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Gumpy

Weez wrote:

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Good job on writing a lot of text, Good luck.

I wish there was a way too read this quickly.
Birdy
I finally managed to put effort in my exams (wrote 4 to 6,5 pages in each - aside from English and Swedish, all the exams were essay-only), will see the results in 2 weeks + some days. Guess I should be stoked. New semester started on Thursday, I hope I will do just as well or even better this time, despite being rather lonely and abandoned at school, not going to let that dampen my spark, no damn way. I guess there's always the chance for making new friends, too.
Senpoii
Cut down on smoking and plan to quit for new years...
Xheriux
Osu :3
HaruryuuSan
Studying and more errands :)
Must work hard :<
Dreamgate
being lazy.
TheNekoNextDoor
A lot of you know that I'm a pretty pessimistic person, and a mad perfectionist. I let one single mistake get me down, and I beat myself up about every mistake for ages on end. Bad test results, being terrible in P.E no change there, getting something wrong... all of those things make me sad. When I look back on myself, I just think how pathetic I am.

Well, I've taken something to heart that my teacher (who I've known since middle school) said to me a while ago: "Leave your pessimistic self behind at the old school, and embrace the optimistic light of this new school!"
Although I have been failing to reach this, after having a fairly bad day, I've decided to be a bit more determined about achieving one goal. To eliminate my pessimism for GOOD. I need to stop saying I'm stupid and labelling myself like that.
CoolChris
I've set goals for myself at the gym and today (after years of wishing) i was finally able to do a muscle up. I did 2. I haven't felt this good since i don't know when, its a feeling that doesn't come around anymore. Made me happy ^_^
Eddy EX
Started Studying for test more often now :D
Raisha Millenia
studying more
Magicphoenix

Ichara wrote:

studying more

Drake_Infinite wrote:

Started Studying for test more often now :D

That's cool guys :) People say "I don't know how to do math" or "How am I supposed to understand this weird biological process with all these technical terms", but that's because they never have tried studying before.
It might not become "Dang, this is so easy I can do this while sleeping"-level-easy (Though with enough studying that is possible for sure!), but it will help A LOT more than doing nothing and agonizing/running.
Magicphoenix

CoolChris wrote:

I've set goals for myself at the gym and today (after years of wishing) i was finally able to do a muscle up. I did 2. I haven't felt this good since i don't know when, its a feeling that doesn't come around anymore. Made me happy ^_^
Every (second) day 2 muscle ups, and later this month it becomes 3 muscle ups. Then 4 and 5... by 2015 you might be able to hit 10! It's all about not giving up and appreciating the small successes like you're already doing. The feeling is amazing and it can be incredibly fun to see yourself improving.

I started out doing 10 pushups and 20 bycicle crunches every day. Few weeks later I did 15 pushups, 25 crunches => ... . Now I'm at 25 pushups and 35 crunches and it's hellofalot rewarding to see my physique looking better on top of being stronger!! :D
Just keep on going and it WILL be worth it
Raisha Millenia

Magicphoenix wrote:

Ichara wrote:

studying more

Drake_Infinite wrote:

Started Studying for test more often now :D

That's cool guys :) People say "I don't know how to do math" or "How am I supposed to understand this weird biological process with all these technical terms", but that's because they never have tried studying before.
It might not become "Dang, this is so easy I can do this while sleeping"-level-easy (Though with enough studying that is possible for sure!), but it will help A LOT more than doing nothing and agonizing/running.
yeah very true ~ :D
-sev

Ilfri-chan wrote:

Cut down on smoking and plan to quit for new years...
I wish I had your motivation to cut it as well.
Magicphoenix

TheNekoNextDoor wrote:

A lot of you know that I'm a pretty pessimistic person, and a mad perfectionist. I let one single mistake get me down, and I beat myself up about every mistake for ages on end. Bad test results, being terrible in P.E no change there, getting something wrong... all of those things make me sad. When I look back on myself, I just think how pathetic I am.

Well, I've taken something to heart that my teacher (who I've known since middle school) said to me a while ago: "Leave your pessimistic self behind at the old school, and embrace the optimistic light of this new school!"
Although I have been failing to reach this, after having a fairly bad day, I've decided to be a bit more determined about achieving one goal. To eliminate my pessimism for GOOD. I need to stop saying I'm stupid and labelling myself like that.
You know, I really love your teacher for saying that.
I tell this to you from my own experience, I, too, am a perfectionist. Everything I do has to be on point. Be it group work or sports, you can be damn sure when your whole team is trolling, I'll be that one 1,68m asian guy who still tries to turn it around on his own (the sport aspect still hasn't change, I'm a tryhard through and through). That doesn't sound so bad does it?
But when it comes to things like test or , in my case, relapsing (Masturbating even though you set yourself the goal not to) and you beat yourself up over that, it really is not gonna help!
The first and most important step is to forgive yourself. Of course in retrospect you realize all you've done wrong, how you could have done that and that better. But it's in the past, and for most things which happened in the past they remain unchangable. If you can change it - do it, if not - don't fret over it. That also applies to things where you slipped up in the past and you can't help it in the present moment.
Just remember the second most important step is that you learn from those mistakes. Maybe even write it down - "On my next test, I will score 100 points/an A/a 1. But to do that, I need to study"

For every mistake you do, forgive yourself, then change yourself so you don't repeat the same mistake. It's still like being a perfectionist - a unique characteristic that you can't change from one day to the other (surely if you genuinely want to change you can though) - but with forgiving yourself. And with those two attributes, you're really set out for life :)
TheNekoNextDoor

Magicphoenix wrote:

TheNekoNextDoor wrote:

A lot of you know that I'm a pretty pessimistic person, and a mad perfectionist. I let one single mistake get me down, and I beat myself up about every mistake for ages on end. Bad test results, being terrible in P.E no change there, getting something wrong... all of those things make me sad. When I look back on myself, I just think how pathetic I am.

Well, I've taken something to heart that my teacher (who I've known since middle school) said to me a while ago: "Leave your pessimistic self behind at the old school, and embrace the optimistic light of this new school!"
Although I have been failing to reach this, after having a fairly bad day, I've decided to be a bit more determined about achieving one goal. To eliminate my pessimism for GOOD. I need to stop saying I'm stupid and labelling myself like that.
You know, I really love your teacher for saying that.
I tell this to you from my own experience, I, too, am a perfectionist. Everything I do has to be on point. Be it group work or sports, you can be damn sure when your whole team is trolling, I'll be that one 1,68m asian guy who still tries to turn it around on his own (the sport aspect still hasn't change, I'm a tryhard through and through). That doesn't sound so bad does it?
But when it comes to things like test or , in my case, relapsing (Masturbating even though you set yourself the goal not to) and you beat yourself up over that, it really is not gonna help!
The first and most important step is to forgive yourself. Of course in retrospect you realize all you've done wrong, how you could have done that and that better. But it's in the past, and for most things which happened in the past they remain unchangable. If you can change it - do it, if not - don't fret over it. That also applies to things where you slipped up in the past and you can't help it in the present moment.
Just remember the second most important step is that you learn from those mistakes. Maybe even write it down - "On my next test, I will score 100 points/an A/a 1. But to do that, I need to study"

For every mistake you do, forgive yourself, then change yourself so you don't repeat the same mistake. It's still like being a perfectionist - a unique characteristic that you can't change from one day to the other (surely if you genuinely want to change you can though) - but with forgiving yourself. And with those two attributes, you're really set out for life :)
Thank you! Although I have been having a bad time lately and failing to reach my little goal there, I'm going to make the push.
My first target: this upcoming maths assessment I'm scared about. I'll go in, in a great mood, and feeling like I can succeed.
CoolChris

Magicphoenix wrote:

CoolChris wrote:

I've set goals for myself at the gym and today (after years of wishing) i was finally able to do a muscle up. I did 2. I haven't felt this good since i don't know when, its a feeling that doesn't come around anymore. Made me happy ^_^
Every (second) day 2 muscle ups, and later this month it becomes 3 muscle ups. Then 4 and 5... by 2015 you might be able to hit 10! It's all about not giving up and appreciating the small successes like you're already doing. The feeling is amazing and it can be incredibly fun to see yourself improving.

I started out doing 10 pushups and 20 bycicle crunches every day. Few weeks later I did 15 pushups, 25 crunches => ... . Now I'm at 25 pushups and 35 crunches and it's hellofalot rewarding to see my physique looking better on top of being stronger!! :D
Just keep on going and it WILL be worth it
Thank you for the motivation! And funny how you say 10, because that was the new goal i've set for myself, I must be able to do 10 in a row in order for it to be accomplished. Never give up, never say you can't, because when i started out lifting 10 lbs i was laughed at. Who's laughing now, when i bench 205 lbs 4 times and i only weigh 132 lbs. You should see the looks on peoples faces, it fuels me to do more, keep staring at me, keep looking at someone who is short but able to do so much. They don't know that feel, they only know how to judge you, and look down upon you. I say F them and keep being yourself. let them stare, let them know that they wont ever be able to get to the level im at. I'm so glad i signed up, i was weak and pathetic before, thinking of why im such a loser. But gym made me realize how strong i can become. Even when im alone, i know im strong, i can see it, others can see it.

Thank You.
Magicphoenix

Nikkumi wrote:

Ilfri-chan wrote:

Cut down on smoking and plan to quit for new years...
I wish I had your motivation to cut it as well.
Walls of text
SPOILER
I'm no expert on this at all, so correct me if I'm wrong, but have you considered getting help from smoking rehabiliation centers? I feel like there should be many forms of counteractions, especially against something like smoking. It's pretty much a world-wide, mass-problem so there ought to be some people who can help.

Otherwise, if motivation is a problem, try out some self improvement books or videos, bro. I know that exact feeling and I still have the lack of motivation at times for things like excercising, socializing or many MANY other things, but there are definitely methods to push up that motivation, that will to fight against something.
There's youtubers, there's self-improvement books, and with these come methods to assist you in becoming the version of yourself that you strive to be.
I could write a lot of things down that I've found throughout my own journey, but unfortunately I'm not as linguistically talented to properly write it all down and still make it seem interesting.

If I may quote our dear Eminem:
"Sometimes you just feel tired, feel weak
And when you feel weak, you feel like you wanna just give up
But you gotta search within you, and gotta find that inner strength
And just pull that shit out of you"
He himself was under heavy influence of drugs, much stronger and more addictive than smoking. He couldn't write music anymore for a long time of his career because he didn't have motivation, didn't have the strength, because he kept doing drugs (and probably smoking as well).
But he also made it back and brought out his album "Recovery", because he sought for help through rehabiliation.

And trust me, what Eminem can do, everybody can do. It's fucking hard and I acknowledge that, but many people cope with shit like that and those who truly want to, always get out of that shithole.


SPOILER
My personal tips:
Try by cutting down on other habits. If you drink a lot of sugary water(soda)/juice, stop drinking them on a Wednesday and Saturday. Only drink water. After weeks or months, only drink water. Or only drink soda/juice on a friday. It's one of the healthiest and imo one of the more easier habit changes you can make. It's all about habits. Habits are hard to break, but once you break them, you can keep it that way much easier than before.
Maybe find other things that apply to your lifestyle that you could change into a healthier way like going on a walk for 20 minutes every day.
And when you feel ready (or the satisfaction of earning the previous habits), try the same with smoking. Delay your usual smoking time by 30-60 minutes. For every smoke you take, think "Nope, in 40 minutes only."
Eventually it becomes "Nope, not today, only tomorrow again." The same principle like the soda/juice. Stop smoking every Wednesday. Then on 2 days. And so on. As long as you can get that motivation, that inner strength, then you can beat every bad habit you want and become any person you'd like to be. It really isn't that simple, but it is.

Good luck bro. What everyone else can do, you can do too.

Here you can find a few youtubers who I hope will help you, since they could also help me.
https://www.youtube.com/user/Kemetprince1/videos
https://www.youtube.com/user/elliottsaidwhat/featured
https://www.youtube.com/user/GoldJacketLuke/videos
Just pick a few or search for videos that interest you by the title. They will help you with smoking, other bad habits, and will surely help you get that motivation from within.

Special mention: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=z16vhtjWKL0 - "What is the Single Best Thing You Can Do to Quit Smoking?", a video that really hits the nail where it does the job. And in my opinion teaches a lot of other things, aside from just quit smoking - you should defintely check this out!
Magicphoenix

CoolChris wrote:

They don't know that feel, they only know how to judge you, and look down upon you. I say F them and keep being yourself. let them stare, let them know that they wont ever be able to get to the level im at. I'm so glad i signed up, i was weak and pathetic before, thinking of why im such a loser. But gym made me realize how strong i can become. Even when im alone, i know im strong, i can see it, others can see it.

Thank You.
This :)
I wish you the best of luck! You may even keep me updated, if you feel like sharing your journey with a complete stranger :)
CoolChris

Magicphoenix wrote:

This :)
I wish you the best of luck! You may even keep me updated, if you feel like sharing your journey with a complete stranger :)
I have some pics posted on "Post you in real life" thread all though you may have to dig a few pages back. I believe my last update was on 14th week of my workout, so next one will be at the 20th week. (it is week 18 as i'm writing this). And of course! i won't forget your kind words, so look forward to it! :) thanks again!
TheNekoNextDoor

TheNekoNextDoor wrote:

My first target: this upcoming maths assessment I'm scared about. I'll go in, in a great mood, and feeling like I can succeed.
I told my form tutor this during my Academic Tutor session (chatting to form tutor about what went well this half term, what didn't and setting targets for next half term), and she's really happy about it. I also have a German end of unit test coming up, so I will do the same.
As for my target for next half term, I suggested becoming a lot less harsh on myself - Miss thought it was a bit of a large burden, so she suggested not to get upset if I get something wrong. I AM DETERMINED TO ACHIEVE THIS.
Maths assessment tomorrow though >o<
Amianki
SPOILER

CalignoBot wrote:

CalignoBot wrote:

I got a job at a grocery store (primarily to start paying on the student loan bills) and have been focusing almost entirely on making sure my coworkers and managers have as positive an opinion as possible about me. Primarily, I've been trying to improve communication in my department and become a support that people can rely on since... our department is notorious for having people leave or get forcibly kicked out within two months of them joining. One side effect of working here is that I'm also actually gaining social skills since I never talked to anyone during high school.
I'm really damn glad I had the foresight to do this, since I was made aware of a future job opportunity that can finally get me out of that horrific work environment. Both of the managers I had worked under are pretty much guaranteed to give a full positive review of me when asked, and I have a couple other professional references from my coworkers that can point out that the strong points of my personality align perfectly with what they're looking for. On top of that, I have three people within the company I'm shooting for that can do the same thing. My resume is already completely done and ready to roll, so I basically only have to worry about making some kind of fatal mistake in an interview because I'm basically set.

Just having that job instead of my current one would improve my life drastically. Even discounting better pay and more benefits, pretty much everything is better. The hours are consistent (my current job is nowhere near consistent; I have times where I close the department at 9PM and have to be there at 7AM 2 days later), the work environment is calmer and supportive (constant stress about having to multitask various things while also worrying about having to help the front end at my current job), the dress code is incredibly lax (I walked to work in the company's 'uniform', which is basically winter clothes; SUMMER IS FUN), I sit for most of the day (it's hard to walk after most shifts since I work 9 hours a day; virtually all of it is on my feet), etc. etc.

The only real downside is that I'd be talking to people over a phone, which I don't have the best time doing. |:

Otherwise, I"m a lot more comfortable with where my life is going now than I did a couple months ago. Now I just need to get my motivation back and I'll be set \o/

Update. I have an interview for a position with the company in about an hour and a half. If things go well, I'll officially start working for them on the first of Decembver.
xslyte
I'm still trying to work on being able to work hard for school and other "Important stuff". It feels like I'm letting my parents down at that part, Sister doing like the most impressive university available in the Netherlands and parents at kinda high-end jobs and here I am sitting behind my pc making small amounts of money with gaming and writing at forums, I don't go outside much because I don't like talking to stranger because I feel like I am waisting there time or they have better things to do. But yea that's like my complete story.
TheNekoNextDoor

TheNekoNextDoor wrote:

My first target: this upcoming maths assessment I'm scared about. I'll go in, in a great mood, and feeling like I can succeed.
...I did it.
I can't believe I actually did it!
Now I know there's a way out of being constantly pessimistic. I just need to keep doing this... not JUST for tests, but in any situation!
I've found it!

I think I did really well in the test, anyway. To be honest, it wasn't as bad as I thought it'd be! ^^
Magicphoenix

TheNekoNextDoor wrote:

TheNekoNextDoor wrote:

My first target: this upcoming maths assessment I'm scared about. I'll go in, in a great mood, and feeling like I can succeed.
...I did it.
I can't believe I actually did it!
Now I know there's a way out of being constantly pessimistic. I just need to keep doing this... not JUST for tests, but in any situation!
I've found it!

I think I did really well in the test, anyway. To be honest, it wasn't as bad as I thought it'd be! ^^
spongypuppet

TheNekoNextDoor wrote:

TheNekoNextDoor wrote:

My first target: this upcoming maths assessment I'm scared about. I'll go in, in a great mood, and feeling like I can succeed.
...I did it.
I can't believe I actually did it!
Now I know there's a way out of being constantly pessimistic. I just need to keep doing this... not JUST for tests, but in any situation!
I've found it!

I think I did really well in the test, anyway. To be honest, it wasn't as bad as I thought it'd be! ^^
Congrats! I had tests as well! (I forgot about them so I hadn't revised T_T)
But I still got some decent scores, though! I'm a pessimist most of the time. But I sometimes keep the negative thoughts away by thinking and thinking (and sometimes talking to myself why/how this and that). I guess, everyday I become euphoric for a short period of time (although it goes away) by doing those things.
TheNekoNextDoor

Magicphoenix wrote:

Haha, thanks :)

spongypuppet wrote:

Congrats! I had tests as well! (I forgot about them so I hadn't revised T_T)
But I still got some decent scores, though! I'm a pessimist most of the time. But I sometimes keep the negative thoughts away by thinking and thinking (and sometimes talking to myself why/how this and that). I guess, everyday I become euphoric for a short period of time (although it goes away) by doing those things.
Yeah. I feel really pathetic sometimes if I look back on myself.. ><
After the test, I felt amazing (and my maths teacher high-fived me, haha) that I'd actually been able to do it. :)
I will keep trying to do the same - and you should too! c:
Magicphoenix

TheNekoNextDoor wrote:

that). I guess, everyday I become euphoric for a short period of time (although it goes away) by doing those things.
Yeah. I feel really pathetic sometimes if I look back on myself.. ><
After the test, I felt amazing (and my maths teacher high-fived me, haha) that I'd actually been able to do it. :)
I will keep trying to do the same - and you should too! c:[/quote]

You sound like you've got the chillest maths teacher in the world. Good on you man.
Why waste time being angry or sad when you can just dream of good things and spend time on improving yourself.

Loads of celebrities and youtubers started out being that awkward, bullied, quiet and pessimistic guy and turned awesome instead. And that turn was not a moment, but a progress, a progress that was long and hard but - in the end - worth it.
The most notable example I know of is nigahiga. Just watch his draw my life video, it's really a feel-good story of an awkward boy turning into what he is today
AgrarianSkyX
My issue is that I am constantly depressed and unhappy, and like you I'm pretty sure I have some kind of an anger issue, but I have done a couple of things to try and help those things :D

I have made a final decision to seek as much help as possible from all of my peers before I self harm which has already helped.
I have decided every afternoon after school to spend the rest of the day that the sun is out sitting there in the sun, I tan very well and I don't burn and it's been a few years since I got some colour haha, the Vitamin D has also made me a happier person and spending the afternoon outside has made me feeel better about myself and made me a happier person in general :)
Paco
Play less osu!
kouzuki_karen

Pacolito wrote:

Play less osu!
nyxuppini
Did my math homework by myself. I'm able to do it for two weeks. Aiming for one or two months.
Juan Tacos
I went on a 22 km hike. I don't like hiking or do it and I missed osu but a break was needed. .3.
Lackadaisy_old
I've picked up lifting weights again.
Also, trying to be less of a waste of space, so that's nice.
Veloalopus
Lets start from the beginning: I used to be quite the lazy boy. Never doing anything, not following orders or whatever. I thought to myself all the time that I wasn't doing anything wrong.

Well, that was the case a few months ago: Now I'm actually doing stuff outside of computers. I used to play video games between 5-10 hours a day. Now I hardly play them for 3 hours. Yesterday, I actually quit playing games ALL TOGETHER except this game, Clash of Clans, and the Hyperdimension Neptunia games.

I always tell myself 'I did wrong' whenever I do wrong now. That actually happened yesterday as well. And I am not as bad as I used to be with dealing with people. I still treat my friends like crap, jokingly anyway.
Nothing else really; but I DO still have things I need to work on.
TheNekoNextDoor

TheNekoNextDoor wrote:

I think I did really well in the test, anyway. To be honest, it wasn't as bad as I thought it'd be! ^^
I'm sad to say that I really didn't do very well at all.

What happened
Yeah, I got my results today. My teacher asked me to stay behind after the lesson to go through them with her.
I got 28 out of the possible 60 marks, giving me 47% and a C grade.
I'm so disappointed. I went in with an optimistic state of mind! I wasn't putting myself under any pressure... I think! My teacher and I had a glance at my paper and I did some incredibly silly mistakes, and I really struggled on one part.
My teacher tried to comfort me, saying that she was really proud of me for being optimistic through the test and that I'd done well, but I refused to believe it. I just kept on crying.

...I've given up. Even if I go into tests optimistic, with less stress on myself, I STILL fail. Why do I even bother TRYING?
I've got a German test coming up this week as well, and today's events have REALLY damaged my confidence. I don't know how to get back up now.
Birdy
I put effort and time in my psychology thing. 1777 words and 7 pages so far. For now, I'm proud of myself.
Daxia
I open up to people a little more than I used to
-_Lazy_-_old
1-2years ago i was rly empathic with everything, now i changed my self to the opposite i dont give a damn anymore about anything. Not sure if that's good or bad XD
-Takis-
Tried making friends at school uwu
TheNekoNextDoor

-Takis- wrote:

Cancelled my suicide plans c:
I'm so glad to hear that. :)

Anyway...
I forgot to mention - on Thursday, I spoke to my maths teacher about ways of improving my score (C-, for those who didn't read my wall of text the other day :P ), and I'm going to go through the paper with her on Monday break.

I spoke to the teacher that said "Leave your pessimistic self behind at the old school, and embrace the optimistic light of this new school!" to me (seems ages since she said that, lol) yesterday and she said I've done the right thing. :)
Woppitydoo
Took my antidepressants I guess
Nidavellir_old_1
I found my kitty :D
Mav d[-_-]b
PC gaming has been a huge part of my life. I have been gaming since a long time ago. I also never did any sport and rarely went outdoors, so this is a huge thing for me.
I have quit CS:GO becuase I dont feel quite motivated to play anymore and is taking up too much of my time.
I also have started Muay Thai. It is something that I kept telling myself I'd eventually do but end up playing computer games in the end.
Also started to lift weights and go running.
Hope it goes well... :oops:

Oh and of course I will keep playing osu casually
TheNekoNextDoor
I went through my maths paper today with my teacher. Turns out, with the amount of silly mistakes I'd made, if I'd got them right, I'd have gotten a B grade.
I actually did get the lowest score in my class. :(

But, even with that sad thought, I think that the session helped. A lot.
Paco

Mav d[-_-]b wrote:

PC gaming has been a huge part of my life. I have been gaming since a long time ago. I also never did any sport and rarely went outdoors, so this is a huge thing for me.
I have quit CS:GO becuase I dont feel quite motivated to play anymore and is taking up too much of my time.
I also have started Muay Thai. It is something that I kept telling myself I'd eventually do but end up playing computer games in the end.
Also started to lift weights and go running.
Hope it goes well... :oops:

Oh and of course I will keep playing osu casually
Good job and good luck with it :)
Alucard
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daredakke
Since mid-September I started working out more, mostly cycling, weight lifting and push-ups, and I also decided to walk to university every other day, which is a 3 mile walk.

Recently been trying to cut down on a lot of processed food too and I kinda feel better for it. Rice is so cheap and vegetables last longer than I thought. Still need to research more meal ideas though.

Most importantly I'm actually getting my uni coursework done little by little each day and I should finish it on time. All to easy to just put it off till tomorrow even when the work isn't that hard.
Eun-Fox
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hmmm...well I devoted myself to practice on traditional art and Digital art, also gaming.
At the moment I'm struggling in highschool since from where I live ( California,USA ) I'm in my 5th year in highschool and I was suppose to graduate late 2014 but I haven't due to low credits and from me skipping...( no not doing drugs or drinking,just skipping as in sleeping in ) I can't make it to graduate this year so I have to go to a adult school when I hit 18 or when school is over on late June. Pretty much I'm a slow learner.Other then that At the moment I want to go to a Art Institute College somewhere around San Fransisco or Los Angeles. I want to Study Abroad to japan to study anime games for my dream career I want to do ( Digital Game design ). Hmm what I've done to better myself...well I haven't cut in 2 years so I'm clean. So that's a start. I've been talking to my mom a lot lately so that's good also. ( Me and my mom weren't in good terms in the last 10 years due to Language barrier ) hmm and then I stopped being " lazy " throughout my year trying to exercise.
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Chiuyo
Everyones writing so long texts and here's me.
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I've started eating again.
Uncle Druidus
Damn, I see alot of people doing all those things to make their life better. And me, I'm just sitting here doing nothing, almost failing at two subjects. lmao
Nathan
Started sleeping more
guro
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Inimici
I played more 8-)
HaruryuuSan
Getting better grades :3
ERA Puzzle
I exercise (nearly) every day sans weekends and I have for the past 4 years. It's something I resolved on a while ago and since then I've kept vigilant and am very proud of the way I look/feel and the fact that I've pushed myself to do it for 4 years now. ^^

Otherwise, I quit playing League of Legends. I was addicted to the game and played it for all the wrong reasons. It made me get incredibly upset and frustrated with myself and I felt really toxic. I started playing less and less and that's when I slipped into Osu, and I started to realize that League wasn't going to go anywhere for me and stressed me out and made me upset with myself. Ever since quitting, I've felt a huge relief and don't feel pressured anymore to play or to do well. Instead I can just play Osu and have fun :D

The other thing is I've decided to stop drinking soda. It's too bad for me T~T
Wwlink55
Been trying to get into javascript, hopefully to try and collaborate with friends to create a small text-adventure game.
Nathan
I've started to play less for a while to fix my grades
Treekii

Uncle Druidus wrote:

Damn, I see alot of people doing all those things to make their life better. And me, I'm just sitting here doing nothing, almost failing at two subjects. lmao
Are you me? ;_;
unko
i made saibaquest
Dokixdoki
Quit watching anime for a while to focus on school T_T Getting time to swim more too
Uncle Druidus

[ Tree ] wrote:

Uncle Druidus wrote:

Damn, I see alot of people doing all those things to make their life better. And me, I'm just sitting here doing nothing, almost failing at two subjects. lmao
Are you me? ;_;
Idk probably.-.
Nathan
Made some friends I guess :3
ERA Puzzle

sukiNathan wrote:

Made some friends I guess :3
Hi New friend! <3~
Bweh
I quit osu
vizzy
Being more empathetic and communicative.
[ Scarlet Red ]
Hey, great job on trying to better your anger problems. I'm currently very depressive and get offended easily with no process of fixing the type of person I am
What I do to combat depression at a time is listen to music and play guitar
I write, I also talk to people. But I doubt I could ever fix my depression or sensitivity long term, I'm trying though!
black_arachnia

DJPuzzle wrote:

I exercise (nearly) every day sans weekends and I have for the past 4 years. It's something I resolved on a while ago and since then I've kept vigilant and am very proud of the way I look/feel and the fact that I've pushed myself to do it for 4 years now. ^^

Otherwise, I quit playing League of Legends. I was addicted to the game and played it for all the wrong reasons. It made me get incredibly upset and frustrated with myself and I felt really toxic. I started playing less and less and that's when I slipped into Osu, and I started to realize that League wasn't going to go anywhere for me and stressed me out and made me upset with myself. Ever since quitting, I've felt a huge relief and don't feel pressured anymore to play or to do well. Instead I can just play Osu and have fun :D

The other thing is I've decided to stop drinking soda. It's too bad for me T~T
Basically me, except with Dota 2. God, that game became toxic quick when it became free to play instead of invite only, holy crap.

As for me, I'm studying Korean to start teaching English abroad as a job in Korea next year. I lived in Japan for about 2 years teaching English there, and I liked it so I'm going to do it again, only with Korea this time. Pretty decent job, even though it's nothing compared to being a real teacher...
Nathan
Stretching before osu! >_<
MarvlPhoenix
Trying to accept something which I can't change either
Geo
I don't remember me doing anything to better myself, I've always been someone who think a lot, maybe a little too much wich sometime screw me and end up creating problems that weren't even there.
I'm someone who has been backstabbed a lot, either by friends or by the person that I love, and because of that all I have to do is to think wisely and pretty much all my anger or sadness just goes away in one instant and I'm able to live "properly" I guess ?
Just keep in mind that nothing is eternal and there's always someone worse off than you.

I'll also add that looking up to peoples who has been through much worse times than you definitely help a lot, I can guarantee that.
Anyway this is a really interesting topic, thanks for creating it.
Ringohan
I'm facing my fear and anxiety whilst dealing with my past, even though I would rather hide under the bed covers for all eternity.
I'm trying to put my own selfish wishes aside to listen to my boyfriend when he's in need, because I realise that he needs me just as much as I need him.
I tried detoxing my body, but I kinda failed (as I love sugar in my tea :cry: ), but! Instead I've changed my lifestyle, even though it takes a lot of willpower to keep it up. I want to get better, though. It's definitely not helping on my sleeping pattern and depression.

I also want to say good job to you guys in here. Keep fighting, you're not alone!
Kedi
Quit smoking .
26. Day woooo
kidlat020
realizing that humans are high maintenance and low rewards/returns. said maintenance include "respect" and "dealing with their pride" and of course, "authority". this principle really changed how I look at the world.

in retrospect, computers/machines/AI are low maintenance and very high rewards. I mean admit it, most of the time they're our source of income with whatever job we do in our PC. Myself I am an internet cafe owner and this only stressed my point even further.

Sometimes humans do not realize they're extremely reliant on technology and yet I wonder where do they get the capacity of getting this "pride" thing of theirs. truly, they're high maintenance and low rewards.

But you'd argue humans created machines. Perhaps clinging into the last Ace that humans are still superior to machines.

Point taken. but it only draws a simple conclusion. Humans should focus on building/creating. But heck, machines are a better builder than humans themselves. so strictly speaking its not creativity either.

But what? See the spoiler for the answer that would change your viewpoint forever.

Innovation
Tiisa
Realised that I need to let the past go, I won't get any better if I keep reminding myself of traumatic situations from the past.
Ekoro
i realized recently i can't handle most of close friendship (i'm annoying everyone by complaining everyday) so i think that going away for a while is the best way, although i still talk to some people.

well most of people didn't like this and yelled at me, but it's not like coming back will solve everything lol
Sousaki
I have been playing less and I also focused more on real life :)
Nyxa
Cool thread.

Started working on eating better
Put more trust into my girlfriend to decrease unnecessary paranoia
Also encouraging more openness and other stuff to further improve the relationship
Being more self conscious about what I say and how it affects others
Taking others' negative comments less personally by trying to figure out why they'd say them
Trying to take positive comments more seriously
Being more critical about my own maps and less nitpicky on those of others
Not overpracticing to the point of exhaustion every time so that I can actually improve my playing again
Trying to loosen up a little

I'm always working on lots of things but never make lots of progress with any of them. The length of this list doesn't mean as much as it might appear to

Also, I agree. Being yourself and accepting your flaws doesn't mean you can't work to improve them.
kidlat020
Also, I agree. Being yourself and accepting your flaws doesn't mean you can't work to improve them.
I am nijigen-kun (2D-kun. you know what that means). meaning I shouldn't "go out".
- Yuuto -
eat some snacks
AnglBunny
Taking others' negative comments less personally by trying to figure out why they'd say them
I'm glad you pointed this out. Sometimes it's difficult to see that everyone has their own backstory...

Trying to take positive comments more seriously
Something I also need to work on personally. I tend to be more hard on myself than others, and am never really convinced when I'm being told something positive
AskonNox
I'm trying to actually use the advice i'm giving away to other people. The last couple of months were really hard...to be honest this whole year was just a mess.
I felt like i've been thrown back 5 years in the past where i felt that my life wasn't worth anything.
Buuuut, like i said i'm trying to use my own advice and improve my behaviour. I'm only at the start of this but i have a good feeling ^-^
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Tiisa
I decided stop thinking about the past constantly and give someone I care for one last chance. I'm happy as things are now, why would I destroy everything for something that happened in the past? I also forgave someone that I used to hate and started to talk to them again, they're actually quite cool now. I also started to play osu! again after two years, this doesn't really better me in any other way than that it makes me feel happy and proud of myself.
PikaCienna
such embarassment
Zafkiele_old
Hmm. What have I done lately to better myself?.. interesting questions.
Nothing... YET

I have realized though, through this question and a little self reflection, that I'm really self conscious (as a good amount of people are), and I pretend to not care. I pretend to not care, and then at the end of the day I keep thinking such negative thoughts to myself that it hurts and it's frustrating.

So I guess in a nutshell, I need to value myself better. But then again, I never feel satisfied with the achievements I get so I'm always hungry for more.
What a problem. :<
Kunino Sagiri
I started devoting myself into making more ebin memes
and happiness
I began to read more. 1 to 3 books a week on average, depending on the length of the book.

I feel like I am hooked for life.
FoundCape
People are so deep in this thread O.O
As for me, I am trying to learn how to stream in osu! :P
-_Lazy_-_old
i poop moar
Magicphoenix

Zafkiele wrote:

Hmm. What have I done lately to better myself?.. interesting questions.
Nothing... YET

I have realized though, through this question and a little self reflection, that I'm really self conscious (as a good amount of people are), and I pretend to not care. I pretend to not care, and then at the end of the day I keep thinking such negative thoughts to myself that it hurts and it's frustrating.

So I guess in a nutshell, I need to value myself better. But then again, I never feel satisfied with the achievements I get so I'm always hungry for more.
What a problem. :<
This is a very common problem. And while I have not perfected solving this problem yet, it has gotten a LOT better.
I could write a long essay here, but I'd best just give you a book to read that has the solution to your exact problem.

It's called "The Power of Now". It shows you how to be a conscious being, living in the present and teach you how to neither worry about the future, nor dwell on the past. Also, how to be happy within the conscious present.
Please do read it!

Also, depending on whether you're a guy or a girl, read Models by Mark Manson. It focuses on pick-up, but really it helps you a lot on self-improvement as well. Such as rich lifestyle, keeping an open heart and not being so self-conscious :)
Jarrizard
The fact that I can't come up with an answer for this thread bothers me. lol
Nathan
Considering trying new things
Korakov
Wake up and do some exercises in the morning, hang-out with my friends, and etc...

But yeah, that was very very rare for me, if someone ask and persuade me to join them, i'm not declining their request, absolutely, i wanna join with them.
GSG95
I shut my mouth.
Chiuyo
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Aurani

Chiuyo wrote:

I have it hard to delete pictures and messages I've gotten from people long ago. But I forced myself to delete every picture that makes me sad and every message I've gotten from people I no longer have in my life or people I truly dislike, and I'm going to leave everything that happened this year in the past except from meeting the guy in my dreams this December, and hoping for 2015 to be a good year. Atleast better than 2014.
You should buy a bottle of wine and keep it there for when you find out that all of those "dream guys" are mediocre at best. That's when you need to open the bottle and take a sip from the drink of maturity and look at the past, laughing at it. :p

Point is - just don't get overly attached and emotional to one person. The youth is there to have fun, so enjoy it while you still can~
TrashLyra
Slowly improving myself at everything i do, One step at a time :)
Chiuyo
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kaetwo
Well, I started working out, and I need to devote more time into work, and getting into school.
I communicated more to my coworkers and we had a couple shots (my first drinking experience) during our staff xmas dinner. That's something, I guess for an introvert.
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