I haven't played in like 6 weeks.
I picked up this game in February of this year and my play pattern seems to be grinding hard for like a month or so out of love of the game and wanting to improve and then feeling sickened by it and dropping it. I've definitely experienced some crazy euphoria with this game, but for whatever reason when I think about the game or look at plays/forum I start to feel slightly uneasy and my stomach hurts. I wonder if it has to do with the fact that once I lose that "love" for the game I feel like I've lost something important to me, and I see people playing the game and realize that I kind of want to do it again and push myself, but I'm afraid of eventually coming into that familiar depression after the honeymoon phase ends. Another theory I have is that when I'm actively playing I become very addicted and I can't help but constantly think about the game even when I'm at school or doing something else, and I'm not really sure how to play without becoming like that, so maybe I'm afraid of that high anxiety state and the fact that osu! tends to exacerbate my sleep issues.
Anyone else know what I mean? I don't really feel this with other games I have put far more time into like LoL when coming back to them, but osu! fucks with my heart (and my stomach, apparently). It's probably the fucking vocaloid anime girl voices (jk). Of course I'm writing this because I'm thinking about getting back into the game, but I think I'm going to restrain myself until I start outletting stress in other ways (getting a gym membership soon) so that I'm less likely to become frayed and stressed when I start playing again. Maybe I'll also limit my playtime too.
I picked up this game in February of this year and my play pattern seems to be grinding hard for like a month or so out of love of the game and wanting to improve and then feeling sickened by it and dropping it. I've definitely experienced some crazy euphoria with this game, but for whatever reason when I think about the game or look at plays/forum I start to feel slightly uneasy and my stomach hurts. I wonder if it has to do with the fact that once I lose that "love" for the game I feel like I've lost something important to me, and I see people playing the game and realize that I kind of want to do it again and push myself, but I'm afraid of eventually coming into that familiar depression after the honeymoon phase ends. Another theory I have is that when I'm actively playing I become very addicted and I can't help but constantly think about the game even when I'm at school or doing something else, and I'm not really sure how to play without becoming like that, so maybe I'm afraid of that high anxiety state and the fact that osu! tends to exacerbate my sleep issues.
Anyone else know what I mean? I don't really feel this with other games I have put far more time into like LoL when coming back to them, but osu! fucks with my heart (and my stomach, apparently). It's probably the fucking vocaloid anime girl voices (jk). Of course I'm writing this because I'm thinking about getting back into the game, but I think I'm going to restrain myself until I start outletting stress in other ways (getting a gym membership soon) so that I'm less likely to become frayed and stressed when I start playing again. Maybe I'll also limit my playtime too.