booleanXelasto wrote:
Boo
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DDDD
E60 post
what might you imagine i meant in order for this to apply the way you intend it to...? what does my experience appear to be, in your perspective?
or maybe i should be asking your meaning instead-- what are your thoughts on this, beyond the quote itself? what do you intend me to do with it?
in fairness, i've been a little bit purposefully vague, so there would be a particular cause/subject through which my spiralling thoughts would apply, but i am not really sure if i would willingly describe that directly and non-evasively
though of course i'm speaking for someone else; i don't know their interpretations even if i'm able to connect some strings here
You sounded rather down so I wanted to give you an uplifting quote, that's all hehe. Nothing you have to do with it, of course :3
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falsettoXelasto wrote:
False
given enough resolution for selfhood and any subsequent care for health in turn, i would willfully warp reality with many dazzling designs for my dazed and deluded kin
oops, seeping with shame, deficiencies and disrepair
oops, seeping with shame, deficiencies and disrepair
Bird
i cant seem to pick a persona or approach to anything
poorly distorted and weak echoes of other things with very little consistent substance unless im alone with myself monologuing to myself, and even then i still dont have the clearest view
everything that stays consistent seems so shallow and indecisively restrained... is that artificial or is that natural? maybe the distinction doesn't always matter, the result is likely an uninteresting and/or trivial one regardless
giving care to people consumes lives, taking from people consumes life, and
...mmn
awful sleep hygiene, eyes heavy
poorly distorted and weak echoes of other things with very little consistent substance unless im alone with myself monologuing to myself, and even then i still dont have the clearest view
everything that stays consistent seems so shallow and indecisively restrained... is that artificial or is that natural? maybe the distinction doesn't always matter, the result is likely an uninteresting and/or trivial one regardless
giving care to people consumes lives, taking from people consumes life, and
...mmn
awful sleep hygiene, eyes heavy
because YOU HAVE NOT BEEN, PAYING ATTENTION, PAYING ATTENTION, PAYING ATTENTION
1/chroma ÷ achrom/1
OMG that's me with my studentsreffty_gag wrote:
because YOU HAVE NOT BEEN, PAYING ATTENTION, PAYING ATTENTION, PAYING ATTENTION
DDDDBaller
IS THIS THE
UKA L FROM THE....
aliens <3
UKA L FROM THE....
aliens <3
Yoink
changed pfp like they always wanted....
Wa
undergoing a horrorshow in my head and the host is a cinematic abstraction of its narrative (as opposed to something like a tangible character design)
my capacity for anything beyond my daydreams has cratered
...
im not clearheaded enough to describe what i wanted to communicate, but i dont understand (or i dont remember) the full extent of what "communication" is doing or what its for or what gave my expression of this so much faith/credit that i would ever type it out for public display when it presumably makes me more vulnerable than is worthwhile for little to no lasting "reward" that i could imagine being motivated toward
or maybe im deriving comfort from an assumption in something seen/transmitted during expression
art and music fails me all too often, or rather, i fail it. so words are the best i have apart from an empty imagination
and the words i have are
very evasive
i dont want to be this kind of animal anymore (i dont know if that remotely means what im using it for)
inevitable continuity
tautological immutability
my capacity for anything beyond my daydreams has cratered
...
im not clearheaded enough to describe what i wanted to communicate, but i dont understand (or i dont remember) the full extent of what "communication" is doing or what its for or what gave my expression of this so much faith/credit that i would ever type it out for public display when it presumably makes me more vulnerable than is worthwhile for little to no lasting "reward" that i could imagine being motivated toward
or maybe im deriving comfort from an assumption in something seen/transmitted during expression
art and music fails me all too often, or rather, i fail it. so words are the best i have apart from an empty imagination
and the words i have are
very evasive
i dont want to be this kind of animal anymore (i dont know if that remotely means what im using it for)
inevitable continuity
tautological immutability
E60 post
If φ = (1 + √5)/2, then f(x) = φ^-(1/φ)x^φ for x > 0 is a function that satisfies f'(x) = f^-1(x). I wonder if there are other such functions...
Got nothing to write 😔
Fuck I tried to just slip a comment by here. Thread was almost dead 
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dread dread dread dread dread
everything about this is so gross and stupid and hilariously embarrassingly disturbingly lame
i dont want to live with this continuity of who i am and the various physical-psychological-experiential characteristics that define me but there is nothing else and i am nobody else
horribly childish of me to resist and even comment on it with any sense of gravity or sorrow or fear, for something so trivial and "normal"
...
why must i live this person's life out in this context in this world, why with these people and these cultural imprints and these positions in the midst of social politics
why is it so impossibly stupidly hard to get over that, to get over myself, to move on...? why does every alternative seem so inaccessible or insincere or agonizingly unpalatable
everything about this is so gross and stupid and hilariously embarrassingly disturbingly lame
i dont want to live with this continuity of who i am and the various physical-psychological-experiential characteristics that define me but there is nothing else and i am nobody else
horribly childish of me to resist and even comment on it with any sense of gravity or sorrow or fear, for something so trivial and "normal"
...
why must i live this person's life out in this context in this world, why with these people and these cultural imprints and these positions in the midst of social politics
why is it so impossibly stupidly hard to get over that, to get over myself, to move on...? why does every alternative seem so inaccessible or insincere or agonizingly unpalatable
"Men were brought into existence for the sake of men that they might do one another good."
Achromalia wrote:
dread dread dread dread dread
everything about this is so gross and stupid and hilariously embarrassingly disturbingly lame
i dont want to live with this continuity of who i am and the various physical-psychological-experiential characteristics that define me but there is nothing else and i am nobody else
horribly childish of me to resist and even comment on it with any sense of gravity or sorrow or fear, for something so trivial and "normal"
...
why must i live this person's life out in this context in this world, why with these people and these cultural imprints and these positions in the midst of social politics
why is it so impossibly stupidly hard to get over that, to get over myself, to move on...? why does every alternative seem so inaccessible or insincere or agonizingly unpalatable
mmn, im not sure quite what you believe this is supposed to mean in my contexts :<Xelasto wrote:
"Men were brought into existence for the sake of men that they might do one another good."
what might you imagine i meant in order for this to apply the way you intend it to...? what does my experience appear to be, in your perspective?
or maybe i should be asking your meaning instead-- what are your thoughts on this, beyond the quote itself? what do you intend me to do with it?
in fairness, i've been a little bit purposefully vague, so there would be a particular cause/subject through which my spiralling thoughts would apply, but i am not really sure if i would willingly describe that directly and non-evasively
best guess is "though you might dislike the kind of person you are, someone else would need that kind of person"Achromalia wrote:
mmn, im not sure quite what you believe this is supposed to mean in my contexts :<Xelasto wrote:
"Men were brought into existence for the sake of men that they might do one another good."
what might you imagine i meant in order for this to apply the way you intend it to...? what does my experience appear to be, in your perspective?
or maybe i should be asking your meaning instead-- what are your thoughts on this, beyond the quote itself? what do you intend me to do with it?
in fairness, i've been a little bit purposefully vague, so there would be a particular cause/subject through which my spiralling thoughts would apply, but i am not really sure if i would willingly describe that directly and non-evasively
though of course i'm speaking for someone else; i don't know their interpretations even if i'm able to connect some strings here
I was kinda directly answering this. It sounded like you were asking "Why am I in this particular body, in this particular setting, in this exact state in life?", and I think the answer is "to do good / to be a good person / to order and improve the world around you"Achromalia wrote:
why must i live this person's life out in this context in this world, why with these people and these cultural imprints and these positions in the midst of social politics
why is it so impossibly stupidly hard to get over that, to get over myself, to move on...? why does every alternative seem so inaccessible or insincere or agonizingly unpalatable
You sounded rather down so I wanted to give you an uplifting quote, that's all hehe. Nothing you have to do with it, of course :3
huh, guess i wasn't that far-off just not in the same way though i was interpreting as a response to the whole
yeah no
hey, the
So sigma 🗿🗿🗿
balls
Ceramic (Bloon)
Bro I haven't played BTD6 in FOREVER. You played recently?
Nop, never did (but I played Bloons TD 5 and below)
I'm the wienner
i'm the hotdog
i'm the teeveeeee
I'm the "Bing Chilling"
n/a
BluePyTheDeer_ wrote:
I'm the wienner
im how what the when where
but why
but why
no, butt wine
meow
meow
thats so gross income for real, do you know how much those
sell for cell force elf ore self oars
sell for cell force elf ore self oars
Cell
game dev, you fool! you've made the assumption that people won't immediately take the selfish route in what appears to them as (or is) a low-stakes situation and produced a highly frustrating and wrongly punishing situation!
word of advice: if you're making a (multiplayer) game and intend on adding some kind of "random person is picked and others have to save them" concept, unless that game is team-based, assume that every single player with agency will take the selfish route - or that those who don't will be incredibly stupid/unaware/unskilled/in the worst position possible to help - and design it around that. which is to say, do not punish a randomly-picked player for other people's ineptitude/inability and/or inevitable selfishness, *especially* if it's likely said players won't know them (and ergo shame or other social/emotional factors may as well be irrelevant) or not understand why they'd want to take the "selfless" route in the first place
actually, trying to find the absolute worst-case scenario and building/adjusting from there is just a good idea in general
anyways... note to self: play in singleplayer until they either remove that floor or change it
word of advice: if you're making a (multiplayer) game and intend on adding some kind of "random person is picked and others have to save them" concept, unless that game is team-based, assume that every single player with agency will take the selfish route - or that those who don't will be incredibly stupid/unaware/unskilled/in the worst position possible to help - and design it around that. which is to say, do not punish a randomly-picked player for other people's ineptitude/inability and/or inevitable selfishness, *especially* if it's likely said players won't know them (and ergo shame or other social/emotional factors may as well be irrelevant) or not understand why they'd want to take the "selfless" route in the first place
actually, trying to find the absolute worst-case scenario and building/adjusting from there is just a good idea in general
anyways... note to self: play in singleplayer until they either remove that floor or change it
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