Ok quick confession
I have this fear about being left behind by my friends and loved ones. Things happened during my childhood that caused me to go into this sad state whenever I feel that I am being left out or whenever I feel like I am just no longer necessary. And this happens quite often really, even what it's not the case, I still get that feeling. This is probably also the reason why I have major trust issues.
Which is why I prefer to do things alone and why I only have a small circle of friends who I trust completely.
It all sounds irrational and melodramatic, but it's just something that has always been gnawing at me.
Why I decided to post this I dunno.