I kinda regret a lot of things. Not doing well in class, keeping feelings bottled up inside me, hell, even participating in CWC2016 counts, now that I think about it.
Touching on that last one for a bit, after that happened (and I basically got hated by half of Peru while I was at it), I just stopped playing osu! for a while to get myself underground. I kinda regret that too, since I could have definitely advanced more and actually become someone notable. I could have also noticed faster that I basically need Hidden if my potato computer wants to run osu! properly. Seriously.
Perhpas my biggest regret, though, has to be doing nothing while my life led me further into a dark path. I've started to change, but, the more I see the damage that I already did to myself, the more hopeless I become, as if all of that was now irreversible.
Other things I regret not doing sooner are writing, starting to draw and keeping at it no matter what, and perhaps socializing in the real world. I mostly stay inside because I literally have no business outside, apart from college. I'd like to change it, but eh. Where I am it really feels like nothing is ever taken seriously.
Sometimes I wish I could at least go back to the US again.
Right now I would say that I have two big contenders. One being that my little brother passed away last year in a car accident at the age of 13 and I did not put in the effort I should have to be a better brother to him. The second being estrangement from an old friend that it seems I cant repair, ultimately due to my lack of maturity in handling my problems. I think about both daily but I try my best to be optimistic! ʕ•ᴥ•ʔ
I had a friend once, she was an extrovert and I was an introvert, she puzzled me with why she wanted me to be her friend, She walked up to me one day and titled me with "Best Friend". I was drug around by her for the last month of school or so... She constantly wouldn't let me out of her sight. She moved away afterwards, During the time we were together I always looked sort of uncomfortable when I was drug around and so people thought I was unhappy with how me and the girl's friendship was.
We stayed connected but not too well (being an introvert and all). Pretty close to a year after we were together at prom (as frens) and she provided me some time to wander around (talking to my dudes y'know). During that time I would sit on a chair, and she'd get me moments later.
A week later my friend told me he tried to keep her away from me because he thought I was uncomforatable around her. I was told he sent her outside for 15 minutes. I decided to ask her if this intel was true, she said no. In the message it was worded in a way that sounded like I didn't want to be around her. I decided to send a screenshot to her, so she could see why I was asking. We got into a fight about it and the guy stepped in and *sarcasm* "helped" *sarcasm* and we've been talking through faded glass ever since.
I regret sending that message. I regret losing her company
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I like pasta because it reminds me of snakes and I like eating snakes.