Rank: 172k
Highest pp: 182 (wonderful wonder, bad acc though)
I keep choking 200pp and i don't know why. Everytime i find a doable 200pp dt farm map for myself, like for example yuki no hana or wonderful wonder, i try to do it and fc most of it, get MOSTLY good accuracy on it, but then, suddenly, near the end, i feel my body shaking and my limbs being numb entirely, and my vision starts blurring. I miss one time and finish the map. That leaves me with a huge disappointing feeling, i try the map again and i can't fc anything that i did in my choke, but i fc what i choked before. That makes me even more disappointed and demotivated. I'm pretty confident in myself, i feel like i can do it, but i just can't. I feel like i'm so close to doing it, yet i just can't. I do play for fun alongside farming with nf/nfht(high 5*-mid 6*, maps that i personally enjoy) but i still want to rank up. The thing is, i'm not even nervous when i don't expect a play to be 200pp, for example my padoru akitoshi's extreme fc. So maybe, i could somehow fool myself into thinking i'm not making some important play? But how? I've tried tons of methods of nerve control and avoiding mindblock, but it just doesn't work for me when i feel like im setting an important play. I literally choked 200pp maybe 5-6 times already and i don't feel motivated to do it anymore, cause i know i'll just choke it. Infact, i've choked it right now on yuki no hana dt. Feels like i've hit a wall. And i feel like i NEED the 200pp play, because high 100pp plays don't even give me anything anymore. Maybe i should take a break.
Tl;dr: i keep choking 200pp and i feel like i can do it yet i just can't
Highest pp: 182 (wonderful wonder, bad acc though)
I keep choking 200pp and i don't know why. Everytime i find a doable 200pp dt farm map for myself, like for example yuki no hana or wonderful wonder, i try to do it and fc most of it, get MOSTLY good accuracy on it, but then, suddenly, near the end, i feel my body shaking and my limbs being numb entirely, and my vision starts blurring. I miss one time and finish the map. That leaves me with a huge disappointing feeling, i try the map again and i can't fc anything that i did in my choke, but i fc what i choked before. That makes me even more disappointed and demotivated. I'm pretty confident in myself, i feel like i can do it, but i just can't. I feel like i'm so close to doing it, yet i just can't. I do play for fun alongside farming with nf/nfht(high 5*-mid 6*, maps that i personally enjoy) but i still want to rank up. The thing is, i'm not even nervous when i don't expect a play to be 200pp, for example my padoru akitoshi's extreme fc. So maybe, i could somehow fool myself into thinking i'm not making some important play? But how? I've tried tons of methods of nerve control and avoiding mindblock, but it just doesn't work for me when i feel like im setting an important play. I literally choked 200pp maybe 5-6 times already and i don't feel motivated to do it anymore, cause i know i'll just choke it. Infact, i've choked it right now on yuki no hana dt. Feels like i've hit a wall. And i feel like i NEED the 200pp play, because high 100pp plays don't even give me anything anymore. Maybe i should take a break.
Tl;dr: i keep choking 200pp and i feel like i can do it yet i just can't
