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Nazo_old
137 posts
Joined December 2008
Nazo_old
Before we moved to Oklahoma (and this was a long-ass time ago). and we were in this cul-de-sac, I made friends with a neighbor in a duplex house next to us (all the duplexes!), and later on, I once snuck out of the house with my new friend to his house, and when my dad came over to get me, boy was he pissed! I actually didn't regret it.

Double-feature: In the same place we lived in, my granny was at wal-mart one day, and I was like "I should go see her". So... I snuck out of the house and walked bare-foot ALL THE WAY TO THE WAL-MART (It was like 0.1 or 0.2 mile, I'm not sure) only to get stopped by an employee because I was walking barefoot. I waited outside for her, and she came out and saw me, and she was like "What are you doing out here? Did you wanna see me?" I said "yes".

A little while afterward, I saw dad's truck drive over, and I knew then I was in deep shit. He came out like "WHAT THE poot!", and he was like "Why did you sneak out of the house!?" and so on so forth

I think I was grounded for a couple of days after that. Whoop.

p.s. I was less than 11 years old when both of these happened, true story
Sleep Powder
1,540 posts
Joined October 2008
Sleep Powder
I used to be a little adventurer when I was little too >3<

My parents told me I would go crazy chasing birds at the park and go on the elevator by myself when I was only 5. When I was 11, I was repeatedly molested by my male cousin and I found out I liked men around that age. My parents hated my dad's side of the family when we lived with them. I was little and didn't understand too much of it, but both my parents attempted to commit suicide in front of me once. Not at the same time though. My dad said he saw evil spirits when he was unconscious after attempting suicide. My mom tried to cut her throat with glass while my dad yelled at me to try and stop her. Sadly, my sister picked up some of that suicidal stuff and has lots of thoughts of suicide. For some reason, I have thoughts of homicide instead. I have never attempted suicide, but have tried to kill my relatives on 2-3 occasions probably out of suppressed anger since I'm almost never angry.
Kaona
494 posts
Joined August 2010
Kaona
^ Damn that's kind of dark.
Vext_old
987 posts
Joined October 2010
Vext_old
I confess, I search my name in a couple of different sections of the forum once in a while. Not out of ego though, but rather curiosity as to whether I missed anyone responding to me or talking to me in a topic I did not look at again. Happens quite often actually, sometimes it is like 13 days after but I saw it! That's what matters! Even though I never responded because it was like 13 days late! I acknowledge you mystery response person!
Yarissa
587 posts
Joined September 2010
Yarissa
I do the same thing. I always like to know when someone is talking about me or quoting me
Aeidxst
291 posts
Joined July 2012
Topic Starter
Aeidxst
Pretty natural.
Yarissa
587 posts
Joined September 2010
Yarissa
I have another confession

I've gone through multiple phases in which I thought I was transgendered (as in, I thought I should have been born a woman). I suspect the reason why I had these phases is mostly because I have related fetishes. These fetishes may (or may not) have manifested themselves in my daily life by making me wonder whether or not I am actually transgendered.

And yes, those related fetishes are crossdressing/ genderbending. No, I do not have the balls (haha, you get it?) to crossdress in public or take pictures for you all no matter how much you beg. It would be an abomination

I have crossdressed before (not in public) and I rarely do it. Everyone in Texas is really conservative about LGBT issues and tends to relate crossdressing to being gay, which is not the case it all. On the Kinsey Scale (a scale for determining your homosexuality/heterosexuality) I measured at a 2. In layman's terms, that means I am 20% gay and 80% straight.

The reason I decided to post this is mostly because the internet is largely anonymous and I'd like to make a few friends that are accepting of these sorts of things. I figure my only real friends would be the friends who stayed by my side if I did actually go through with stuff like hormone therapy and sex reassignment surgery (which I actually considered buying hormones multiple times). I've been debating with myself for years whether or not I am actually transgendered. I am very platonic in general when it comes to my sexual identity/ orientation and so I feel like that makes it harder for me to decide these things. Ultimately, though, anyone who couldn't tolerate me simply because I have shared my sexual identity is someone I couldn't value as a real friend.

Have at me

Oh right. I figure I should mention that I am not going through one of those phases right now. And I'm hoping to get enough definition regarding my sexual identity to where I never have to go through a phase ever again. At that point I'll know whether or not I am actually transgendered

TL;DR: I thought I was transgendered multiple times.
Vext_old
987 posts
Joined October 2010
Vext_old
I cannot recall a single person that really cared either way about cross-dressing people on here. I sure don't. In fact there's tons of traps on here. Too damn many for my taste, where's the reverse traps to even it out? Come on ladies, I know you are here!
Yarissa
587 posts
Joined September 2010
Yarissa

Vext wrote:

I cannot recall a single person that really cared either way about cross-dressing people on here. In fact there's tons of traps on here. Too damn many for my taste, where's the reverse traps to even it out?
That's why I decided to post this here

Because I figured this community would accept the fact that I was transgendered
Vext_old
987 posts
Joined October 2010
Vext_old
Aye ma'am, and I voiced my opinion, don't care either way. You are you, and "you" is not a bad person. That is all that matters to me. You have me more intrigued by this gay test, links plox. I wish to know the extent of my man lovin'.

EDIT: Better yet, make a thread for it. This should be interesting.
Yarissa
587 posts
Joined September 2010
Yarissa
Good idea. I'll get right on it
Bweh
486 posts
Joined September 2012
Bweh
I'm awfully scared of saying this, seeing as though I'd get prosecuted for this, but let's give it a shot anyway.

I confess I'm strongly homophobic. Transgenders, gays, lesbians, and bisexuals make me extremely uncomfortable. Not that I hate them or want to wipe them off the face of the Earth--they just make my insides feel like lead. Even though I've met and supported many gays or transgenders (I haven't met a bi yet, at least I think so) during their moments of doubt and hesitation, it's never sat right by me. I've listened to their problems, how they're afraid people won't accept them, given them my advice, and then realized I might as well be one of those people that'd never be okay with it.

The thing is I tolerate LGBTs, key word being tolerate. As in, it bothers me and makes me want to do something about it and yet I stuff it down, real deep.

I know they're born a certain way and can't help themselves, which is one of the reasons why I don't discriminate or prosecute them, the other being the fact that I respect everyone's right to do whatever they want. In other words, I recognize they can't help being attracted to what they are, and I'm not inhuman enough to go on a homicidal spree and somehow justify it. It still makes me awfully uncomfortable though.

I don't have a problem with them trying to seize their own rights though. I recognize these are still humans; they deserve those rights like any other. I'm not sure I'm getting my point across; I don't have anything against them in particular, but they still make me uncomfortable anyway.
Vext_old
987 posts
Joined October 2010
Vext_old

Brian OA wrote:

I confess I'm strongly homophobic.
No thank you. That is very rude. -JJ

I confess, I openly accept those with abnormal or embarrassing things about themselves and ridicule ignorance. Hurr hurr. In a friendly sense of course... to the extent the ignorance warrants.
silmarilen
5,582 posts
Joined February 2010
silmarilen

Kaoru wrote:

Vext wrote:

I cannot recall a single person that really cared either way about cross-dressing people on here. In fact there's tons of traps on here. Too damn many for my taste, where's the reverse traps to even it out?
That's why I decided to post this here

Because I figured this community would accept the fact that I was transgendered

Your prediction of '13 wrote:

[*]At least one new transgender will appear. (Bass)
can we make that green now?
Jazz
674 posts
Joined March 2011
Jazz
oh since people here are talking about homos/transies/whatever

i don't like homos (even though a lot of people think i'm into yaoi, well the truth is i don't)
i find two guys who are holding hands/kissing/leaning on each other's shoulders/being lovey-dovey to each other/ and other fluffy things that they do disgusting
i do not find two girls who are kissing hot
i am totally not for same sex marriage
and i curse transies

kinda ironic because i have a guy friend who has a boyfriend right now, and two of my close friends during highschool were fujoshis
and i used to flirt with girls when i was in highschool (i studied in an all-girls school), and i'm currently flirting with girls in college [side story: one of my classmates actually asked me if i was a lesbian]. i did those things because i wanted to make fun of the idea that two girls are dating each other

i find the part where they want to have equal rights with other people ridiculous
Quaraezha
1,491 posts
Joined February 2011
Quaraezha

Vext wrote:

Brian OA wrote:

I confess I'm strongly homophobic.
Very rude image

I confess, I openly accept those with abnormal or embarrassing things about themselves and ridicule ignorance. Hurr hurr. In a friendly sense of course... to the extent the ignorance warrants.
Oh don't support him.
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Jazz
674 posts
Joined March 2011
Jazz
i am so bad at writing satire
Mianki
2,701 posts
Joined September 2008
Mianki
My big sister is bi and she has a gay male friend who came around our house pretty often. At first I did feel uncomfortable around him because I hadn't hanged around with a gay guy before. But since he likes games as well and as time went by, we became good friends. He's like anybody else and talks "normally", not like a stereotypical gay guy. So I came to terms that gay people are normal human beings.
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Vext_old
987 posts
Joined October 2010
Vext_old

Mianki wrote:

My big sister is bi and she has a gay male friend who came around our house pretty often. At first I did feel uncomfortable around him because I hadn't hanged around with a gay guy before. But since he likes games as well and as time went by, we became good friends. He's like anybody else and talks "normally", not like a stereotypical gay guy. So I came to terms that gay people are normal human beings.
I agree with you very much Mianki. That was filled with typos though so I cleaned it up because all of the red squiggles bugged me on this.

I think a lot of why people think of all gay people as very Richard Simmons style. But that's not completely true, some are yes, just as some straight men are that way as well as women. Many people are gay or bi and you would never know, judging by their attitude or actions is foolish. Though I think many people do and associate all gay people as that type and are thus intimidated or frightened by em. Not too different from racial stereotypes such as Ebonics. Perfect example is JJ of course whom nobody would expect to be black without seeing him simply because he does not use Ebonics and thus is dismissed as a possibility. As well I come off more black when I am on headsets and such than JJ which is pretty funny 'cause I'm not 100% black. Fun fact, I still get "a talking to" from police occasionally to this day because they suspect me of gang behavior simply because of my demeanor. I suppose old lifestyles die hard, and even if you get away from it you don't necessarily remove it from yourself.
Hika
1,553 posts
Joined February 2010
Hika

Vext wrote:

I cannot recall a single person that really cared either way about cross-dressing people on here. I sure don't. In fact there's tons of traps on here. Too damn many for my taste, where's the reverse traps to even it out? Come on ladies, I know you are here!
8-)
Oh by the way, this homosexuality conversation in this thread is quite interesting. Where's a thread for it? /anger
Vext_old
987 posts
Joined October 2010
Vext_old

Hika wrote:

Vext wrote:

I cannot recall a single person that really cared either way about cross-dressing people on here. I sure don't. In fact there's tons of traps on here. Too damn many for my taste, where's the reverse traps to even it out? Come on ladies, I know you are here!
8-)
Oh by the way, this homosexuality conversation in this thread is quite interesting. Where's a thread for it? /anger
It's right here in Off-Topic just waiting for posts after you make it instead of asking for it to be made sweetie~. <3 Or bump it if it already exists.
Yarissa
587 posts
Joined September 2010
Yarissa
Silm for the record I decided that I am not currently transgendered, I was just confessing to the fact that I had multiple phases in which I thought I was transgendered.

These fetishes real gud
silmarilen
5,582 posts
Joined February 2010
silmarilen
i guess we'll have to wait for someone else them
Mianki
2,701 posts
Joined September 2008
Mianki
"m" is the mutated version of "n" because "m" has three legs
UnderminE
osu! Alumni
4,011 posts
Joined August 2010
UnderminE
m is man n is woman
Vext_old
987 posts
Joined October 2010
Vext_old
But then why is the man spreading his legs?
UnderminE
osu! Alumni
4,011 posts
Joined August 2010
UnderminE
BDSM.
Aeidxst
291 posts
Joined July 2012
Topic Starter
Aeidxst
'Cause them balls are itchy. But the M is more like a female spreading her legs.
silmarilen
5,582 posts
Joined February 2010
silmarilen
we finally had a decent discussion about something and then a typo fucks everything up
gg
Vext_old
987 posts
Joined October 2010
Vext_old
Well Hika should have made that quality thread which would have led to quality discussion like biological consistencies! Now look what has happened! Damn it Hika!
silmarilen
5,582 posts
Joined February 2010
silmarilen
i could make a thread about transgenders, but the last one got locked and wastelanded
Vext_old
987 posts
Joined October 2010
Vext_old
That's because it was sassy and unrefined.

Also, if the M is a woman, is this a futa scenario?
silmarilen
5,582 posts
Joined February 2010
silmarilen
no, its the woman giving birth to a baby
Vext_old
987 posts
Joined October 2010
Vext_old
Ok so... The m was just a really fat n, that got knocked up by another n, then deformed into the m and while giving birth to an l that has to grow up to be an n, the n that knocked it up went upside down to fit betwixt its legs and the baby.... to form Voltron?
silmarilen
5,582 posts
Joined February 2010
silmarilen
if you say so
Vext_old
987 posts
Joined October 2010
Vext_old
I do say so, where did all these lurkers come from? Are they actually gonna post anything? Probably not.
gurodoll_old
254 posts
Joined August 2011
gurodoll_old
ShindoL's 'Onnanoko ni Natte' / 'Becoming a Girl' is a masterpiece of gender bending eromanga / hentai.
Vext_old
987 posts
Joined October 2010
Vext_old
That brings to mind Ranma 1/2. I would love to see a literal version if only it could be a factual curse, just to see the reactions on certain people. Take some chick, splash her husband with water, see if she is still attracted to the woman version, ah yeah, that'd be good tv.
silmarilen
5,582 posts
Joined February 2010
silmarilen
ranma 1/2 was one of the first manga i read a volume of, way before i even knew what manga or anime was. (one of my schoolmates used to bring manga to school sometimes)
Hika
1,553 posts
Joined February 2010
Hika

Vext wrote:

Well Hika should have made that quality thread which would have led to quality discussion like biological consistencies! Now look what has happened! Damn it Hika!
I have failed you master. Actually, I was thinking about making my only thread for the year now but I don't think so.
gurodoll_old
254 posts
Joined August 2011
gurodoll_old
I long for a new Hika thread.
Vext_old
987 posts
Joined October 2010
Vext_old
Inuyasha was my first manga I read, via the creator I found Ranma quickly after and loved it so much more. I think it was in the back of one of the volumes of Ranma that there was a mini interview with her, and they asked why her work is popular with both men and women. She says her secret is "Give the women romance, give the men boobs, give everyone a good story, fun characters, and cool action." Best. Answer. Ever.

Hika wrote:

Vext wrote:

Well Hika should have made that quality thread which would have led to quality discussion like biological consistencies! Now look what has happened! Damn it Hika!
I have failed you master. Actually, I was thinking about making my only thread for the year now but I don't think so.
I may have wasted my thread for the year early, but damn is it sophisticated.
silmarilen
5,582 posts
Joined February 2010
silmarilen
inuyasha was also one of the manga i read at school
thats one of the reasons why he's the first character i want to cosplay
Yarissa
587 posts
Joined September 2010
Yarissa

gurodoll wrote:

ShindoL's 'Onnanoko ni Natte' / 'Becoming a Girl' is a masterpiece of gender bending eromanga / hentai.
I have probably read like every genderbender hentai out there

...just saying
Hika
1,553 posts
Joined February 2010
Hika
Oh, you'll get a thread out of me eventually.
silmarilen
5,582 posts
Joined February 2010
silmarilen
i started watching kämpfer for the gender bending and the anime turned out pretty decent (except for the last episode)
Yarissa
587 posts
Joined September 2010
Yarissa
When you have genderbending hentai it usually goes like this:

>Change sexes
>Suddenly wants the dick

I don't think that's how it works
Vext_old
987 posts
Joined October 2010
Vext_old

Kaoru wrote:

gurodoll wrote:

ShindoL's 'Onnanoko ni Natte' / 'Becoming a Girl' is a masterpiece of gender bending eromanga / hentai.
I have probably read like every genderbender hentai out there

...just saying
GAH! You are reminding me of damn anmiask now, I swear he made my Netflix think I am gay. Every single time I would come home from work he would be in my room either playing Blazblue or watching a romance movie about 2 gay dudes. Now that's all it recommends to me! AGH! I'm like "GEEZ! Just 'cause you're super homo does not mean you gotta watch only movies that are! watch a normal romance ffs! Serendipity god damn it! watch Serendipity!"
silmarilen
5,582 posts
Joined February 2010
silmarilen
in this manga i was reading the main character turned into a girl but still had the thoughts of a guy, however the girl he loved turned out to be lesbian and only in love with his female version
Yarissa
587 posts
Joined September 2010
Yarissa
When I watch romance it's usually something cute like spicy wolf. Those are the sort of romances I like to watch/ want for myself. I don't think I could even like a serious romance about a guy changing to a girl and suddenly falling in love with his childhood friend. Dat ain't even cute. It's strictly fetishes.

When I want to jerk one off at least I know where to go...

Also I don't know if there are rules for being worksafe or not here. I suppose as long as I'm not posting porn or linking to porn websites this sort of conversation is acceptable?
Vext_old
987 posts
Joined October 2010
Vext_old
I go to g.e-hentai~!

As far as romances go, I haven't particularly seen one in a manga or animu that I was like "d'aww" at in general, it was mostly "d'awww" because of well developed characters and story that I was invested in, not because of the scenario.

Follow Vext's golden rule Kaoru. Keep on pushing until they modQ you again. If they do, you went to far. Or Sakura hates you like she hates me.
gurodoll_old
254 posts
Joined August 2011
gurodoll_old

Hika wrote:

Oh, you'll get a thread out of me eventually.
<3


Vext wrote:

I go to g.e-hentai~!
That's the lite version of exhentai nya~!
Sleep Powder
1,540 posts
Joined October 2008
Sleep Powder
My dreams are way better than most gay romance movies so I stopped watching them c:

I don't like straight couples. Every time I see one in public, they would have to be pretty amazing in personality for me to like them. I'm not crazy for gay couples either. Personally, I prefer guys that act like friends to be in a relationship. Huh... is that why I like straight guys?
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gurodoll_old
254 posts
Joined August 2011
gurodoll_old

animask wrote:

My dreams are way better than most gay romance movies so I stopped watching them c:

I don't like straight couples. Every time I see one in public, they would have to be pretty amazing in personality for me to dislike them. I'm not crazy for gay couples either. Personally, I prefer guys that act like friends to be in a relationship. Huh... is that why I like straight guys?
*reads*. . . *adds*. . .


hngh~
silmarilen
5,582 posts
Joined February 2010
silmarilen
in other communitys i was usually an asshole to new people or people i didnt know really well. they all still ended up liking me for some reason :/
Vext_old
987 posts
Joined October 2010
Vext_old
This is an interesting paradox that is very true Silm. It always seems to end up that way which is pretty illogical. As well, especially on here, people like the loudest rudest douchebags that do nothing but attack people, dunno why. I used to be a wimp! Now I'm a jerk and everyone loves me!
Sleep Powder
1,540 posts
Joined October 2008
Sleep Powder
Lots of people love outgoing, energetic people rather than quiet, shy types. I don't think it has anything to do with being a jerk or an asshole.
Yarissa
587 posts
Joined September 2010
Yarissa
I wouldn't exactly call being "the loudest rudest douchebag" outgoing.

The whole point of forums is to talk. There are a lot of people who barely even post here to begin wtih
Foxtrot
1,165 posts
Joined April 2012
Foxtrot
Well, since you guys are talking about genders...

I always wanted to be a guy, and if I were one I would be heterosexual. Now, the ironic part is that, as a girl, I would never imagine myself dating another person of my same sex.

Whenever I fantasize about a girl, I would imagine myself as a guy, never a girl.

I don't know if it makes sense.
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silmarilen
5,582 posts
Joined February 2010
silmarilen
are you the next transgender?
Foxtrot
1,165 posts
Joined April 2012
Foxtrot
Apparently it's quite common, but I never met someone who thought like that.
Jordan
1,037 posts
Joined December 2010
Jordan
I confess that if something really bad would happen in my life like losing my family and being with no one, or suddenly having a really invalidating handicap, i'd have no problem on killing myself since I wouldn't want to live a life of suffering. I'm not afraid of dying since basically dying is just like non-existence and I don't believe in any god or afterlife.


EDIT: I'd suicide in case of failing high school too
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thelewa
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Joined August 2010
thelewa

Jordan wrote:

I confess that if something really bad would happen in my life like losing my family and being with no one, or suddenly having a really invalidating handicap, i'd have no problem on killing myself since I wouldn't want to live a life of suffering. I'm not afraid of dying since basically dying is just like non-existence and I don't believe in any god or afterlife.
I wouldn't really kill myself because of losing a family member or a close one. But if I like, lost both of my hands or something, I'd probably want to end myself pretty badly.
Kaona
494 posts
Joined August 2010
Kaona
I can only see myself actually attempting suicide if my Mum died anytime soon. Unless I get depression again, which is extremely unlikely.
Mianki
2,701 posts
Joined September 2008
Mianki

Dulcet wrote:

Apparently it's quite common, but I never met someone who thought like that.
Sometimes I think that "if I were a girl, I'd have crush on that guy". Dunno if that is kinda the same thing.
Hika
1,553 posts
Joined February 2010
Hika
I just really wanted to confess something very awkward but it's worth it.

The only truthful most honest reason as to why I don't want to (or like to) shower is because I hate feeling a towel against my nipples.
AHAHAHAJKDHSAD
Kanye West
2,222 posts
Joined July 2011
Kanye West

Hika wrote:

I just really wanted to confess something very awkward but it's worth it.

The only truthful most honest reason as to why I don't want to (or like to) shower is because I hate feeling a towel against my nipples.
AHAHAHAJKDHSAD
Use a blow-dryer LOOL
Aeidxst
291 posts
Joined July 2012
Topic Starter
Aeidxst

Hika wrote:

I just really wanted to confess something very awkward but it's worth it.

The only truthful most honest reason as to why I don't want to (or like to) shower is because I hate feeling a towel against my nipples.
AHAHAHAJKDHSAD
I need BA's kyon avatar right now.
Bweh
486 posts
Joined September 2012
Bweh
It's fairly easy to find but I prefer to use this one anyway

SPOILER

This works too

SPOILER
Hika
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Hika
I think Aei probably feels like the first one.
Bweh
486 posts
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Bweh
Yeah I think you're right.
Vish024
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Vish024
Kyon-kun denwa~
Yarissa
587 posts
Joined September 2010
Yarissa
I confess I lurk this forum way too much while I'm at work, driving in my car delivering pizzas. I probably should be focused on the road and not every other shit post that pops up here

Also I used to be suicidal for a while. Even when I was happy with my life I would oftentimes frustrate myself with the pointlessness of it all. I would ask myself "If life has no point, why keep on living?" It didn't take me long to realize how selfish it was to even consider suicide. I would cause pain for the people who love me. I eventually decided that since I only have one shot at my life, I might as well make the most of it. To this day I live for my happiness and the happiness of the people I love and I do anything I can to achieve that happiness.

@lewa: If you were missing your hands, how would you choose to kill yourself? Jumping off a building? Jumping onto a highway? Biting your own tongue off? Give me something creative.
Vext_old
987 posts
Joined October 2010
Vext_old
Someone messaged me yesterday and asked me why I keep coming here if it is not to play the game or anything.

So I thought for a minute and well, tbh I have no answer for it. I realized I have no reason to come to osu! really. I don't actually really play, nor do I really get on to actually do anything. A while back I left for a few months, it was not by choice but alas I had no real desire to come back. Why did I? Well, everyone thinks it was because I missed it or because a lot of people wanted me to... But actually, that's not true. The real reason is actually for one person. It was a person I was not able to talk to, nor would be able to for probably years. I thought to myself "What if one of us tries to get in touch down the road?" Well it cannot really be done, in time everyone will forget an email or whatever contact means without frequenting it. So I came back, would log in every so often and make say 1 post or something, to where if you looked at my recent posts it would be active consistently at least every couple of days. I did this as a sort of message, an "I'll always be here waiting if you need me." sort of thing. One day they did make contact, to my dismay essentially every word uttered by them had the intent to hurt me in some way, to this day they're on here, apparently spreading rumors and telling lies of me. Perhaps I stay as just a habit, or out of a foolish subconscious longing for this to not be true and that one day the reason I did this will come true. Either way, every fiber of my being both mental and physical would be repulsed at the very sight of them now and I would refuse to even speak with them. I probably just stay for the same reason I'm bothering to post a srs bsn tl;dr in an Off-Topic thread nobody gives two shits about unless it's funny. Honestly? I do not actually know why, just a feeling that I should or want to with no explanation.

tl;dr: I hate myself and I want to die / Cry cry emo tears / I want attention / nonsensical rambling / I'm secretly 2 midgets in a trench coat.
Pick whatever one you wanna apply.
Jazz
674 posts
Joined March 2011
Jazz
i hate how i take a lot of time thinking what to say and end up not making any sense anyway
Febyy
50 posts
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Febyy
im gay
Aqo
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Aqo
Confession: I enjoy nightcore more than doubletime now.

D:

Used to use NC instead of DT just for the novelty of having a NC score but over time of using it this pitch grew on me and now it actually sounds good. Oh dear lord what am I saying ;_;
Vext_old
987 posts
Joined October 2010
Vext_old
I love the nightcore mod but I was never able to actually.... play effectively with it, it always seemed like the beat was thrown off with it enabled.
Low
2,006 posts
Joined July 2011
Low
I have been a very naughty boy this year
silmarilen
5,582 posts
Joined February 2010
silmarilen
i like nightcore, but not the nightcore mod or most of the recent nightcore songs that have been mapped.
EOHK-Fluttershy
46 posts
Joined December 2012
EOHK-Fluttershy
I blush easily when someone compliments me! \(//∇//)\
Effy
506 posts
Joined July 2012
Effy
I'm missing someone really much ~_~
BrokenArrow
2,237 posts
Joined June 2010
BrokenArrow

Shina wrote:

I'm missing someone really much ~_~
;~;
Aeidxst
291 posts
Joined July 2012
Topic Starter
Aeidxst

Vext wrote:

I realized I have no reason to come to osu! really. I don't actually really play, nor do I really get on to actually do anything. A while back I left for a few months, it was not by choice but alas I had no real desire to come back. Why did I? Well, everyone thinks it was because I missed it or because a lot of people wanted me to... But actually, that's not true. The real reason is actually for one person. It was a person I was not able to talk to, nor would be able to for probably years. I thought to myself "What if one of us tries to get in touch down the road?" Well it cannot really be done, in time everyone will forget an email or whatever contact means without frequenting it. So I came back, would log in every so often and make say 1 post or something, to where if you looked at my recent posts it would be active consistently at least every couple of days. I did this as a sort of message, an "I'll always be here waiting if you need me." sort of thing. One day they did make contact, to my dismay essentially every word uttered by them had the intent to hurt me in some way, to this day they're on here, apparently spreading rumors and telling lies of me. Perhaps I stay as just a habit, or out of a foolish subconscious longing for this to not be true and that one day the reason I did this will come true. Either way, every fiber of my being both mental and physical would be repulsed at the very sight of them now and I would refuse to even speak with them. I probably just stay for the same reason I'm bothering to post a srs bsn tl;dr in an Off-Topic thread nobody gives two shits about unless it's funny. Honestly? I do not actually know why, just a feeling that I should or want to with no explanation.

tl;dr: I hate myself and I want to die / Cry cry emo tears / I want attention / nonsensical rambling / I'm secretly 2 midgets in a trench coat.
Pick whatever one you wanna apply.
In my case which is sorta same as yours , it made me come here and join the community instead of observing it from a distance. I came here knowing that I will see the certain person with another guy everyday. Without any motivation like "oh maybe she will come back to me". Just came here and spent my time with filling the new emptiness opened in me. Well, she came back though.

I dislike this "drama" thing but also believe it's necessary to be serious, honest and heart-to-heart sometimes. So I won't pick any of that judgements you foresaw on people.
silmarilen
5,582 posts
Joined February 2010
silmarilen

Vext wrote:

Someone messaged me yesterday and asked me why I keep coming here if it is not to play the game or anything.

So I thought for a minute and well, tbh I have no answer for it. I realized I have no reason to come to osu! really. I don't actually really play, nor do I really get on to actually do anything. A while back I left for a few months, it was not by choice but alas I had no real desire to come back. Why did I? Well, everyone thinks it was because I missed it or because a lot of people wanted me to... But actually, that's not true. The real reason is actually for one person. It was a person I was not able to talk to, nor would be able to for probably years. I thought to myself "What if one of us tries to get in touch down the road?" Well it cannot really be done, in time everyone will forget an email or whatever contact means without frequenting it. So I came back, would log in every so often and make say 1 post or something, to where if you looked at my recent posts it would be active consistently at least every couple of days. I did this as a sort of message, an "I'll always be here waiting if you need me." sort of thing. One day they did make contact, to my dismay essentially every word uttered by them had the intent to hurt me in some way, to this day they're on here, apparently spreading rumors and telling lies of me. Perhaps I stay as just a habit, or out of a foolish subconscious longing for this to not be true and that one day the reason I did this will come true. Either way, every fiber of my being both mental and physical would be repulsed at the very sight of them now and I would refuse to even speak with them. I probably just stay for the same reason I'm bothering to post a srs bsn tl;dr in an Off-Topic thread nobody gives two shits about unless it's funny. Honestly? I do not actually know why, just a feeling that I should or want to with no explanation.

tl;dr: I hate myself and I want to die / Cry cry emo tears / I want attention / nonsensical rambling / I'm secretly 2 midgets in a trench coat.
Pick whatever one you wanna apply.
nobody has ever said anything bad about you to me.
Quaraezha
1,491 posts
Joined February 2011
Quaraezha
What really happened to Vext
Vext_old
987 posts
Joined October 2010
Vext_old
I was told by a couple of different people the same things that were said about me, hah, I pity the ones that were dumb enough to believe such absurdity.

Also Quar, how did you know I was so black when I found out!? Your perception is nothing short of stunning.
CaptainJustice
43 posts
Joined December 2010
CaptainJustice
Well, I confess that I feel very uncomfortable, when I write smth here. I am a new person here and you know, I'm really afraid that you'll all get bored because of me T_T
Srsly, it's the second time I'm posting smth not in some russian forums and... I've got too much to say sometimes. Sorry for disturbing you C:
EOHK-Fluttershy
46 posts
Joined December 2012
EOHK-Fluttershy
I wish that sometimes that everyone on osu could just get along and be happy, for everyone to live peacefully with a life free of sadness and despair
Yarissa
587 posts
Joined September 2010
Yarissa
Vext for the record I never heard any bad rumors about you either. And I've been around for two and a half years (although I have only recently been active on the forums)

Confession of my own: Calling me smart goes straight to my ego. Likewise calling me stupid can make me depressed (only if I know someone means it)
Hika
1,553 posts
Joined February 2010
Hika
i'm just self centered
nothing to hide about that lol
Aeidxst
291 posts
Joined July 2012
Topic Starter
Aeidxst
To be clear, I heard a lot about Vext from the opposite side. Also I even knew about the case before coming here. But I won't believe anything without listening the both side as I told to person who told me about that things. Not interested in playing the partial.

CaptainJustice wrote:

Well, I confess that I feel very uncomfortable, when I write smth here. I am a new person here and you know, I'm really afraid that you'll all get bored because of me T_T
Srsly, it's the second time I'm posting smth not in some russian forums and... I've got too much to say sometimes. Sorry for disturbing you C:
Don't be that nervous, not everyone is spoiled enough to judge or ignore you. But if you keep that "because of me T_T" bullshit, anyone can take advantage of it and treat you like a pavement.
Yarissa
587 posts
Joined September 2010
Yarissa
I agree, it's not a good thing to let your self-esteem get out of control. We all have no reason to judge you. And trust me, you probably can't be any more boring than me. All I tend to do is make serious posts in the off-topic board

Thinking about it a little more, why do I do that?
CaptainJustice
43 posts
Joined December 2010
CaptainJustice

Aeidxst wrote:

But if you keep that "because of me T_T" bullshit, anyone can take advantage of it and treat you like a pavement.
Be sure, it's a momentary weakness :D
EOHK-Fluttershy
46 posts
Joined December 2012
EOHK-Fluttershy
I'm incredibly shy when it comes to making new friends, and people say im like a human Fluttershy! But, I can confess that I am determined and more than willing to become the best at taiko! I want to be the best, and I will take on any challenge ahead, but it's the new friends I make and the journey to get to #1 that makes me want to do it even more~ :D
Aeidxst
291 posts
Joined July 2012
Topic Starter
Aeidxst
Will you become hokage as well, Naruto-kun?
EOHK-Fluttershy
46 posts
Joined December 2012
EOHK-Fluttershy

Aeidxst wrote:

Will you become hokage as well, Naruto-kun?
Heuheuheuheuheu I see what you did thur ;)
she_old
she_old
I admit that I sometimes add people to see if we're mutual but then quickly un-add them because I don't want them on my list, and if I get forced into adding them I try to get banned somehow so I don't have them on my list, but only after too many people. (Also on Rii)
silmarilen
5,582 posts
Joined February 2010
silmarilen
i often add people to see if they are mutual and if they arent i remove them again
Kaona
494 posts
Joined August 2010
Kaona

silmarilen wrote:

i often add people to see if they are mutual and if they arent i remove them again
I do this more often than I'd like to admit.
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