You know SNB, I often feel like that too which is why I rarely talk with anyone at school but people are different and you'll eventually find good people that will surprise you, in a good way of course. I am mostly alone because I drift away from people but I still got someone I can count despise all the trouble I've caused them and how far we live from each other. If I could go back in time I would tho just to avoid distancing myself so much from some really good friends I had that still try to meet up with me even tho I always say I'm busy. I guess I'd just feel awkward and anxious around them, probably with no subject to talk about because we're now so different from each other. Loneliness sucks and I wish I could be my old self

Lots of noob teams in LoL.

everything D:

A collegue had a free ticket for London and said that I can have it.
I was excited since my gf lives in London and could finally meet her. Turns out the ticket is for 25th October. She'll be in Berlin for some art trip during that time.

Not one of the best moments in life.

sluts, sluts everywhere

Maraiga wrote:

You know SNB, I often feel like that too which is why I rarely talk with anyone at school but people are different and you'll eventually find good people that will surprise you, in a good way of course. I am mostly alone because I drift away from people but I still got someone I can count despise all the trouble I've caused them and how far we live from each other. If I could go back in time I would tho just to avoid distancing myself so much from some really good friends I had that still try to meet up with me even tho I always say I'm busy. I guess I'd just feel awkward and anxious around them, probably with no subject to talk about because we're now so different from each other. Loneliness sucks and I wish I could be my old self

Sometimes I really want to hug you a lot.

when i saw your nick, i thought you were the crying one snb

what a waste

i never cry

i am man

maal wrote:

i never cry

i am man

shimpaishiranaide
don't cry small child

Go to osu>supporting osu!

no option to give peppy real money throught monitor ç_ç

(i don't have a credit card and paid numbers are locked for me)

maal wrote:

i never cry

i am man

lol yeah that may work until the girl you miss reappears in front of you or another shit, cool guy

Static Noise Bird wrote:

Sometimes I really want to hug you a lot.

-huuug- ;_;

Aeidxst wrote:

maal wrote:

i never cry

i am man

lol yeah that may work until the girl you miss reappears in front of you or another shit, cool guy

oh she was home again, she was just at school lol


such a big mouth you have, wow. do you really find need to insult me? that's not very nice nor mature. you big brute.

I hit my head in my wardrobe door when I woke up :'(

maal wrote:

such a big mouth you have, wow. do you really find need to insult me? that's not very nice nor mature. you big brute.

if you mean my language, unlike any " i feel u :[ " i actually find sincerity in it, and simply perform with it. wouldn't silence my tone just to prove maturity to someone in such cases. i don't feel that kind of responsibility. after all you are the one who took offense, though there is absolutely not. i bear no negative intentions here.

so you must question yourself first, i guess.

>cool guy

>sarcasm

>negative


did you ever consider being a comedian

Requesting a lock for 24 hours and/or a cleanup.

maal wrote:

>cool guy

>sarcasm

>negative


did you ever consider being a comedian

you should at least consider being not the touchy part of the audience then. didn't expect you to see that cheap thing as an insult, i thought you were "mature" enough to laugh it off. excuse me.

wow funny

Static Noise Bird wrote:

Requesting a lock for 24 hours and/or a cleanup.

That, thanks.

Emil's posts

DanielDiaz wrote:

I hit my head in my wardrobe door when I woke up :'(

/me high5s door

The community of league of legends ... sigh

You must be bronze, noobs, I am challenger VII and have two smurfs at diamond III and super diamond II (a secret league) l2p

You must be bronze, noobs, I am challenger VII and have two smurfs at diamond III and super diamond II (a secret league) l2p

And people like u make me laugh :p

Confession time with my friends

Re-watched "1 Litre of Tears".

sacchann wrote:

Re-watched "1 Litre of Tears".

;w;7

Control, the movie.

I was creating a beatmap for about an hour or so, then when I went to upload and play it, it deleted everything except the first 10 seconds -.-

spideeeeers came to me ;_;

NotEvenDoomMusic wrote:

mantears shed

Shouldn't watch these vids before I go to sleep. Damn...

Today I had a random anxiety attack.

My ex...we broke up 1-2 month ago after 1 year of being together and i still cant get over her (she cheated on me), it was a long distance relationship. Im trying to be strong but its just impossible, and sometimes she text and tell me how happy she is now and the ¨things¨ she already did with other guys (sex etc..)...i dont understand what she wants from me, but i feel like sh#! everyday after we broke up...time heals everything but is just not working for me, i dont know what to do anymore.

-MikexD- wrote:

My ex...we broke up 1-2 month ago after 1 year of being together and i still cant get over her (she cheated on me), it was a long distance relationship. Im trying to be strong but its just impossible, and sometimes she text and tell me how happy she is now and the ¨things¨ she already did with other guys (sex etc..)...i dont understand what she wants from me, but i feel like sh#! everyday after we broke up...time heals everything but is just not working for me, i dont know what to do anymore.

Okay wait- 1-2 months and you still feel like shit every single day?
I mean yes, i can fully understand in certain terms that people can't get over it so easily-
but you're torturing yourself if you're still keeping contact with her- since...

sometimes she text and tell me how happy she is now and the ¨things¨ she already did with other guys (sex etc..)

that's just wrong in all cardinal directions.

It's the best for both of, especially for you, if you stop contacting or replying to her immediately.
As harsh it may sound but... the slower you are the harder it gets to let go, either you do it in an instant and try to leave things behind or you'll be stuck with the pain and agony forever.
I know you both probably had good times aswell as bad times and it's up to your character & attitude how to handle with it, but it looks like you can't take it one bit so it's best for you to move on NOW and have those memories locked in the past.

Time will sure do something, as long as you're get a move on and not stand still in one position... so please do yourself a favor and delete her on every social media and IMs (instant messengers), if needed- block her and whatsoever... just try to get the things out of your sight and mind that has something to do with her.

You should start acquiring hobbies or activities, play sport or instruments, be yourself for a while and get off to do one of those things that you usually do.
Hang out with friends, just... everything that keeps you busy, physically aswell as mentally. Even gaming should do the job.

Oh... and if you're saying: "But she's the love of my life~", "We had so much in common", "Our memories are so..."
There are more than 7 billion people on this damn world, 7. Billion. Okay?
I know you'll never meet all of them and surely only the fewest will wake up your interest but damn... instead of standing still forever you should move and live your life again, enjoy it as long as you have your years to explore what you're truly capable of.
Instead of going for a LDR (not doubting that LDRs often tend to fail) you should start doing something IRL and maybe open up to yourself and to society, as ugly and disgusting it may be nowadays (and i don't know about your location), but digging in deeper will get you to those people and maybe you'll soon find someone who can respond your love. Though, as long as you search and explore, you'll truly find something.

I might be only one, but i'm always trying to see the positive things at something if i ever pick the short end of the straw at a certain time... if it's about relationship, job, health...
one explanation would be in "relationships": without them you wouldn't have had to experience how it might be to be loved by "that" someone, to gain experience and share them with "that" someone- so basically, all i want to say is that i, for once, am happy to go through shit in my life... as long as i always keep up learning from it and try to make things a bit better for myself and the people around me; the time i've spent on it were not wasted one bit.

So try to see and make the best out of this situation... as tough as things look like for you right now.
... I feel like this post won't really help anyone... though, i'd be happy if it does help a bit.

Thanks for take your time and reply, actually i deleted her a lot of times but idk why she keeps adding me over and over again..but yeah you are right, i will try to do what you said from now, its hard ofc but i dont want be depressed all the time anymore, would be more easy if she just stop talking to me but guess i need to be stronger and decline all her future friend request, thank you for the advices...also i think its hard cuz she was my ¨first love¨ , hard to forget x_x but i will try to go ahead somehow, i went some pages back and i saw a similar case of mine that gave me a little more strenght to go ahead ;_

Having to go to school