EnglishEven after years, the shadow doesn't fade; it only invites more emotions
I crouched, and I drew alone
The blazing sun overhead, on a hilly road, we walked, blurry figures,
The summer heat in our eyes
"Don't mind me", "Just go off somewhere", and I brushed your hand away
"I won't go", you said to me, and grabbed mine back
"You're so annoying!" I walked a little bit ahead, without looking back
"What's your real heart?"
With things like "wisdom," I can't look forward; There's no reason, so I keep rotting
If only things could be wound back...
As many years pass, I won't die, always proclaiming hopeful ideas,
Even though, naturally, you're still not here...
Saying "I don't care, go die, go die", I grab my wrist and curse
I can't do anything, so I just casually indulge in life
"If the summer can show us dreams, let's go to before you were taken away," I say...
The days I hid out of shame light up the air, scorching my mind...
A boy at the age of 18 waited somewhere again
It's a blurry silhouette, but he remembers the shape
On a campus clear under a blazing sun, you were smiling again
Again you said "let's play," and gently swayed...
"I'm worried," says an awkward face. Some neighbor wouldn't understand;
Stop pretending to be so sad
Let's keep living faint and unnaturally today, let's keep to yesterday's pace,
So I won't forget your warmth...
If I'm wishing for a dream that can't come true, then I may as well embrace the hurt past,
And have a dream I won't wake up from. As if naturally, I secluded myself...
"So you can't even see tomorrow, then?"
I'm perfectly fine with that...
I stain my hands to kill off the boring days, because I chose to be "alone"...
A rotten, 18-year-old youth was praying another day
Still clinging tight onto your colorful smile...
To the blazing sun I muttered, "Just take me with you, somehow";
And my breath quietly stopped...
The voice of "Can you hear me?" vanished,
And I somehow understood the reason
I reached out to the summer warmth...
Under the blazing sun, a boy had wished to stand in the "then"
And your summery smile still remained unchanging...
"I'm sorry I died" you say;
"Shall we say our 'goodbyes'?", you say;
Don't say such lonely things, don't leave me
The silhouettes were watching, this kind of "me"...
Japanese数年経っても影は消えない 感情ばかりが募って行く
踞って一人描いていた
炎天直下 坂道の上 滲んだ僕らが歩いていた
夏の温度が目に残っていた
「構わないでよ、」「何処かへ行ってくれ」君の手を払った
「行かないよ」なんて言って君は僕の手を掴んだ
「五月蠅いな」僕はちょっとの先を振り返ずに歩いた
『本当の心は?』
「聡明」なんかじゃ前は向けない 理由が無いから腐って行く
巻き戻ってくれれば良いのにな
何年経っても僕は死なない 希望論ばかりを唱えている
当然今日も君は居ないのにさ
「構わない、死ねよ、死ねよ」って手首を握って、ただ呪って
何も出来ないでただ、のうのうと人生を貪った
「夏が夢を見せるのなら、君を連れ去る前へ」なんて
照れ隠しした日々が 空気を照らして脳裏を焦がしていく
18歳になった少年 また何処かで待っていたんだ
カゲボウシ滲む姿を思い出して
炎天下に澄んだ校庭 笑っていた君が今日も
「遊ぼうよ」って言ってユラユラ揺れた
「心配です」と不器用な顔 隣人なんかには解んないさ
悲しそうなフリをしないでくれ
朦朧、今日も不自然でいよう 昨日のペースを守っていよう
君の温度を忘れない様に
叶わない夢を願うのならいっそ掠れた過去を抱いて
覚めない夢を見よう 当然の様に閉じ篭って
「それじゃあ、明日も見えないままですよ?」
それならそれで良いさ
つまらない日々を殺す様に手を染め、『一人』を選ぶから
18歳、腐った少年 また今日も祈ってたんだ
色めいた君の笑顔にしがみついて
炎天下に「どうかいっそ連れてってくれよ」なんて
呟いて息を静かに止めた
「聞こえていますか」と声が消えた
理由もなんだか解っていた
夏の温度に手を伸ばしていた
炎天下、願った少年 「あの頃」に立っていたんだ
夏めく君の笑顔は変わらなくて
「死んじゃった。ごめんね」なんて
「『サヨウナラ』しようか」なんて
寂しいこと言わないで 往かないで
カゲボウシがそんな僕を見つめていたんだ
Japanese (Romaji)suunen tatte mo kage wa kienai kanjou bakari ga tsunotte iku
uzukumatte hitori egaite ita
enten chokka sakamichi no ue nijinda bokura ga aruite ita
natsu no ondo ga me ni nokotte ita
"kamawanaide yo," "dokoka e itte kure" kimi no te o haratta
"ikanai yo" nante itte kimi wa boku no te o tsukanda
"urusai na" boku wa chotto no saki o furikaezu ni aruita
"hontou no kokoro wa?"
"soumei" nanka ja mae wa mukenai riyuu ga nai kara kusatte iku
makimodotte kurereba ii no ni na
nannen tatte mo boku wa shinanai kibouron bakari o tonaete iru
touzen kyou mo kimi wa inai no ni sa
"kamawanai, shine yo, shine yo" tte tekubi o nigitte, tada norotte
nani mo dekinai de tada, nounou to jinsei o musabotta
"natsu ga yume o miseru no nara, kimi o tsuresaru mae e" nante
terekakushi shita hibi ga kuuki o terashite nouri o kogashite iku
juuhassai ni natta shounen mata dokoka de matte ita nda
kageboushi nijimu sugata o omoidashite
entenka ni sunda koutei waratte ita kimi ga kyou mo
"asobou yo" tte itte yurayura yureta
"shinpai desu" to bukiyou na kao rinjin nanka ni wa wakannai sa
kanashisou na furi o shinaide kure
mourou, kyou mo fushizen de iyou kinou no peesu o mamotte iyou
kimi no ondo o wasurenai you ni
kanawanai yume o negau no nara isso kasureta kako o daite
samenai yume o miyou touzen no you ni tojikomotte
"sore jaa, asu mo mienai mama desu yo?"
sore nara sore de ii sa
tsumaranai hibi o korosu you ni te o some, "hitori" o erabu kara
juuhassai, kusatta shounen mata kyou mo inotteta nda
iromeita kimi no egao ni shigamitsuite
entenka ni "douka isso tsuretette kure yo" nante
tsubuyaite iki o shizuka ni tometa
"kikoete imasu ka" to koe ga kieta
riyuu mo nandaka wakatte ita
natsu no ondo ni te o nobashite ita
entenka, negatta shounen "ano koro" ni tatte ita nda
natsumeku kimi no egao wa kawaranakute
"shinjatta. gomen ne" nante
"'sayonara' shiyou ka" nante
sabishii koto iwanaide ikanaide
kageboushi ga sonna boku o mitsumete ita nda
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