nobody has ever said anything bad about you to me.Vext wrote:
Someone messaged me yesterday and asked me why I keep coming here if it is not to play the game or anything.
So I thought for a minute and well, tbh I have no answer for it. I realized I have no reason to come to osu! really. I don't actually really play, nor do I really get on to actually do anything. A while back I left for a few months, it was not by choice but alas I had no real desire to come back. Why did I? Well, everyone thinks it was because I missed it or because a lot of people wanted me to... But actually, that's not true. The real reason is actually for one person. It was a person I was not able to talk to, nor would be able to for probably years. I thought to myself "What if one of us tries to get in touch down the road?" Well it cannot really be done, in time everyone will forget an email or whatever contact means without frequenting it. So I came back, would log in every so often and make say 1 post or something, to where if you looked at my recent posts it would be active consistently at least every couple of days. I did this as a sort of message, an "I'll always be here waiting if you need me." sort of thing. One day they did make contact, to my dismay essentially every word uttered by them had the intent to hurt me in some way, to this day they're on here, apparently spreading rumors and telling lies of me. Perhaps I stay as just a habit, or out of a foolish subconscious longing for this to not be true and that one day the reason I did this will come true. Either way, every fiber of my being both mental and physical would be repulsed at the very sight of them now and I would refuse to even speak with them. I probably just stay for the same reason I'm bothering to post a srs bsn tl;dr in an Off-Topic thread nobody gives two shits about unless it's funny. Honestly? I do not actually know why, just a feeling that I should or want to with no explanation.
tl;dr: I hate myself and I want to die / Cry cry emo tears / I want attention / nonsensical rambling / I'm secretly 2 midgets in a trench coat.
Pick whatever one you wanna apply.