Let's just get together and hug, hug and hug.
Either way, to be on topic for once, even though I hate posting something that seems attention-seeking, not to even mention how much I hate admitting things; I kind of start hurting inside more and more daily (especially as we're getting close to school; reason incoming, keep reading), because I tell myself that I'm used to loneliness. I've even been telling myself, that being alone is actually better, and to stop trying, because hey, who needs friends, right? So yeah, I've realized, that I've already stopped trying. What makes me concerned, is that being alone might (and will) ruin my high school grades, which would ruin my chances to get a better/proper job, which would most likely ruin my life. Sure, I have one friend, but his good friend is coming to our school this year, in 5 days, and I can already smell the "haha you're neglected" in the air. So I'm running against a wall for two, three years, and then I realize, hey, getting friends would be the only reasonable option. But, I hate bothering people and admitting my problems, I'm socially nonexistent, and in general terribly shy and awkward, there's my main problems. Guess what "getting friends" stands for. I can't write it.
TL;DR: You didn't miss anything.