Just woke up from a nightmare about her... of her completely ignoring me or anything i had to say. Her trying to pretend I didn't exist, even when I was standing right in front of her, trying to get her attention. Watching her being completely fine with talking to other friends, but not to me.
The thing is, this is exactly how she acted towards me throughout the last few weeks of school. Yeah, I know I confessed to her and she didn't like me back, but I never intended for it to end like this. We were close friends, and she sorta just... cut me off. No explanation or anything.
I still remember getting anonymous "questions" on ask.fm from one of her close friends after the school year ended (it was obvious who it was, based off of what the anon knew) berating me for thinking i even had a chance with her, stating that she didn't even like me as a friend and speculated on why she felt that way (I ended up deleting the dozens of answers because the topic only brought negativity to my page). Confronting her about the questions in frustration (not something I should've done) only led to her blocking me on Facebook without any response.
I still have no idea what happened to our friendship and why she suddenly just threw it away, or even how or why she felt the way she did in the end... But as much as it hurts, there's really nothing I can do at this point but move on. It's already been too long since then, so I don't know why I'm still dwelling in the past.