Journal wrote:
“Can I cry in front of you?”
I don’t think you’re an emotionally vulnerable person; you tend to bottle up your uglier emotions and instead project a facade of this shrewd, intelligent, and aloof individual. Not saying you aren’t intelligent, in case this is misinterpreted.
...hmm.
eh, i'd say you're mostly correct there. it's more or less a disconnect from my emotions. i've got difficulty working with emotions in general, whether it be something strange i'm experiencing or the hysteric emotions from others. it's not that i detest intimate subjects about feelings, but rather, i can't relate or really empathize, because i've yet to experience that to the degree others seem to.
i'm told i don't ever get angry, or sad. some would say i'm pretty happy at times, since that's when i'm opening up and exaggerating with friends. it's a trick of mine i've figured out. be an absolute idiot and go crazy with your jokes, enjoy yourself. exaggerating my expressions and intended demeanor and hearing others enjoy my humor has seemed to let out a genuine sliver of pleasant emotion.
it's not as much of me bottling them up actively as it is my mind deciding to store these emotions away or to keep away from them in order to keep my judgment clear and precise without a whole lot of bias influenced by such emotions. thus, i'm not really accustomed to them and hardly understand them, but i've gotten a sense of why it influences others over the years.
i'm not sure when i last cried, but i wouldn't rule out the possibility that i'd ask someone i'm close with to excuse my incessant burst of ineffable emotion if my mind were overwhelmed with enough thoughts about... well, shit that's impacted me.
to conclude, yeah. you've made a pretty fair analysis overall.
back on topic.
Journal: "i'm not sorry. i don't really give a damn what your problems are or why you have 'em, just deal with 'em yourself and don't bother me."i'm not entirely certain of how you function. personally, you seem relatively... normal. kind of calm... docile, perhaps.
i think you generally would be alright with helping others through their issues, perhaps stoically giving advice and being the shoulder to cry on.
i don't believe you'd be the sort to reject others from venting or expressing their thoughts.
to add with my two earlier posts:
i'm unsure of whether you're an emotionally stable sort of person, much the less the type to look back and gawk at others for being emotional-- primarily because i think you'd have an understanding of them and of their reasoning for being emotional. you'd probably empathize with 'em, willing to be emotionally vulnerable and embrace some degree of feeling should the occasion occur.
and i don't find you to be the type that'd go insane with memes-- emulating them all the time. perhaps you enjoy them in secret, but overall, i don't see you as the sort to be obnoxious with 'em.
well, fuck. i was 6 minutes late.Tad: "watch me jump off this roof yo"seriously. i don't think you'd be that careless. you're probably one of the more candid and logical people i know, preferring to consider practicality over sensational experiences. though perhaps, you wouldn't mind a little mild fun, something nice like a hobby of sorts, perhaps.