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GSG95
406 posts
Joined October 2014
GSG95
None. I have not assigned any purpose or meaning to my existence. I see no reason to live but I don't have any reason to die either.

I mean I have goals and plans set. But no "reason" to be.

Closest thing to a motivator right is DOOM: Eternal lol.

Sq
Meah
733 posts
Joined November 2014
Meah
Just the same as other humans

Do you like Hikaru Utada?
Carmlillball
129 posts
Joined April 2018
Carmlillball
Who?

Sq
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
Beatmap Nominator
936 posts
Joined April 2016
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
Literally dk. Who?

Sq
GSG95
406 posts
Joined October 2014
GSG95
Literally who?

How do you treat retail workers?
Nate Bait
156 posts
Joined April 2017
Nate Bait
As socially awkward nicely as possible as i can.

Same question
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Beatmap Nominator
936 posts
Joined April 2016
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
Like other stranger I see outside...

Avoiding everyone

Tho if they talk to me, I’ll talk back


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samX500
54 posts
Joined January 2018
samX500
I barely ever shop so I never see any.

Do you believe you are free?
Carmlillball
129 posts
Joined April 2018
Carmlillball
Not really.

I'm pretty much stuck in my house all the time, except to go outside in the back garden.
Also, everything is extremely controlled by my mum, including dinner. I'm not trusted to make my own dinner and I'm almost 16! No reason for this, either. I used to at least be trusted to use a microwave. Some times I am allowed to have dinners which I would like, but this is extremely risky. Often, I'm forced to have both the food I wanted, and a take out she wants me to eat.

When there is freedom, such as when I was at school, I can be very limited by my anxiety. Communication is very scary for me in real life although I'm trying to work on it. I blame part on it on being such a sheltered kid.

My mum means well, but she's very.. Controlling.

However, I still have freedom through creating art and stories, as well as browsing the internet, and I'm thankful for this.

I also receive help from a 'friend' (of a strange definition at that, though I like her). She helps me to get independence and break away from my mum's chains a little. I love the 2 hours a week I get with her, even though I'm quiet and awkward throughout the time. Being able to talk about serious issues with someone and having them clearly thinking rationally is a huge relief.
I feel free when hanging out with her. I love spending time with her.

Sq
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45Traeath
388 posts
Joined February 2016
45Traeath
Murphy's Law requires me to answer "No".
(Even seriously, I'll have to say "No", just by looking around me.)


What's with bullying?
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
Beatmap Nominator
936 posts
Joined April 2016
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
Idk, let me ask wikipedia

Bullying is the use of coercion, force, or threat, to abuse, aggressively dominate or intimidate. The behavior is often repeated and habitual. One essential prerequisite is the perception (by the bully or by others) of an imbalance of physical or social power. This imbalance distinguishes bullying from conflict.[1] There is no universal definition of bullying. It is widely agreed upon that bullying is a subcategory of aggressive behavior characterized by the following three minimum criteria: (1) hostile intent, (2) imbalance of power, and (3) repetition over a period of time.[2] Bullying may thus be defined as the activity of repeated, aggressive behavior intended to hurt another individual, physically, mentally, or emotionally.

Bullying ranges from one-on-one, individual bullying through to group bullying called mobbing, in which the bully may have one or more "lieutenants" who may seem to be willing to assist the primary bully in their bullying activities. Bullying in school and the workplace is also referred to as "peer abuse".[3] Robert W. Fuller has analyzed bullying in the context of rankism.The Norwegian researcher Dan Olweus[4] says bullying occurs when a person is "exposed, repeatedly and over time, to negative actions on the part of one or more other persons". He says negative actions occur "when a person intentionally inflicts injury or discomfort upon another person, through physical contact, through words or in other ways."[4] Individual bullying is usually characterized by a person behaving in a certain way to gain power over another person.[5]


On a srs note, bullying is one way for people to display their insecurities so it is pretty dumb in the most part, especially when most of the bullies don’t know that they are doing that

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Carmlillball
129 posts
Joined April 2018
Carmlillball
Some people enjoy to hurt others. Personally not my cup of tea.

Sq
Nate Bait
156 posts
Joined April 2017
Nate Bait
Some like to pick on others because they don't want to pick on themselves. Others just do it for no reason, just to troll and have something to talk about. I guess that's my perspective.

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captainmilk
105 posts
Joined April 2015
captainmilk
Uh, what about it? I think in theory, it's just "hurt people, hurt people", not justified, but that's what it is

What is one thing you did this year that you wish you could erase/change?
Husa
176 posts
Joined April 2016
Husa
my grades /o\

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Nate Bait
156 posts
Joined April 2017
Nate Bait
My anxiety late essay at the end of school

SQ
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
Beatmap Nominator
936 posts
Joined April 2016
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Husa wrote:

my grades /o\

sq

Carmlillball
129 posts
Joined April 2018
Carmlillball
Almost everything.

Sq
Meah
733 posts
Joined November 2014
Meah
Mistakes

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captainmilk
105 posts
Joined April 2015
captainmilk
uhh grades maybe

Do you like your country? If not state why
samX500
54 posts
Joined January 2018
samX500
I do.

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Carmlillball
129 posts
Joined April 2018
Carmlillball
I'm neutral. Not a fan of the political side, but there's quite a lot of nature (in my area), which I enjoy.

Sq
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Beatmap Nominator
936 posts
Joined April 2016
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Carmlillball wrote:

I'm neutral. Not a fan of the political side, but there's quite a lot of sights and food (in my area), which I enjoy.

Sq

pentaqola
43 posts
Joined May 2018
pentaqola
i don't like it... it is a hellhole to me and i sometimes wish i could get out...

the environment is complete utter shit... people can be extremely horrible, you should be terrified if you made someone jealous since they would even KILL YOU to fill their fucking ego. this is sometimes why they can be nosy af, trying to know your crush and shit like that, its because they want to ruin your life and make you feel like shit. if you were to meet someone reliable, congrats!
pollution is a huge problem, there is garbage, air, noise, water, and even FUCKING TOXIC PEOPLE pollution. it is irritating me to the core. it is one of the reasons why you should NEVER live in the city, those places are literal dumpsters.
transportation... also bad. you are in bad luck if you are kinda tall, i'm 167cm and i sometimes bang my head on the roof on tricycles or even jeepneys. speaking of tricycles and jeepneys... they can easily scare claustrophobic people because you are gonna get crammed up in those. If you go in a bus, expect vomiting, considered i easily got nauseous before in those buses.
politics, i wouldn't talk about that because uh... they can be extremely sensitive... but yeag lies everywhere haha...
school (since i go to school haha...) is shit as well, heck the system is rather crap considering there are people in highschool that can't read, write, or even do basic maths. bullying problem is high, very high. i even got bullied for doing normal shit, the students even try to manipulate me in the shittiest ways that can drain a person mentally if they are weak, they would say you are greedy if you don't give them something they want, even if its just for hygiene and there is a FUCKING SINK FOR A FUCKING REASON!

i would rant way more about this but i think i should probably try to lighten up this thing a bit... plus what i might be doing makes me a scummy person (yes... you are a scum if you insult this country, even if you just dislike this country, you are scum... instantly...)

what i like? just the overall feel of being in a rural area, it is the only calming place in this hellhole i am living in...

overall, if you are planning on visiting philippines, or even living in the philippines, please consider that you are probably gonna go through a fucking nightmare. unless you are lucky af and have not experienced this horrible shit.

hopefully i am not in trouble for this... i am honestly worried that expressing this puts me in danger...


how do you cope with lonliness?
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
Beatmap Nominator
936 posts
Joined April 2016
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
I have been feeling lonely quite a lot in the past 2 years and whenever I do, I either play osu or any multiplayer game, listen to music, or read mangas

Sq
Tad Fibonacci
112 posts
Joined August 2015
Tad Fibonacci
I enjoy being alone. I don't need to cope with it.


Same question.
samX500
54 posts
Joined January 2018
samX500

Tad Fibonacci wrote:

I enjoy being alone. I don't need to cope with it.


Same question.
Achromalia
347 posts
Joined November 2016
Achromalia
fuck i haven't been here in a long while, uhhhhh

hmm.

loneliness isn't really a big issue for me.

...well, it'd be slightly dishonest to say that it's not at least a bit of an issue. though i really prefer to be alone, sometimes it'd be nice to have someone to talk to and share my life with. someone who understands and listens, and engages with me in my messy thought process.

but normally, i'm alright with that. i'm probably not going to find anyone that i can do that with in person. it's pretty hard to find people that can genuinely engage with me in the first place.

a lot of the time, the only people that take me seriously and can engage in a real conversation would be adults, because they're mature enough and knowledgeable enough to have some say in the matter, and they've likely become more perceptive of different ideas.

anyways, yeah. i'm not sure if i necessarily need to cope, that's never really been a huge thing.

- - -

what the hell should i be doing at this point? i'm kind of lost and unsure where to start, and i'd like to get something going career-wise, but i've yet to monetize anything with my music and art our of the lack of confidence in my work. i dunno where to go from here. would appreciate any kind of advice.
captainmilk
105 posts
Joined April 2015
captainmilk
Same as Sam, I enjoy loneliness and I prefer it that way. Sometimes, no rarely, I do feel a bit lonely. Like I wish I had someone important to me that always kept me company like I used to before. Usually just uh crying sometimes no much, or just thinking about what it's like to have friends.

same
Achromalia
347 posts
Joined November 2016
Achromalia
...you didn't... answer the question...

uhh

did you miss it or something? i asked a completely different question.

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Achromalia wrote:

what the hell should i be doing at this point? i'm kind of lost and unsure where to start, and i'd like to get something going career-wise, but i've yet to monetize anything with my music and art our of the lack of confidence in my work. i dunno where to go from here. would appreciate any kind of advice.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
Beatmap Nominator
936 posts
Joined April 2016
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
Tbh, idk what to tell you since I have little to no understanding about the situation you’re in rn. What I’ve already known are this statement your soundcloud channel which I have listened to several times alr. Your stuff, at least in the music industry, is pretty decent (especially your night mix one, which is something I would actually buy and put it into my playlist). If you want to make a career out of this, I would recommend you trying to get recognitions from others. There are many of ways to do it, such as making a beatmap out of your song and go for ranking, going on twitch and request them to play your song (for example, go to a twitch streamer like the8bitdrummer who play drum over music and request him to play your song), etc. The progress can be tedious but the rewards could be really good. Don’t know about your art tho, since the only artpiece I have ever seen from you is your avatar, so I can’t give you much advise, but always start out with getting attention. I understand how you think that your work isn’t good enough since I have been through it already. I liked mapping in mania a lot and I have always wanted my maps to be played by other players, but I was always scared of them saying that my map is bad, therefore I’m scared to even ask other people to testplay my map. Though after talking to one of my osu friend and he said to me that I must go through that process anyway to become better at mapping and that, as cliché as it may have sounded, if you put effort into it, it would never be bad at all. (I kinda ramble a lot so some point may feels dumb or sth, so forgive me on that)

Edit: almost forgot that this is an “ask the person below” page so ye, that. But if u want to give achro advise, feel free to skip this

What’s your favorite food?
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samX500
54 posts
Joined January 2018
samX500
I honestly don't really have a favorite food, I usually prefer spicey food and dislike sweeter food is all that comes to my mind.

Do you believe the future is bright?
captainmilk
105 posts
Joined April 2015
captainmilk
I don't think so, for the mean time, yes, but fast forward to maybe September and everything will crumble. Past that, I don't know, I'll just have to wait and see

same
Achromalia
347 posts
Joined November 2016
Achromalia
The future's neither bright nor dark. It's rather uncertain, and rather complicated.

I mean, that's kind of how life is. I can't necessarily predict how things'll go, but

to answer, I think I might be able to rebound somehow if i do what i've planned to within the next few years.

- - -

sq.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
Beatmap Nominator
936 posts
Joined April 2016
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
I never think my future like that. By thinking like that, it is like I am relying on sth that I’m not even certain of and I’d like to control it as much as possible, since like achro have said, our futures are uncertain and anything could happen

Describe your summer in 3 words
captainmilk
105 posts
Joined April 2015
captainmilk
um
six flags when?

same
samX500
54 posts
Joined January 2018
samX500
work, code, anime
Serraionga
11,487 posts
Joined November 2014
Serraionga
i'm going to assume it's the same question lol
Sleep, eat and videogames!

If you found someone's wallet full of stuff (money, etc.) on the street, would you take it to the police station, or keep whatever is inside it?
samX500
54 posts
Joined January 2018
samX500
I would just leave it there. I wouldn't bother to go out of my way to get it to the police but I don't want to steal it.

SQ
Achromalia
347 posts
Joined November 2016
Achromalia
highly depends. does the wallet have ID and an address? i'll try to have it returned.

if there's just a wallet on the ground with literally nothing but some amount of cash, i'll leave it there.

i have a slightly different policy when i find coins on the floor at the store.

i return whatever money i see dropped from someone if i observed it myself, but if it's just there, and i don't know who the hell dropped it, i'll take it for myself.

- - -

SQ.
Serraionga
11,487 posts
Joined November 2014
Serraionga
Hand it in to the nearest authority. I don’t really have the time to be finding the owner and I’m sure someone somewhere would be missing it. i did lose a wallet a few months ago, it wasn't pretty :{

Do you like to plan things out or be spontaneous?
Tad Fibonacci
112 posts
Joined August 2015
Tad Fibonacci
I always plan things out in advance first before doing anything. Until something unavoidable and unpredictable happens just to fuck up everything I've planned out at least.

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Same question.
samX500
54 posts
Joined January 2018
samX500
I want to plan things out but always end up doing things spontaneously.

SQ
Carmlillball
129 posts
Joined April 2018
Carmlillball

samX500 wrote:

I want to plan things out but always end up doing things spontaneously.

SQ

captainmilk
105 posts
Joined April 2015
captainmilk
Both, but more on the side of playing things out

What weather do you enjoy the most, and why?
samX500
54 posts
Joined January 2018
samX500
Slightly cold with no wind. It's just a very comfortable tempature to be in.

SQ
Nate Bait
156 posts
Joined April 2017
Nate Bait

pentaqola wrote:

overall, if you are planning on visiting philippines, or even living in the philippines, please consider that you are probably gonna go through a fucking nightmare. unless you are lucky af and have not experienced this horrible shit.


How'd you describe my family reunion so well with the first part of the first paragraph? (seriously tho, me and my family recently had a trip to the philippines to handle some family drama and shit, and let's just say it literally made my anxiety worse. christ, i can't describe how bad the shit my family is going through.)

- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -

Same with sam, i like the mild cold. It feels nice too when you go to bed and the sheets feel softer than normal.

What's your favourite month?

(EDIT: spoiler box made a normal box instead, wanted to keep this post kid friendly as it contains vulgar words)
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AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
Beatmap Nominator
936 posts
Joined April 2016
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
December I guess. I like cold weather, and December has a lot of fun event too

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Cahyono29
57 posts
Joined January 2017
Cahyono29
i don't really have any favourite month,since all month feel same for me

love or money?
Tad Fibonacci
112 posts
Joined August 2015
Tad Fibonacci
Money.


Same question.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
Beatmap Nominator
936 posts
Joined April 2016
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
Depend on how much money you’re offering :p

🐟 or 🐙
45Traeath
388 posts
Joined February 2016
45Traeath
100% answer B.
Fish bones are so dangerous...
(I can eat them, but it just takes me more time because of me being so cautious.)


Milk or cheese?
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
Beatmap Nominator
936 posts
Joined April 2016
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
🧀. I hardly ever drink milk

🌭 or 🍔
Tad Fibonacci
112 posts
Joined August 2015
Tad Fibonacci
Hamburger for the win.

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“What, if some day or night a demon were to steal after you into your loneliest loneliness and say to you: 'This life as you now live it and have lived it, you will have to live once more and innumerable times more' ... Would you not throw yourself down and gnash your teeth and curse the demon who spoke thus? Or have you once experienced a tremendous moment when you would have answered him: 'You are a god and never have I heard anything more divine.”
samX500
54 posts
Joined January 2018
samX500
I don't really get the question but from what I can get of it I suppose it would be number 2. From my understanding of religion a demon is just an evil god and in this situation that evil god is claiming that you will resurect which no matter how you look at it is something divine. Plus option 1 is pretty unlikely, I am not the kind to curse people when I hear bad news.

SQ
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
Beatmap Nominator
936 posts
Joined April 2016
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
Ok so I’m not the only who have problem understanding the question. Anyway, if the questiom is what it is, then probably 1 since me reliving a lonely life for eternity would already be reality, and the 2 options are basically either admire or despite the demon who did this to you so I think it is more realistic to go with 1

What do you hate about osu the most?
Serraionga
11,487 posts
Joined November 2014
Serraionga
The beatmap ranking system! or the procedure, rather

Same question!
samX500
54 posts
Joined January 2018
samX500
I guess it would be the competitivness of the game. I used to look at gameplay and ranking quite often but I really got sick of the competitive side of osu!, that part of the community seems quite toxic to me.

SQ
45Traeath
388 posts
Joined February 2016
45Traeath
Players who manage to get into Maps' "Top 50" with awful performances.
Not the "Try hard" ones, but the real ones scoring something bad in the middle of two honest plays.


One thing you thought it will be bad, but when you experienced/saw/listened/... it, it was at least slightly better than you thought.
Nate Bait
156 posts
Joined April 2017
Nate Bait
The flu shot. I remember being horribly terrified of those xD. Nowadays I'm able to handle them with a slight squint.

SQ
vinnicci
318 posts
Joined December 2015
vinnicci
10(or 14?) meter platform water dive

sq
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
Beatmap Nominator
936 posts
Joined April 2016
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
Traveling by plane alone

Sq
Serraionga
11,487 posts
Joined November 2014
Serraionga
Going to a waterpark!

What was your first job?
samX500
54 posts
Joined January 2018
samX500
I am not sure that counts but my mother knew a guy who ran a small restaurant inside of his bus (not sure how those things are called in english). So she recomanded me to him and I worked for him under the table trough one summer. All I had to do was come to his storage and wash a bunch of plastic buckets he used to store his potatoes, it usually took around an hour to clean all of them.

SQ
Birdy
5,757 posts
Joined April 2011
Birdy
i worked at the presidential office of finland, media assistant, 2016-2018.

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Achromalia
347 posts
Joined November 2016
Achromalia
i happen to have just gotten my first job about a week ago, with multiple roles for a really small-scale game development company. we're working on a game engine and have been testing it by creating a story of our own. i've wound up working primarily as the composer (+ sfx), and the pixel/2D artist (+ gfx corrections). naturally, as the game's in heavy development, i'm also an alpha tester and bug reporter.

- - -

what's the most important aspect of a game to you?
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
Beatmap Nominator
936 posts
Joined April 2016
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
How fun it is. As a wise man have said "If it's not fun, why bother?"

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Birdy
5,757 posts
Joined April 2011
Birdy
controls - if i need to blame the controls for losing/dying a lot, the game sucks. i'm also picky with visuals.

sq
Achromalia
347 posts
Joined November 2016
Achromalia
nngh, it's going to have to be a tie between story and visuals. i can stand through a generally not-so-fun control scheme with the idea that i'm going through a pretty lovely and immersive game. storytelling's kind of just what makes certain games shine, and the visuals pull you in and help to establish an aesthetic or mood to really bring out the game's settings and plotlines, as well as even characters. in games where storylines aren't a factor, it's up to the game concept itself. diagonal tetris? hell yeah. traversing a set of galaxies w/ colonies, spaceship combat 'n' whatnot? ...sounds cool, but it's not really the kind of thing i'd easily get into. i've looked over it fairly often, even despite some nice cover art for the games i've seen under that general idea.

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favorite traditional instrument in music?
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
Beatmap Nominator
936 posts
Joined April 2016
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
It's a tie between saxophone and piano. Saxophone sounds so dreadful and at the same time so energetic. Piano is just good

favorite game genre?
Tad Fibonacci
112 posts
Joined August 2015
Tad Fibonacci
Most of my favorite games are RPGs so I'll go with that.


Least favorite video game genre(s)?
Carmlillball
129 posts
Joined April 2018
Carmlillball
Shooter games, can't stand them!
I'm a wimp!

Sq
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
Beatmap Nominator
936 posts
Joined April 2016
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
FPS game. Never find them interesting tbh

Sq
vinnicci
318 posts
Joined December 2015
vinnicci
JRPG

sq
45Traeath
388 posts
Joined February 2016
45Traeath
As in "I don't get it (psychological)", it would be something around "survival horror".
Although that's just because I didn't look into the context and labeled some games with this tag.
If there's a proper story behind all the blood there is to see, why not.
But for the moment, I just don't get the thing behind "The Walking Dead", "Dead by Daylight", and some other ones I just forgot the names while writing this.

As in "I don't get it (how it works/controls)", it would be "team sports" like "FIFA" and "PES".
And that's just because I never got proper TV consoles and games (I don't know how to call them), only hand-held ones.


Do the transports (underground/subway, bus, and other road vehicles) around your home/country often get slow?
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
Beatmap Nominator
936 posts
Joined April 2016
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH


Maybe

Also we don’t even have subway

Sq
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samX500
54 posts
Joined January 2018
samX500
I live in Quebec which is very small compared to other large city so our public transport are pretty reliable. Some people complains about them but I don't know where they are coming from since I've used them to travel withing the city for around 7 years and I rarely had issue with it.

SQ
Birdy
5,757 posts
Joined April 2011
Birdy
If it's a popular route during the rush hour, for sure. Other than that, not really.

What is your favourite painting and why? Tell me more than just the name.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
Beatmap Nominator
936 posts
Joined April 2016
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
Tbh, I don’t really care about painting but if I have to say, then probably (I have to search up the name lmao) the persistence of memory. Remembered my teacher gave it to me during my English class and it look reminiscent and kinda nostalgic for some reason

Favorite childhood game
Tad Fibonacci
112 posts
Joined August 2015
Tad Fibonacci
Command & Conquer: Red Alert 2

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Same question.
samX500
54 posts
Joined January 2018
samX500
Super mario world

SQ
Tateshina Eve
373 posts
Joined September 2017
Tateshina Eve
Vaguely remember picking up Pokémon Ruby on a GBA-SP as a really young kid. Maybe 2 or 3 years old. Never got to handle a handheld console for another 8 years until I got a 3DS-XL. Nowadays I rarely use it though.


How often do you use public transportation? I always use it, taking the train 12 times a week.
ERA Puzzle
56 posts
Joined August 2012
ERA Puzzle
About 10 times a week. 2 times a day. To and from work.

It's a nice 1 hour 30 minute trip one way. 3 hour sink that I just lose. I cant even draw or anything because the rides are too bumpy. It's good for the environment to commute but I cant wait to get a car, I'm tired of wasting so much time out of my day every weekday.

Do you find it easy to keep up relationships? Not romantic ones, but friendships.
Achromalia
347 posts
Joined November 2016
Achromalia
...not really.

i have a hard time spending time with everyone. there's a ton of old friends i've yet to catch up with and hardly ever talk to for months. even years.

it's time consuming, but i do enjoy it when i do get the time.

i just wished i had more time, all things considered.

- - -

how much stress and misfortune would it take for you to buckle and shut down?

the human mind can only take so much with its sanity. shit sucks.
samX500
54 posts
Joined January 2018
samX500
It is pretty hard to estimate such a thing because of how foreing the concept truly is if you haven't experienced it,even if you might think you know what you are talking about you are likely wrong. That said, I doubt it would take very much to break me, I would consider myself to be very mentally weak.

SQ
Achromalia
347 posts
Joined November 2016
Achromalia
it's a bit easier on my end, luckily. i've had enough shit to go through where i don't really find misfortune or fuck-up-ery to be all that surprising or jarring. i mostly just put up with everything however i can, see to it that i can finally create what i've envisioned, and try to make sure my family lives. that's about it, i guess.

i think, if anything, my immediate family would have to be killed off by some stupid fucked-up shit, and i'd have to be left with no means of making what i love, with no hope of getting anywhere with what i have.

at that point, i think my mind would just shut down, i'd be blank. i'd probably succumb to apathy, unfortunately.

because that's the one point i'm trying to avoid.

i need to see things through.

i can handle a death or two, and i can handle being kicked out, as long as i have some means of making art or music. i can handle not having a laptop or desktop, as long as i know i can crawl out somehow financially or have someone i can rely on.

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SQ.
Tad Fibonacci
112 posts
Joined August 2015
Tad Fibonacci
Suffering in itself is not a bad thing. Rather, there are people who deliberately seek out suffering for themselves.
Humans can overcome almost any misfortune, stress or suffering, and improve from them. Negative impacts can result in positive outcomes.

It's the thought of suffering without any purpose or meaning is what breaks people.
I'm not sure how much would it take for me to "buckle and shutdown", but if it's for the betterment of myself then I will endure. Or at least, I'd try to.
Like it or hate it, the hardships of life helps to shape the person you are today too.
Overcoming life's hardship is almost like getting to know yourself better in that sense.

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ERA Puzzle
56 posts
Joined August 2012
ERA Puzzle
I've been there. It's hard to put into words. I'd have to describe the situation and it's too personal and there was *too much* so I wont go into a lot of detail.

I was 16. I had chronic depression because of a string of awful events in my childhood. A lot of my mental and emotional state was tied to a girl I was in love with. She broke up with me. Easily the worst emotional pain I've experienced in my life. It literally felt like someone had jabbed a knife into my chest. I shut down. I have about 3 months where I dont remember anything that happened. Memories just gone. I know I was going to school because my grades didnt tank too hard. The only thing I do remember about that period of time is I rebounded to some other girl because I was young and stupid and she broke up with me too after like 1 month and I've never really been the same after that. Was too much for me.

Not to say that was the only reason it happened. To really get it youd have to understand my childhood which is way too much. Long story short, my life had been completely fucked till that point and I really felt like I needed these people for support. This was more the straw that broke the camel's back than the real kicker. I mean, it did kick pretty fucking hard. Losing someone you love is brutal. But it wasnt the main reason why I shut down.

So yeah, I dunno. A lot. It's hard to describe. But for a couple of months there I really did shut down. The few memories I have from that period of time are lying in bed and being hurt, a few memories with this other girl, her breaking up with me too, and then just nothing. I dont have any idea what happened those months, I had no friends who could tell me what I was doing, and I'm too sensitive about it to ask my family. I'm surprised I even kept going to school though I'm sure I probably skipped a few days. Or maybe I didnt, who knows? Anyway, I think it was the catalyst to me really learning how to shut off my emotions (and struggling with figuring out how to turn them back on again.)


What are some things that you have in your life right now that make you happy?
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AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
Beatmap Nominator
936 posts
Joined April 2016
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
Quite a few I guess. Friends, games, music, and mangas

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Tad Fibonacci
112 posts
Joined August 2015
Tad Fibonacci

Puzzle wrote:

I've been there. It's hard to put into words. I'd have to describe the situation and it's too personal and there was *too much* so I wont go into a lot of detail.

I was 16. I had chronic depression because of a string of awful events in my childhood. A lot of my mental and emotional state was tied to a girl I was in love with. She broke up with me. Easily the worst emotional pain I've experienced in my life. It literally felt like someone had jabbed a knife into my chest. I shut down. I have about 3 months where I dont remember anything that happened. Memories just gone. I know I was going to school because my grades didnt tank too hard. The only thing I do remember about that period of time is I rebounded to some other girl because I was young and stupid and she broke up with me too after like 1 month and I've never really been the same after that. Was too much for me.

Not to say that was the only reason it happened. To really get it youd have to understand my childhood which is way too much. Long story short, my life had been completely fucked till that point and I really felt like I needed these people for support. This was more the straw that broke the camel's back than the real kicker. I mean, it did kick pretty fucking hard. Losing someone you love is brutal. But it wasnt the main reason why I shut down.

So yeah, I dunno. A lot. It's hard to describe. But for a couple of months there I really did shut down. The few memories I have from that period of time are lying in bed and being hurt, a few memories with this other girl, her breaking up with me too, and then just nothing. I dont have any idea what happened those months, I had no friends who could tell me what I was doing, and I'm too sensitive about it to ask my family. I'm surprised I even kept going to school though I'm sure I probably skipped a few days. Or maybe I didnt, who knows? Anyway, I think it was the catalyst to me really learning how to shut off my emotions (and struggling with figuring out how to turn them back on again.)


What are some things that you have in your life right now that make you happy?
I used to be really depressed too (although arguably, I still am now) so I think I can understand how it felt.
I'm just glad that you're still fine. Keep focusing on your hobbies and your job.

Push on, Puzzle.
Don't you dare go hollow.

OT: Right now, I wouldn't say that I am unhappy but I guess you can say that I am unsatisfied with my life atm.
I am still surrounded by other people's achievements. I just want to earn something that I could proudly call mine.

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samX500
54 posts
Joined January 2018
samX500
I don't really own anything that I think makes me happy. I don't really seek out happiness in the first place, I feel like seeking out happiness is something unhealthy for you since you need to spend a lot of resources to get it and that can backfire and make you unhappy, I try to only be satisfied and only seek happiness if it is easy and safe to get. If there is one thing I could say it would be that I am very fortunate with how my life is going and I doubt I would have been able to support suffering a tragic event like I have seen many people on these forums talk about. Though that is a double-edged sword since by having a very fortunate life, I am extremely unprepared to face life and all of the event that are going to happen there.

SQ
Achromalia
347 posts
Joined November 2016
Achromalia
i have the ability of acting on my affinities for music and art, being able to create things that i envision.

i have the ability to access and experience the amazing shit people create, getting to immerse myself within entire fictional worlds.

i have people i can talk with and express myself to that can actually withstand my philosophical drivel and idiotic shenanigans.

i have a father that is... supportive enough, somewhat, that he's alright with taking some time to listen and look at the things i create.

i have a bit of hope to overcome apathy, and to ensure that my family and I can manage life safely, the hope that i can actually do this.

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what do you appreciate about what point you're in with life?
ERA Puzzle
56 posts
Joined August 2012
ERA Puzzle
A lot. I make good money (and I'm going to start training to actually do repairs on aircraft parts soon so I should end up making more) and I have a good job. That really facilitates me to be able to pursue the things I want - mainly being an artist. That makes me relatively happy, though I really need to get a freaking car. Still waiting on that.

I guess that's all, which is a lot less than I expected. But it leaves me feeling satisfied. Every single day is progress. That adds up over time. I'm slowly becoming a better artist. Saving up money. Working myself to have a nice career and hopefully soon I'll have a car which means a lot more time to chase what I want.

So, yeah. While I'm not bursting with happiness right now I'm definitely satisfied and moving forward.

SQ
pentaqola
43 posts
Joined May 2018
pentaqola
i generally appreciate my rather positive mindset for someone that has mood swings. mood swings are probably more stress related, which i am glad it isn't something more worse than that.

i also enjoy the weird personality i got for now. i don't really think anyone really wants to be the awkward person, but i somehow do. its kind of like i am accepting myself as a person... i don't know...

i just... appreciate living, because this world has so much to offer. there are a lot of interesting stuff to see... even if that means new levels of stupidity...

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Tateshina Eve
373 posts
Joined September 2017
Tateshina Eve
that I come home earlier than my parents, yeah I'm already suffering so much so I can't imagine what it would be like when I'm an adult

when was the last time you kissed someone? suddenly thought of this when I realized I haven't kissed my parents for a month now
Achromalia
347 posts
Joined November 2016
Achromalia
years ago, though i don't really recall any exact time period.

the good old days of kissing your parents goodnight as a kid.

that's about it.

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sq.
MiharuUwU
32 posts
Joined January 2013
MiharuUwU
like 2014 ...

whats ur go to snack ?
Achromalia
347 posts
Joined November 2016
Achromalia
lemon cookies, oatmeal cookies, granola bars, and ice cream. either one.

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AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
Beatmap Nominator
936 posts
Joined April 2016
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
Anything that taste good. I don’t really have a go to snack

Sq
Meah
733 posts
Joined November 2014
Meah
Pringles

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