and not holding emotions
-Start eating three meals a day (almost becoming anorexic because of disorder)
-Sleep with a consistent schedule (used to stay up almost 24+ hours per day and sleep for less than 4 hours or more than 15+ hours)
-Setting a goal for myself
-Gonna start exercising as soon as I figure out a workout routine
-Spending more time outside and not being confined to the house all day
-Gonna start therapy some time this year, but financial issues delaying it
This year will be different, I promised myself.
-Sleep with a consistent schedule (used to stay up almost 24+ hours per day and sleep for less than 4 hours or more than 15+ hours)
-Setting a goal for myself
-Gonna start exercising as soon as I figure out a workout routine
-Spending more time outside and not being confined to the house all day
-Gonna start therapy some time this year, but financial issues delaying it
This year will be different, I promised myself.
ngl going to a psychiatric hospital definitely helped with all the stresses that is MIT combined with my... mood swings.
I'm also thinking of creating a thread here to document... some of the sources here, so that I can find some closure...
I'm also thinking of creating a thread here to document... some of the sources here, so that I can find some closure...
CHEERJAKACHAN wrote:
For those of you that know me you may understand from my streams or general talking that I have an anger issue. The thing is I tend to overthink things due to some past events that lead to anger, jealousy and just a general running mind. This has caused many negative impacts on my life, but recent negative events have really caused me to think about myself as a person and how I could better myself to really show those who I have pushed away that I can change and be who I need to be. I invite anyone who has admit their faults recently to post how you as a person have done something to better yourself.
For myself:
I quit my job and started pushing toward a career that I enjoy which has given me so much relief.
I am going to set up a doctors appointment to find out how I may combat my families long line of depression, overthinking and anger.
I have made a push to generally be a more positive individual.
I do not allow myself to give up anymore, the people and things most worth it in life are those who are not easy to achieve.
If you have not made a recent change I hope this may give you the encouragement to really push yourself in a way where you may better yourself and live an even happier life.
As a new step as well. If anyone is too nervous to post publicly you are more than welcome to PM me. I would be glad to give you some advice or just a person to talk to if it would help!
Also, please don't troll this thread.
I used to be so attached to people from my past just because I knew them for 10+ years, I thought that was a good enough reason to forgive and let things slide all the time.
I’ve matured a lot since then, but have accepted the fact that stepping away from people that affect my mental health is better for me in the long run.
I’ve matured a lot since then, but have accepted the fact that stepping away from people that affect my mental health is better for me in the long run.
It’s still difficult knowing I once had an amazing friendship and the only thing stopping that now is their mentality and lack of good communication, but I’ve decided to stop reaching out to people who don’t have my best interest in mind just because I’m stuck in the past of how close we used to be.
I have started working out a lot lately to build confidence and be able to stand up for myself, touch TONS of grass, and I have also started playing piano. I like music alot that is why I am here.
Attempt to break my caffeine addiction, yes I mess it up go back to drink coffee, and now I have to start it all over again
Every morning as soon as I get up, I do 3 sets x 10 rep of push ups and chrunches. It helps with my endurance at work. So that's a plus 
I'm becoming more self-aware of what I feel, and I'm also doing my best to overcome social anxiety.
I've been starting to get into a consistent schedule, it really helps!.
so instead of saying "i will work on school shit later today", i'm starting to say; "i'll work on school shit after i eat and shower, and I'll stop around ~10:30". I've also been packing my lunch the night before so the next morning its just one less thing to worry about.
but yeah schedules do really help with relieving stress and making you feel better about stuff
so instead of saying "i will work on school shit later today", i'm starting to say; "i'll work on school shit after i eat and shower, and I'll stop around ~10:30". I've also been packing my lunch the night before so the next morning its just one less thing to worry about.
but yeah schedules do really help with relieving stress and making you feel better about stuff
nothing
I've been more strict with my time management lately. It's been going great!
forcing myself to accuracy train in mania more + trying to play at least 1 hour and 30 minutes a day in pure play time
Last night I started to sleep at a good time so I don't sleep during school.
Teaching.
What are you teaching?eblf2013 wrote:
Teaching.
Looking at life in a different way. You are your own person, and you have freedom. What that freedom means for you is different for each person. One might say I can move my hand to the left, that is my decision, and from there I can build up. Another can say that them choosing what to do that day is called freedom. For me freedom is being able to have an opinion in your head.
Your life is limited so make the best out of it every day. Quite literally the cliche "Live like everyday is your last".
Your life is limited so make the best out of it every day. Quite literally the cliche "Live like everyday is your last".
English to non-native people.Stomiks wrote:
What are you teaching?eblf2013 wrote:
Teaching.
It really fits you ngl. Hope you get paid well for it.eblf2013 wrote:
English to non-native people.Stomiks wrote:
What are you teaching?eblf2013 wrote:
Teaching.
On my last check up at the clinic, the doctors told me I'm really underweight (46kg with a BMI of 17.2) and my blood pressure and heart rate were really low, so I'm trying to eat more despite the bouts of nausea I get while doing so. I've also been playing outside with my dog more often to get some exercise.
I take a step, realize it didn't do anything immediately, then stop trying, so not really. Especially when it comes to sleep; I find it very hard to motivate myself to go to bed on time (Case in point, I should've probly gone to bed 2 hours ago from when I post this) when I seem to be unable to actually be awake when I wake up regardless of the hour I wake up at or how long I sleep.
That being said, I know my mentality has been a lot healthier than it was in years past, so it's like just a bunch of small, incremental steps I've taken that I don't realize are good steps until much later. Not to the point of actively socializing (though I think I was never a social butterfly in the first place) or anything like that, though.
Edit: I hope you've already had that nausea problem looked at, angrynerd. I don't know what the size of your portions usually are, how many meals you eat a day, or when, but if even relatively modest-sized meals are nauseating to finish I would have somebody check your stomach or gastro-intestinal system. That, or just make sure you're eating stuff to fill out/bulk up over just filling your stomach.
I'd also suggest not jumping from a "modest" meal to a "large" or even "huge" meal (relatively speaking) right away, as trying to cram that much inside you when you usually don't eat that much will definitely cause internal protests.
(Note: I'm not a doctor, just giving advice I think would be helpful. Seriously consult with your doctor or a specialist before you attempt any of my advice.)
That being said, I know my mentality has been a lot healthier than it was in years past, so it's like just a bunch of small, incremental steps I've taken that I don't realize are good steps until much later. Not to the point of actively socializing (though I think I was never a social butterfly in the first place) or anything like that, though.
Edit: I hope you've already had that nausea problem looked at, angrynerd. I don't know what the size of your portions usually are, how many meals you eat a day, or when, but if even relatively modest-sized meals are nauseating to finish I would have somebody check your stomach or gastro-intestinal system. That, or just make sure you're eating stuff to fill out/bulk up over just filling your stomach.
I'd also suggest not jumping from a "modest" meal to a "large" or even "huge" meal (relatively speaking) right away, as trying to cram that much inside you when you usually don't eat that much will definitely cause internal protests.
(Note: I'm not a doctor, just giving advice I think would be helpful. Seriously consult with your doctor or a specialist before you attempt any of my advice.)
So, i've recently exercised workout to prevent me being miserable cuz I'm slowly gaining fat and eating too much food nowadays. Now, to solve that problem. i've made an healthy diet and tend to fast more. i also make cardio exercises to brighten my mood. And also I do not forget motivational music.
Hey man, I wanna thank you for your concern over my health and for taking the time to write that. I'm writing this to let you know that I'm doing better now, thankfully and the nausea has (for the most part) subsided and I'm eating larger portions a bit more often. It's been mostly a side effect of my poor mental health these past few months which is also doing better now.Voidedosu wrote:
I take a step, realize it didn't do anything immediately, then stop trying, so not really. Especially when it comes to sleep; I find it very hard to motivate myself to go to bed on time (Case in point, I should've probly gone to bed 2 hours ago from when I post this) when I seem to be unable to actually be awake when I wake up regardless of the hour I wake up at or how long I sleep.
That being said, I know my mentality has been a lot healthier than it was in years past, so it's like just a bunch of small, incremental steps I've taken that I don't realize are good steps until much later. Not to the point of actively socializing (though I think I was never a social butterfly in the first place) or anything like that, though.
Edit: I hope you've already had that nausea problem looked at, angrynerd. I don't know what the size of your portions usually are, how many meals you eat a day, or when, but if even relatively modest-sized meals are nauseating to finish I would have somebody check your stomach or gastro-intestinal system. That, or just make sure you're eating stuff to fill out/bulk up over just filling your stomach.
I'd also suggest not jumping from a "modest" meal to a "large" or even "huge" meal (relatively speaking) right away, as trying to cram that much inside you when you usually don't eat that much will definitely cause internal protests.
(Note: I'm not a doctor, just giving advice I think would be helpful. Seriously consult with your doctor or a specialist before you attempt any of my advice.)
I hope you continue improving yourself as well, and hopefully one day you can get to wherever your current goal is in your life, whether it be fixing problems related to sleep or your mental health.
Making some progress in time management after getting too relaxed with it.
I'm gonna try and workout more to stay in good shape. (hopefully I won't stop after 1 or 2 days)
I have been trying to adopt a stoic mindset.
Dang, it's not easy.
Dang, it's not easy.
Doing my school load as early as I can
your organism is used to a different lifestyle, you have to progressively transisionate to good meals.TheAngryNerd101 wrote:
On my last check up at the clinic, the doctors told me I'm really underweight (46kg with a BMI of 17.2) and my blood pressure and heart rate were really low, so I'm trying to eat more despite the bouts of nausea I get while doing so. I've also been playing outside with my dog more often to get some exercise.
oh i recommend jogging in case You don't want to do sports, but to keep your body active
play less sosu
Everyone should stop playing osu so their brain won't rotKaaruumii wrote:
basedPavloww_08 wrote:
play less sosu
Well in my case it worked cuz i got good grades after not playing osu so stop playing 😃Stomiks wrote:
Everyone should stop playing osu so their brain won't rotKaaruumii wrote:
basedPavloww_08 wrote:
play less sosu
i avoided posting here so i dont remember how little i do to improve myself, but finally i did something!
I started walking outside every weekend (thats a lot for my hikikomori ass)
I started walking outside every weekend (thats a lot for my hikikomori ass)
Good job! You're already doing something that a very large portion of the population don't.Reyalp51 wrote:
i avoided posting here to so i dont remember how little i do to improve myself, but finally i did something!
I started walking outside every weekend (thats a lot for my hikikomori ass)
I left the furry fandom. Best decision in my life.
Good for you if you feel better that way.[ Sebastian ] wrote:
I left the furry fandom. Best decision in my life.
What will you be doing from now on?
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Anyway, speaking from my part:
I have been moving on from stuff that no longer is relevant to the present or future of me. Realized these years that punishing or self-harming verbally did not solve anything.
I've been eating more healthly. Specifically eating 3 meals a day now and gaining weight for my skinny ass.
Teaching my grandfather chess
I un-(semi)neeted myself, and this time it feels like it might stick.
I organized my routine properly. Now I can do things that I want without having to worry about time.
Buying a 144Hz screen. Yes, it makes me better
Now this one's stretching itI AM VERY SMART wrote:
Buying a 144Hz screen. Yes, it makes me better