OK guys, sorry, I really have to post it here. I just fucking threw my PSP straight across my room, fortunately there was a cushion in the direction I threw it to.
Why did I do that, you ask? Well, you're in for what is another of my emotional posts here. And yes, it's Taiko related, which is why I posted it here instead of anywhere else.
Basically, this got stuck in my head the entire day today:
I was trying to distract my mind off of all the bullshit that's going in my head about it, but then some short discussion with a parallel nature in inquiry popped up in twitter and I'm reminded of it again. Just...
...god.
First off, if you feel that you're actually getting separated and acknowledging it, then that straight up is not true passion at all.
How the even shit did you even think that you really had passion if by a little separation from it, you already felt this way? If one had true passion, then anything that goes in between the person and his passion would not be significant in any way.
While I'm incredibly disappointed right now and I'm actually spreading tears all over the keyboard, I don't blame you at all.
I blame myself.
I blame myself, asking where I went wrong. Not in the friend aspect mind you, but as a Taiko no Tatsujin player, one who wants to draw as many people into the game, and keep them there.
I want to influence people to this game, and I want them to acknowledge the game the same way I do; that is, this game is worth pouring more than what your heart can give.
Don't get me wrong, dammit, you don't need to be good at the game to show the passion. Let me give you three of the proudest examples I know from this thread that shows potentially undying passion for this game:
1.) Lokamp
To tell you the truth, I cannot put into words how much this guy is up in the scale. Why, you ask?
Because despite the fact that there's a lot of bullshit entering his territory, the fact that more things that make him rage and make the rest of us pissed off at him with all his whining----
He still sticks to this game, and drains out every resource in and out. He doesn't fucking care if the songlist is getting saturated with more bullshit and he feels that Taiko Team is wasting their money on the wrong licenses; he knows that it's Taiko no Tatsujin, and he made it his DUTY, of all things, to know this game better than most of us here.
He even goes so far as to search for resources outside of what we usually know just to get info and be able to do shit on his own. Not just for Taiko, but for other things too, but the Taiko bit is the most enlightening. That, right there, is motherfucking passion.
And the second guy?
2.) Tetsu
I'm not fucking kidding you, this guy has made me proud.
Despite the fact that a lot of us are ignoring his stuff in this thread (ADMIT IT GUYS) because a lot of it are mainly just about osu!Taiko stuff, the fact that he's felt OP and gotten on our bad side a LOT of the time----
He doesn't give a fuck and keeps on putting out the rest of the authentics we still don't have, and makes custom charts on osu!. And that's considering that almost all of us don't really give that much of a crap to the osu!Taiko medium anymore.
He sucks big time, we all know that; he doesn't play Oni charts and he's not really making the effort to get better. But he still has more passion than most of us here for sticking with this game even with outside forces trying to drive him away from it! That, right there, is motherfucking passion.
And the third guy. Well if this wasn't already that obvious then you really don't pay attention.
3.) Aqua
For freak's sake this guy plays A LOT OF STUFF. A LOT OF FREAKING STUFF. He gets good at quite a number of them, and right now he's one of our best players here without compromising the other games too much!
He has full focus on everything that he does, even outside of gaming, and yet look: he's the main reason we have this giant 1700+ page megathread, he's the reason we have the entire Taiko Time blog that helps connect non-Japanese speakers to this game... and most importantly, he's the main reason why there's actually a non-Japanese Taiko community in the world!
He has made one of the biggest changes when it comes to knowing Taiko no Tatsujin as we know it! If only Taiko Team can recognize how much he's exuding passion, maybe the rest of us would be more fortunate in regards to the game! Motherfucking passion. Mother.Fucking.Passion.
You don't need to do something big like Aqua did to show passion. You don't have to be as arrogant as me to show passion. The main way you show passion is by being unfazed by the negative forces coming in between you and the thing you're passionate about.
That goes for any type of passion.
Beta, don't take this against me, or against yourself, or against anyone. I'm mainly voicing out how that small statement affected me, one who is dedicating almost his entire self to Taiko, and drawing people who might think the same, then having to think about such a thought which just...
Fuck!
But really, don't let this affect you in any way. I don't want you to suddenly change from the Beta I know. I just want to be honest with everyone here is all; concealing it further might lead me to throwing my entire computer out of the window.
But... good luck actually finding something that you're really passionate about. I really think everyone will have that turning point in their life where they can really show commitment to. This is referencing one of the posts you made in FB btw.
That thing may possibly not come from any medium you're in right now... but I really believe that everyone can have that turning point in their life sometime. You just have to stop believing that you can't, and it'll eventually come.
Rant over. Gotta buy myself a tear-drainer for my keyboard now...
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