I have gotten a new mouse, Logitech G602 and that's helped me from the previous mouse if you can call it that

I've wasted the time to read this thread's first 20 pages.
That motivated me to write a "novel" about my case, which I haven't begun to solve at all yet.
But reading 44 to 46 (and 16 to 20) kind of blew a part of the motivation away...

xxxx, I'm repeating the procrastination...
I'll do it... Someday...

*Back to "Tries to gather motivation".*

So after all that time...
I took an appointment with the univ' psychol' for the 15th.

I'm still procrastinating my work, though.

Depends on what sort of bettering oneself you mean:

1) In osu!

I guess simply trying out more styles of music to adapt to different rhythms and beats and also using more mods such as [Hr, Hd, etc]

2) IRL

Honestly disconnecting for a while from the computer and consoles and actually hang out with people and work out, funny enough, after jogging or any physical activity my performance in osu tends to get better

So i guess that's nice

I got tired of always begin the one who has to ask friends somewhere, so I decided it'd be better to just completely distance myself from other people and re-learn living as a shut in. To someone this may seem like going worse than better, but trust me, my overall mood is way better this way. Before I could at times just get sad (especially when I did nothing to distract my thoughts) because it felt like no-one really wanted to have me around or something. This probably wouldn't be an issue if as simple thing as starting a conversation with someone wouldn't be so huge struggle (the feeling of bothering the other person is what mostly holds me back). I don't know if there is any other way to make things better without having to distance myself from others, but this just seemed to be the easiest option I could think of.

Actually participating in school. I've learned everything I need there at work, but I kinda realized that being decoration with good grades still results in more or less bad grades when you never say a word and always spent time on your phone. I already fixed my grades now, but I am very close to the best students in my class and maybe I can even pass their grades average by the end of the year.

I also decided to quit partying every second weekend untill August when I attend Psy-Fi 2017. It kinda became a crucial part of my life and even though I met the most precious people of my life on most of the raves, it still results in me being out of money all the time because I ended up wasting over 150-200€ everytime I went out.

These days I think more often about where I will be if I continue my bad habits (procrastinating, playing osu! hah, etc.) and what I can do to become a better person internally. I'm working on putting important things like family, homework, and laundry first before I hop on to osu! or whatever I wish to do for a while.
Idk how well its going but it feels good to not worry about things that should've been done in the first place.

just leaving those misses and keep the map playing...

just earning some cash for a better future

didnt smoke a cig in 4 days, trying to limit myself to ~5 a week for a while, from that to 1 and progressively quit if possible

x

I've been more honest with myself, I think?

100% focus

keep worrying about my junk PC...

so it let me play seriously

Nothing. My life is a disaster and I keep pretending that everything's fine and dandy.
I guess posting here is a good start. I'm no longer in denial and I can do something about it.

I've spent more time actually doing work before I do anything else like games and stuff like that. I have a really bad habit of getting sidetracked while I work so it's kind of hard for me to sit down and do all my work in one sitting. I've been forcing myself recently and so far, I've been seeing improvements.

Take 1 term again to complete my essay.
and doing morning exercise...
yeah thats for now...

I decided to switch to DT farming instead of nomod

.

Ive been trying to gain strength, and just become a better person irl

A month from now I'm in 10th grade D:

listening to songs

It's been such a long time since I last posted here, about 2 years ago. There's something new. Story incoming.

I really don't like people. It takes a good amount of time before I even consider someone an acquaintance.

I knew someone from a Facebook anime page (I started it, he was an admin) and we played Osu! together. We had a lot of Skype calls and the like. I would have known him for 4 years by now. He was essentially my best friend. He introduced me to his other group of friends, and they were fine and dandy. I met someone from that group who eventually became my girlfriend (now ex-gf). I loved her, I liked my best friend, and I was on pretty good terms with the group.

Cue some night in August. I hadn't talked to them in a while. They had changed their meetings and didn't tell me about it (first flag). GF wants me to have a chat with the group. I say why not. I show up and one of the group members (call him Jake) shows up first. He says hi and I say hi. Eventually everyone starts piling in, including best friend. Jake starts making moves on my GF in front of me. She's smiling, laughing, playing along -- obviously, I didn't appreciate it. Best friend helps Jake by means of adding background music as Jake continues his speech. GF is still smiling. Best friend starts laughing. Everyone's laughing at me.

I leave without saying anything and GF was there for another hour until I send her a text telling her how I felt. She said sorry, but obviously, I could tell she didn't really care. Broke up with her in March over other matters.

Moral of the story: People will use you to your benefit. Doesn't matter who, doesn't matter why. The moment they can use you, they'll do it.
What have I done to better myself?
I have not trusted anyone. If someone tries to get too close to me, I shut them off. As the words of wisdom on my profile say,

Those who you call "friends" will turn on you the moment it benefits them.
They will slander, steal, deceive, lie, manipulate, and cheat.
Do not let yourself be abandoned. Do not give them any openings.
Mercy is weakness; kindness is sin.

im depressed for my lessons and rewatch fairy tail from the beginning till end :^)
i dont have any anime to watch atm, u can suggest me :3

nomod.
Then stick to HD.
and DT.
EZDT.

Starting to follow trend lately so at least i can talk if needed to if situation become awkward between my friends.

what im i kidding , weebs doesnt not talk irl stuff.

i hope this pays off

Well after about a year being locked up in my room and going through anxiety and depression, I finally got a job at a grocery store. And ever since I got this job, I've lost about 20 pounds with in about 3 months, I'm actually talking to people and I'm actually making friends. I'd say this is a huge step for me!

Downloading my new driving lessons, and yes, i'm reading them.

Lately I've been developing a checklist to complete for myself, such as exercising a bit everyday, working on my Spanish and German a bit everyday, performing at least one random act of kindness to a stranger, etc.
I've also been trying to work on my positivity, and honestly, I've been feeling a lot better recently because of it!
I hope you can also better yourself in any way you can, even if it's just by a little bit.

I need love

Actually taking care of myself, and actually trying to look and feel cute and confident.
Mostly because i hate how i look irl.

Hmm quite a lot
I've just started reading the novel Seventh Plague. I've also been trying to go over my 20-XP goal in Duolingo and to learn one new skill in each language I'm learning (check my sig) each day
I need to exercise more and then go out and hang with my irl friends. Most importantly, stay curious, motivated, and with an open mind.
Advice pls (•-•)~>

endorsing myself in my waifu dimensions

I stopped masturbating and watching porn two months ago. It's good.

stopped eating fast food

Started clearing my work and home space of all this crap, it feels so good !

Less fapping more tapping = success is not a dream rawr

I started painting, it sounds weird but it calms me down and helps me when I've had a bad day.

Got a 144hz monitor feelsgoodman

waking up at 4:30am every day has been super productive. wish i started doing it years ago.

started focusing more on school than on vidya/social networks

Been trying to get myself to make stuff as often as I play videogames.

I've only played 7 hours past 2 weeks according to my Steam.

I usually log around 90 hours in 2 weeks.

try to attend therapy

Trying to get higher rank at school

Ryoid wrote:

Trying to get higher rank at school

same??

I stopped drinking alcohol just a few days ago. Stopped masturbating and watching porn 95 days ago.

hi

I don't really try to better myself unless it's required. At the moment, school is what I'm looking at improving. Failed my first ever test because I didn't listen for a whole semester, felt horrible. >.>"

Good thing I passed the retest!

Ryoid wrote:

Trying to get higher rank at school

plus improving for upcoming exams as the time for going to university is about to come

Lately i've been reading some self-development books & "light" science books. it Feels good tho

I been going to the gym xd Officially a 'Gym Lad' now

quitting the ratrace ( quitted colleague even if i was quite good) and started a inet business ebooks and affiliate marketing,
its quite easy if your a weeb to get into because we all love being on pc and what not

and yea doing metitaion lately and just keeping fit


im still an antisoz jerk tho

Yoshimundo wrote:

I been going to the gym xd Officially a 'Gym Lad' now

Ekam says hi

Study more
Less osu

<3

Ryoid wrote:

Study more
Less osu

I thought the idea was to BETTER yourself?

25 Kilometre of Cycling/day

next month will gain to 30 or 35

Making a great memories with my
........
Wtf posting this makes my eye rainning

Going outside once in a while.

Not drinking as many slushies :<

I left my desktop at home this semester. Actually getting into volunteering and meeting people on campus instead of spending free time in front of a computer screen. Also more motivated to study.

in-game: Starting to play osu online

irl: Stop flirting with girl and start to focus on study kinda

I am still pretty new so this could help a few beginners IF they look into this thread anyway.

- Don´t play only Maps/Songs you like
- Don´t Replay Songs more often than 3 times in a row
- Play as many different beatmaps as you can
- If some maps are too difficult, move on and play other ones
- Play easier Maps too!
- Have Fun

After some time you will improve without even notice it.

PS: Maybe i didn´t quite understood the Question of the OP, i thought it was osu related <.<

Logitazer wrote:

PS: Maybe i didn´t quite understood the Question of the OP, i thought it was osu related <.<

This exactly is not related to "Osu!".
I don't want to seem harsh but...




I've been looking for a renumerated activity (what would be translated in English as "Civilian Service") and I found one.

Decided to take my studies more serious as well as going back to doing cardio two to three times a week

Making my real life better.
Even if that means less osu....

[Sorry for my bad english but as the title said, I'll try to improve it too ]

Currently, I'm not in good situation. I feel like I can do awesome things but laziness controls me. That's why I' will written a message every Monday in order to have some motivation, have a global view of my goals (redefine it, if it is necessary) but mainly to achieve my goals (logic right ).


First of all, I NEED to stop skipping class. It's my final year (12th grade in USA I think) and I don't want to messed up this year like I did the past year. Even if it's hard, I'll succeed. I'll also work hard for my test and all this stuff. I also have personnal purpose outside the school : Be a writer and also increase(learning mosty) my programmation skill. I NEED to write something because it's been a really long time since I did some writting.

I also want to maintain my body. I'm pretty skinny and I don't like it. I'll start some exercices in order to shape EVERY part of my body (I take all advice ^^).
Eat less of shit is what I aim too
Oh and also I'm constantly improving in Osu, I take like 200pp in 2days and that's amazing haha, but I'm gonna increase my endurance as a priority ..


That's my top priorities. I have a lot of other goals to but I don't think it would be a good idea if I do too much things.
One love from France.

i usually hang out with my friends every saturday night when i have freetime (or when i have money lol)
i also read some novels when im not hanging out with my friends

nope lokalizer thats irl related but anyways

what i did? i net business
and training more

and play osu mania 1-2 hours daily how it should be

Going to bed early and waking up really late...

and a bit of meme and shitposts too

Lowered my spd rate to 20ish!
(SHITPOST PER DAYS!)

Knowledge is money.

Not lately, but over years I have learned coding and now I'm running a successful bitcoin gambling site.

Write up a better resumé for a job so I don't have to map circles all day.

Thanks for this topic!

I trying to dedicate more time to the importante people for me.
I take good care of my health.
I decided to focus more on my studies and use my time better.
I try to be more responsible.
I try to enjoy every momment of my life and see how life can be beatiful.
I started to improve my english (srry for the bad english xd) and having more contact with people who speak other languages and thus, making new friends!
I really want to get better and better...

I have been eating loots of choclate lately and been working out after if that counts.

lol HRT

well actually, this is a bit less of what i've done to better myself, and more of a realization of what it is i'm doing that should be fixed sooner or later.

so because i like to play online games a bunch (play pokemon mmos, not the shitty ones, and osu), i started to notice that my grades aren't really looking up for the best right now. and at home, i'm starting to lack on my chores, which is supposed to help me "build up responsibility".
i always disregarded what my mom said about "you're going to have to take care of yourself when you grow up" and thought that if i could get good enough at competitive esport games that i could join a team, i'd do it, but i realize that there has to be some sort of a stepping stone for me to achieve that goal. and now that i'm not really focused on trying to play games like league of legends or rocket league, i'm a bit more skeptical to how my future is going to paint itself out. because i'm only 14 years old, i still don't have a good grasp on how my life is going to be in 4 years, or when i graduate. more like "if", at this point.
so i might start playing less games (10 hours or more per day as of right now), and focus more on my education rather than how i'm going to figure out how i would do 6k muscle memories on osu!mania. i might also take myself more seriously, because at this point in my life, i'm only eating lunch most of the days of the week, and i rarely drink water/liquids, and i wake up somewhat earlier than the rest of my family. thinking about how i'm going to do this, i might have to lose some of my online "friends" (quotations because i'm not sure anymore), but i practically died on discord. i didn't want to, but real life called, and i'm contemplating what would have happened if i still could use discord. as i type this, i wonder what could have been if i didn't die on discord, if i, i don't know, didn't leave. now, i didn't leave, technically, but i feel like there's a part of me that's missing, and the part that has an open gap in it is sucking out all the interest that i ever had in any subject that i liked doing, like drawing, or learning hiragana and katakana. and now, i feel like i don't even know myself anymore. i'm practically losing myself when i wake up everyday, waiting for the inevitable end of my online life. someday, and i don't know when, i'm going to lose interest in everything that i found fun, that i found, interesting. and after a few years, i'll be signing papers in some rundown office building, with each phase of my life slowly passing by, mocking me for "what could have been."
now this post sounds more like a sad life story than what i've done to better myself.

Started working on my endurance. Also trying to be better at communication.

actually going to my group therapy sessions

i've been trying to strengthen myself every school day, in my school's weight room, we call it.

I've been trying to become more social and make new friends and also trying to spend more time outside home

been trying to drink as much water as i can without feeling sick (i feel sick if i drink like half a 300ml bottle but im trying to power through it)

I find this thread so motivating

Well what have i done to better myself is just now im playing guitar more often so i can use my skill to find money with teaching guitars.
I did quit playing guitar like 6 months i believe and starting to re-learn again , playing classical and also reading notes .
Although im not teaching yet , learning guitar is distracting my depression over my life. To be honest, i feel empty and dont know what to with my future , i just see what is in the front of me atm . I'm not like " im going to chase my dream and passion bullsh*t " . Playing guitar might be the only one ( beside osu ) that can make me feel content and not thinking about negative things . I also Sing sometime , even though this voice can make the whole windows cracks lol xD.
And i plan to go on vacation at the start of 2018 , i might need one haha.

That is just for me now. For now.

just started playing have had a blast pretty much . trying to get more consistent atm and learning different patterns and how to stream consistently etc by using the editor as help. got a long way to go and yeah been hella fun these past 20days definitly wanna keep playing for alot longer ^^. other from that i have lived a normal life pretty much working etc.

trying to enjoy the game instead of farming for pp, yknow

osu-wise, playing at least 1 beatmap pack per day. I have been practicing a lot of 4-5 star maps and frankly, I'm getting good at them especially jump maps.

IRL? Well, instead of going for chocolate as dessert, I ate it for dinner! Hooray!

keremal wrote:

well actually, this is a bit less of what i've done to better myself, and more of a realization of what it is i'm doing that should be fixed sooner or later.

so because i like to play online games a bunch (play pokemon mmos, not the shitty ones, and osu), i started to notice that my grades aren't really looking up for the best right now. and at home, i'm starting to lack on my chores, which is supposed to help me "build up responsibility".
i always disregarded what my mom said about "you're going to have to take care of yourself when you grow up" and thought that if i could get good enough at competitive esport games that i could join a team, i'd do it, but i realize that there has to be some sort of a stepping stone for me to achieve that goal. and now that i'm not really focused on trying to play games like league of legends or rocket league, i'm a bit more skeptical to how my future is going to paint itself out. because i'm only 14 years old, i still don't have a good grasp on how my life is going to be in 4 years, or when i graduate. more like "if", at this point.
so i might start playing less games (10 hours or more per day as of right now), and focus more on my education rather than how i'm going to figure out how i would do 6k muscle memories on osu!mania. i might also take myself more seriously, because at this point in my life, i'm only eating lunch most of the days of the week, and i rarely drink water/liquids, and i wake up somewhat earlier than the rest of my family. thinking about how i'm going to do this, i might have to lose some of my online "friends" (quotations because i'm not sure anymore), but i practically died on discord. i didn't want to, but real life called, and i'm contemplating what would have happened if i still could use discord. as i type this, i wonder what could have been if i didn't die on discord, if i, i don't know, didn't leave. now, i didn't leave, technically, but i feel like there's a part of me that's missing, and the part that has an open gap in it is sucking out all the interest that i ever had in any subject that i liked doing, like drawing, or learning hiragana and katakana. and now, i feel like i don't even know myself anymore. i'm practically losing myself when i wake up everyday, waiting for the inevitable end of my online life. someday, and i don't know when, i'm going to lose interest in everything that i found fun, that i found, interesting. and after a few years, i'll be signing papers in some rundown office building, with each phase of my life slowly passing by, mocking me for "what could have been."
now this post sounds more like a sad life story than what i've done to better myself.

I've actually contemplated this myself for a while, and I genuinely feel for you. I know that, as a 13-year-old myself, it's hard to come to terms with a future devoid of meaning, devoid of interest, and devoid of hope. I have always had a false sense of security concerning adulthood; I had people reassuring me that I could still pick up hobbies and that I didn't have to let my childhood die. But it's hard for me to imagine finding any time for anything else when I stopped to picture it. This overall gave me a bleak point of view until about a week ago.

I was getting a haircut over the winter break when the stylist paused to say hi to one of her co-worker's sons. When she returned to me, she told me: "What a spoiled kid. That's not always a bad thing, though. He'll only get one childhood, so a little bit of spoiling is okay." That really opened my eyes as to how fortunate of a time adolescence and young adulthood is. We have the freedoms to explore interests, learn new things, and not have to worry so much. That's why, as something I want to do to better myself, I want to take more risks. I want to live more of my young life involved and active. Who knows, maybe one of my interests will carry me through my life.

I eat Boiled eggs and play Taeyang Square/Jump/Farm/Tech maps to better myself and adjust tablet area bigger for more consistent in aiming and play dragonforce for stamina/stream and dt = Husa

What I've done to better my self... well to be frankly honest, nothing, my life has been a shit hole since I was 7, ever since then I've been going to see many doctors and other people. Most days I come home from a shit day at school, lock my self in my room, play osu and some other games (Usually RPGs and MMOs) Because of my past, I'm not to trusted with freedom inside my school or the choices I make there as of an attempt I did to well extract my self a few years ago. It's not like I want to stay in school, get GCSE's ETC and move on to work a boring life waltzing around on train platforms, getting on the train causally just to go to work, do work, come back home, sleep; or any bull shit like that (and no, I can't live the life that I want). When it comes to online gaming, that's usually the only place that I feel safe/fit in... for about 8 years now of my life I've been depressed and honestly empty. My problem isn't to do with a falling out with a girl or, losing money or having a really bad family, unlike most problems surrounding depression, my one has no sollution, no end, no relief (No it's not fucking autism or ADHD), and that's why... I haven't and will never be able to do anything to better my self; my only plans are to grow up until I'm 30 maybe then die, that's about all I have planned for life.

KuroTX wrote:

What I've done to better my self... well to be frankly honest, nothing, my life has been a shit hole since I was 7, ever since then I've been going to see many doctors and other people. Most days I come home from a shit day at school, lock my self in my room, play osu and some other games (Usually RPGs and MMOs) Because of my past, I'm not to trusted with freedom inside my school or the choices I make there as of an attempt I did to well extract my self a few years ago. It's not like I want to stay in school, get GCSE's ETC and move on to work a boring life waltzing around on train platforms, getting on the train causally just to go to work, do work, come back home, sleep; or any bull shit like that (and no, I can't live the life that I want). When it comes to online gaming, that's usually the only place that I feel safe/fit in... for about 8 years now of my life I've been depressed and honestly empty. My problem isn't to do with a falling out with a girl or, losing money or having a really bad family, unlike most problems surrounding depression, my one has no sollution, no end, no relief (No it's not fucking autism or ADHD), and that's why... I haven't and will never be able to do anything to better my self; my only plans are to grow up until I'm 30 maybe then die, that's about all I have planned for life.

thats depressing as fuck dude

I passed the last few weeks of my life by just doing whatever I had in mind, it seems nice, but for me it's the most boring life I've ever had. I would straight up do nothing for a day, would close and open random sites and apps and that's about it.

What I decided to do was schedule my entire days, so that every activity I'd have would be in the schedule and I forced myself to not escape from it.

That actually worked, in the last days I studied for my big test coming up and a bunch of stuff that I always had interest in, like music theory and languages.
I don't know how much time it will last but I'd definetly recommend it to anyone having the same issue.

KuroTX wrote:

What I've done to better my self... well to be frankly honest, nothing, my life has been a shit hole since I was 7, ever since then I've been going to see many doctors and other people. Most days I come home from a shit day at school, lock my self in my room, play osu and some other games (Usually RPGs and MMOs) Because of my past, I'm not to trusted with freedom inside my school or the choices I make there as of an attempt I did to well extract my self a few years ago. It's not like I want to stay in school, get GCSE's ETC and move on to work a boring life waltzing around on train platforms, getting on the train causally just to go to work, do work, come back home, sleep; or any bull shit like that (and no, I can't live the life that I want). When it comes to online gaming, that's usually the only place that I feel safe/fit in... for about 8 years now of my life I've been depressed and honestly empty. My problem isn't to do with a falling out with a girl or, losing money or having a really bad family, unlike most problems surrounding depression, my one has no sollution, no end, no relief (No it's not fucking autism or ADHD), and that's why... I haven't and will never be able to do anything to better my self; my only plans are to grow up until I'm 30 maybe then die, that's about all I have planned for life.

Hope you get better dude. Really, just talking about the issues you have I feel is doing something to better yourself, so don't be so hard on yourself.

Started 2 small clothing businesses and joined a gym gotta keep that BELLY at bay hahaha hope all of you are well

Get Grounded by Councelor in school.

zukakage wrote:

Get Grounded by Councelor in school.

+1

been eating healthier, ever since last year i've been cutting down the amount of sugary and fatty foods i eat/drink
this year i want to start exercising and building up some muscle

I started going to the gym, despite it being pretty expensive- with this I've started to drink more water and think more about what I eat.

I've gotten better at spreading my money on more reasonable things.

I think I'm becoming pretty adult...

kept myself alive

Eating 10k calories a day

YOU HAVE TO LIVE IT

Jordan wrote:

Eating 10k calories a day

YOU HAVE TO LIVE IT

what was your highest ever? mine was 11000 2 times