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GamlA
It is 7:09 PM.

My French homework is sitting right in front of me, almost finished.

Just finish it, it won't take that long.
Achromalia
6:44 pm

i keep remembering, i keep fearing

almost everyone seems scary for one reason or another, either for things i believe ive learned about them or for the things i dont yet understand about them

...memories of them from years ago...

people who befriend me only to find out they want to fly me over somewhere or solicit me or something, people who i felt i had to defend and work for because i was sympathetic to them, people in my life that i cant trust to be safe for my vulnerabilities, people who would be gross to me, im tired, people are tiring

why is so hard to trust people and not be paranoid or neurotic near them...? and the people that sometimes seem safe are often people i cant rlly connect with, or are people i fear are exhausted with me or annoyed by me or confused by me. its probably my own shortcomings, fearing im not responsible enough to handle being near anyone... already i fear ive taken enough of people's time and energy, and i dont want to be near people that exploit me either

if i cant trust myself to be "normal" or safe or healthy with people, and if i cant trust people to be safe healthy connections for me, then... would i "deserve" any connection at all? the more i wonder about it, the more i feel compelled to believe i shouldnt want friendship

i dont want to want anything...

i would like to be wrong about people, but

im not exactly a wonderful person either...

neglectful, lazy, obstinate, insecure, neurotic, cowardly, irresponsible, incompetent, indecisive, vain, deluded, and generally oblivious to the world around me

i cant imagine how i realistically would be able to expect to grow to be any better right now, and...

im too fatigued to willingly change anything
GamlA
It's 8:51 PM.

I have finally finished the French homework task.

Now to go to sleep.

But why am I here instead?
sugarspellz
11:21 PM
I'm thinking I should probably go to sleep but I have the day off college tomorrow so it will be fine right?
sametdze
8:28 am


in my head, they're fighting.
Stomiks
9:57 pm

God why does class have to start at 6 in the morning
DJruslan4ic
13:36 Eastern Europe time
What happens if you could ignite methane in in a very, very cold place? Since burning methane produces water will it just turn into dry ice?
reffty_gag
18:44 (6:44 PM) WIB
Damn, Graduation album is a banger
Achromalia
11:59 am

i wanted to type a more meaningful message here that held a vulnerable stream of consciousness, but

i realize i dont want that at all

except im contradicting that now, because if i start saying something, i dont stop until it exhausts me enough. im so lucky that forums like these allow me to take my time and choose to restrain myself from describing most of the things i already know i dont want to share
great_elmo
00:21

gotta go tf to sleep it's a school night
GamlA
C'est 16h08.

Pour protéger l'environnement, la chose la plus importante est doe conserver l'électricité et l'eau, et pour faire de ça, je pourrais éteindre mes appareils et la lumière quand je finis les utiliser, et aussi fermer le robinet quand je me douche.
Wimpy Cursed
6:43 PM

I need to stretch and apply for more jobs.
Achromalia
1:55 am

empty

i am an empty hollow soul

oh to be a nondescript featureless doll, or a pale ghost, or

myself

if only i could see that

if only i could be that

or anything

anything else
DJruslan4ic
January 11, 2025 22:26
Vivid/Stasis osumoisKusofumen for BELLE.....
Isshiki Kaname
8:35, thinking of what to do meanwhile
Westonini
11:07 PM

thinking about this thread. I used to post mundane life updates about myself here sometimes. Kinda like how some people use Twitter and just give occasional life updates to the void even though no one actually cares. Can be strangely therapeutic.

got my hair cut today. it was so insanely long, longest its been in my life. kinda just said fuck it a couple years ago and let it grow out. it ended up going past my nips. it was nice tho, i feel like it fit me in some ways. feels weird getting like half of it chopped off. kinda forgot what i looked like with shorter hair (and it's still not THAT short).

edit: my last post here was 4 years ago gawt dayum
JLuca913 891
17:18 PM

this thread is back ig
Osudroid96
13:27

I want to go home and play DOOM Eternal
-Sundae-
19 june 2025 1:41pm

i want to sleep
-Izuki-
JLuca913 891
21:50 PM

ig gota sleep
MangaGrumpy
12:07 PM
MY LEGS!!!
great_elmo
2:02 PM
Tomorrow is my last day of school LFG!!!
JLuca913 891
07:27 AM

OH MY GOD WHEN YOU SEE IT
-Izuki-
8:00 AM

I wanna sleep((((

and

P O P P Y, I'm Poppy
P O P P Y, I'm Poppy
P O P P Y, I'm Poppy
P O P P Y, that's me!
Westonini
8:00 PM

I gotta stop playing Don't Starve Together man that shit is like crack for me right now. Gave it a whirl again after not playing it for some time and lots of updates have dropped. Great game but also a big time sink, like most sandbox survival games.
Westonini
4:31 PM

Technically double post but idgaf

Found so many great songs to add to my ever-expanding Spotify playlist this past week. Some new artists, some old favorites of mine that released some new songs. Always nice to have songs playing in the background when you're workin on something.

Sometimes it's hard to
leave my place
I hope to be loved
in the same way
My time is up
Where do I run?

So I gotta get by
One day at a time
Have a better life
If i could just get it together
But I, feel better at night
When I fuck up my life
I feel better at night
When I fuck up my life


- - -

Owh gawd I love this super emotional shit 💔
hits me right in the feels
JLuca913 891

Westonini wrote:

8:00 PM

I gotta stop playing Don't Starve Together man that shit is like crack for me right now. Gave it a whirl again after not playing it for some time and lots of updates have dropped. Great game but also a big time sink, like most sandbox survival games.
08:58 AM

OMG FINALLY SOMEONE PLAYS DONT STARVE TOGETHER NO WAY
Penguin
10:57 PM
Tuesday, June 24, 2025 (CDT)

hi

today i worked at my job. it was very fun. that is all. thank you.

bye
Osudroid96
7:52 AM

I want to watch a NASCAR race, can someone buy me a plane ticket and a ticket?
-Izuki-
12:55 AM

My back hurts a lot aaaghh
JLuca913 891
06:21 AM

pls hype my maps yes yes (not begging)
-Sundae-

JLuca913 891 wrote:

06:21 AM

pls hype my maps yes yes (not begging)
1:45am

sure
JLuca913 891

-Sundae- wrote:

JLuca913 891 wrote:

06:21 AM

pls hype my maps yes yes (not begging)
1:45am

sure
08:17

omg ty :D
Achromalia
9:01 am

blind sorrow

i wouldnt go looking for me if i were me
-Izuki-
15:24 PM

mmmm I bought cherry cola
JLuca913 891
16:24 PM

man
-Sundae-
17:01

hungry
-Izuki-
9:17

Yesterday I ran out of milk for coffee and now I have to go to the store
I woke up about 30 minutes ago and feel sleepy rn
JLuca913 891
06:18 GMT +7

for gods sake I DON'T WANNA DO TODAY'S EXAMS
Kolmas
2331

wanna try some spicy fruit
BluJellu
11:00AM Pacific Daylight Time. September 3, 2025.

I'm thinking about the limits of relax in osu, and my thoughts about Lazer's relax pp system.

The RPP system is still very unbalanced, but that's expected. BTW I'm not saying that because I think the devs are lazy or stupid, I'm saying it because the RPP system is obviously way lower priority to make right than the actual PP system, as it should be. The meta for RPP seems to be jumps that go on for a long time. If you have jumps that are only 4 notes, even if they are cross screen and 450 BPM, it will give nothing. It will give pretty much the same amount of RPP as if there was 2 star gameplay. As soon as you have more jumps in a row, like 8+, then the RPP counter goes up really fast. Seems like there's a certain strain threshold where if the difficulty is under that, it'll give nothing. If it's above, the gain is insane. There was this one map that I forgor the name of but it was like 550+ BPM burst jumps that were interrupted by a slider every now and then, but that gave freaking nothing. NOTHING. Of course I got destroyed by the 550+ BPM jumps and missed like crazy but apparently that map isn't even 1000 RPP for SS lmao. Because the slider broke the chain of jumps, even for 0.05 seconds. And the jumps aren't cross-screen, they are pretty close together, but it's still nearly impossible to hit. The much easier 380ish BPM section of the map which was 1000x easier gave most of the RPP and contributed to most of the star rating. You need consistent jumps that last a long time. Streams still give way too frickin much. Any decent spacing and high BPM will give tons even though a 7 digit could do it. Maybe even 8 digit. Is it because of the fact that PP will only go up if you clicked a circle? Streams have 4x the circles of jumps. And maybe there's like a lowest PP a circle can give so all the circles from the streams give little by little and add up IDK? (This is complaining in a jokingly way, I'm not trying to hate on the devs)

The bug (issue 27307) https://github.com/ppy/osu/issues/27307 is still infesting a lot of my plays and is pretty frustrating. And the comments on the issue have no progress on fixing it :( I just lost a 1000 RPP play because of 6 bugged misses on Because Maybe Pt.2 1.80x rate. It became 780 RPP. Also the map is nearly 1400 RPP for SS wth? I think that's way too high. The length bonus is going crazy there it seems. It's nowhere near the difficulty of 1400 RPP. Even considering nerves and consistency, it's just too easy. Nerves are less of a factor with CSR too. I'd say SS should be more like 1100 RPP. Oh, and that reminds me of Fieryrage's Happppy Song. I just randomly got 1279 RPP out of 1899 RPP for SS on 1.80x rate. Are you kidding me? Why is it worth that much? 1.80x rate is only 384 BPM, which isn't that fast, but the ending jumps still give insane RPP. Bursts of jumps need to be buffed a lot and streams of jumps need to be nerfed slightly. I wouldn't be surprised if I got upper 1000s, like 1500+ RPP on this, or if someone really good tries it and gets 2000+ RPP. This is the most overweight RPP map in the game IMO. Man, 2000+ RPP actually being possible is crazy, I remember when I was happy with 400 RPP lol.

Reading is a huge issue rn. The overlaps and high BPM and especially sliders are super hard to read. Kick slider jumps are the worst. You should be able to treat them as if they were normal circle jumps, and it would be super easy to read, but nope, you get slider clutter and the hit window is narrower. I really hate it.

About BPM, what are the limits? I think we can treat BPM kinda like singletapping in normal osu, let me explain. Because everytime you singletap, your finger moves up and down per note. Now for relax, lets say your hand moves left and right cross screen for 2 notes. So 400 BPM jumps is like the motion of 200 BPM singletapping, but instead of a finger it's your whole hand. But of course if the angles are wide then it's different but you get what I'm saying. That being said, if people can singletap 400 BPM, does that mean 800 BPM jumps are possible? Nah, you'd have to move your whole hand which is way harder than 1 finger. I think the limits of consistency are around low 500s. Maybe like 520 BPM. Above 500 BPM, I don't think anybody right now can aim consistently. But what if one day this way of enjoying the game gets popular and people start grinding it out? I think we could see the limit breaks that happen in lots of video games, and maybe 600 or 700 BPM is reachable. What if right now, I'm like a top player back in 2014 or something, I'm trying my best and I'm trying to push good scores, and push my limits, but it's nothing compared to what will come 10 years later. I think we'd need a new aiming technique for reaching 600+ BPM though, the tablet won't cut it. Right now once the BPM crosses 440 BPM it's pretty hard for me, but I can handle up to 500 BPM in short bursts. And of course if the map is long then I get tired and 400 BPM becomes hard.

How does Lazer RPP compare to Akatsuki's relax PP system (APP)? RPP is way less than APP. I remember some 1000 APP scores I got were like 300-400 RPP on Lazer. So is APP around 3x higher than RPP? If so, then my 1279 RPP should be around 3837 Akatsuki relax PP, which sounds crazy, with 6000 being possible. That sounds super wrong, so maybe it's only around 2x or something. It's been over 2 years since I logged on to Akat though so IDK.
Gengar9nn
19:04

kinda bored
replcu
11:09 PM (23:09)

i wanna count
synthwavesquid
09:48

forum games is really dead huh
BluJellu
12:03

Yea its really dead
Kolmas
18:32

maybe, maybe not
Tateshina Eve
10.38am when I started typing (2.38am UTC). Took about 4 minutes to think stuff.

Functional abstraction (building things from functions as opposed to objects) is pretty cool, although still trying to wrap my head around it. Unlike most traditional programming courses, for this course you jump right into recursion and lambda calculus.

After realising that the SG Grand Prix is later this year, it's gotten me thinking about who'll win it. Piastri would be cool, but Norris and Verstappen know the track better. @Farfocele need your opinion.
-Izuki-
12:47

mMMmMmmm coffee with icecream
synthwavesquid
07:22

i wonder if two people who know the same two languages have ever held a conversation where one is speaking one and the other is speaking the other

like person 1 is speaking german and person 2 is speaking japanese and they both understand each other just fine

this wasn't prompted by anything specific i just thought it
-Izuki-

synthwavesquid wrote:

i wonder if two people who know the same two languages have ever held a conversation where one is speaking one and the other is speaking the other

like person 1 is speaking german and person 2 is speaking japanese and they both understand each other just fine

this wasn't prompted by anything specific i just thought it
Kazahstan families be like
BluJellu
6:00 PM PDT, September 11, 2025.

Just heard that Peppy wants to ban gamma. Wtf is he doing... is he trying to kill the game more or what
-Izuki-
8:07
Click the circles to beat...
179bpm
7:36 p.m.
Just got kicked in the face pretty hard in karate and now my lips are bleeding

-Izuki- wrote:

synthwavesquid wrote:

i wonder if two people who know the same two languages have ever held a conversation where one is speaking one and the other is speaking the other

like person 1 is speaking german and person 2 is speaking japanese and they both understand each other just fine

this wasn't prompted by anything specific i just thought it
Kazahstan families be like
I think this could be possible with languages that have a lot of overlap like spanish and italian, or russian and ukranian, idk that much about those langauges that could be wrong
synthwavesquid
15:56

how do you write a personality for a character whose entire feasible existance is dependant on another?
-Izuki-
22:02

I would give him sad and painful childhood where the only happy moment was something with the second character
and then he would be completely addicted on it without any bright personality traits
synthwavesquid
17:06

i should probably clarify they are physically and psychically joined together for practical reasons
MangaGrumpy
9:52 pm
I'm so hot it's sweltering hot out here :[
replcu
04:32

why am i still awake
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