It can sounds stupid to feel insane stress on a video game unless youre playing at world championship watched by 100k viewers but i feel that same pressure while playing lonely in my room like if people would be watching me and judge everything i do and i want this to stop because it affects my gameplay very hardly :
1-because of this im very tense on my hands and on all my body while playing that cause my right wrist to be burned by mousepad, my left fingers to hit too hard my keyboard that hurts my wrist after some seconds of a map and neck pain.
2-because of this tense im not very flexible and fluid on my mouvements that make me hard to hit corners and i play on my reflexes like if i should ABSOLUTLY not miss a note that make my playstyle looks like a parkinson player
3-overall i feel pretty bad when i launch osu or a map that i have to do a better score on while it just should be pleasure but i don't know i can't tell myself that
4-even if i manage to do a new top score on maps i feel not very proud of it because it was played in stress and not very in pure pleasure
1-because of this im very tense on my hands and on all my body while playing that cause my right wrist to be burned by mousepad, my left fingers to hit too hard my keyboard that hurts my wrist after some seconds of a map and neck pain.
2-because of this tense im not very flexible and fluid on my mouvements that make me hard to hit corners and i play on my reflexes like if i should ABSOLUTLY not miss a note that make my playstyle looks like a parkinson player
3-overall i feel pretty bad when i launch osu or a map that i have to do a better score on while it just should be pleasure but i don't know i can't tell myself that
4-even if i manage to do a new top score on maps i feel not very proud of it because it was played in stress and not very in pure pleasure