Odaril wrote:
Copy-paste from ML:
Bye. Too many things have been building up lately (psychologically I mean). I already had a nervous breakdown this (school) year, and I don't want to risk another. This game has been bringing me too much frustration and too many occasions to be nervous, too many failures I cannot withstand, and too much sadness for what it gave me in return. The depression I've been going through for the past five years has become too big for me to ignore.
Neither this game nor this community actually need me. I'm at least glad to say I can quit without remorse, because there are people who can do what I wasn't doing, in a better way than I would have done. I know this community won't miss me. It never genuinely respected me anyway, and fighting every day to get the most basic of respect is not something I should have to do.
I will try not to log in to the forums or IRC at all. I can't really say I'll miss you all, but I will miss some of you.
I didn't know you had so many problems... So sad, i thought you were just a fine moe French wanting to learn Chinese.
People here do care about you Odaril, otherwise you would never have become BAT. You got maps ranked, modded and also made your own maps and moderated diligently, why would you say you weren't doing your job well? I may have called you funny stuff and generally been a nuisance to you, but I really did respect you, you may have forgotten this, but you helped me around when I first started playing almost a year ago, back then you were still MAT, I got to know you by your longing to learn Chinese, and I'd been helping you with it ever since. You were fun to have around, people loved talking to you, but you always seemed so distant, now I understand why.
I respect your decision to leave the community, you know what's best for yourself, this game can get pretty time-consuming, especially with your added responsibilities, but you need to understand that people do give a damn, that's all I have to say.
Hope you fare well in life, when you finally solve you problems you better come back!
Regards,
Odaril's self-appointed Chinese tutor