I failed. I failed, myself. I know this is probably a discussion for my therapist, but I feel like the Osu community should know. If this gets taken down I understand, it isn't a proper topic (was posted in art first but moved to here, probably a better place). And I'm not even sure anyone will see this, but I'm putting it out there anyways.
I recently submitted an artwork for the Halloween 2020 fanart contest, and it wasn't finished. Cleanup didn't go all the way through and shading didn't start. I'm upset because, I love this game. And I am confident that I could've submitted a finished product that I was proud of if, I worked on it more, harder. A product that, would be worthy of this game. But I failed myself, I didn't work on it enough even though I wanted it so bad, because I'm, not good. Lazy, inefficient, and distracted.
I need to look to the future. And this is a learning experience. But, I can't help but keep thinking I failed. I'm sad because, it could've been great. I loved the idea and lighting + shading could've made it beautiful. Instead a product that isn't,,,
Maybe I'm doing this out of pride, as the product is something I believe doesn't represent what I can do. But the best thing I can do is say, I'm sorry. To Osu, to myself.
Thank you.
I recently submitted an artwork for the Halloween 2020 fanart contest, and it wasn't finished. Cleanup didn't go all the way through and shading didn't start. I'm upset because, I love this game. And I am confident that I could've submitted a finished product that I was proud of if, I worked on it more, harder. A product that, would be worthy of this game. But I failed myself, I didn't work on it enough even though I wanted it so bad, because I'm, not good. Lazy, inefficient, and distracted.
I need to look to the future. And this is a learning experience. But, I can't help but keep thinking I failed. I'm sad because, it could've been great. I loved the idea and lighting + shading could've made it beautiful. Instead a product that isn't,,,
Maybe I'm doing this out of pride, as the product is something I believe doesn't represent what I can do. But the best thing I can do is say, I'm sorry. To Osu, to myself.
Thank you.
