It's nice to hear that you didn't just get mad over beast but that you are legitimately trying to improve. I'll be looking forward to your next map!
Completely honest now this map is not good. You are probably watching beast criticizing your map right now and i hope you will learn and become a better mapper. The best thing would be to just start out with simpler songs. Not trying to be mean or anything, everyone starts out weak! :-)
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