ONE AND THIRTY EIGHT A M.
Achromalia wrote:
heya penguin. apathy comin' in?
Penguin wrote:
Achromalia wrote:
heya penguin. apathy comin' in?
yeah, last night was one of the worst nights of my life for like no reason. I felt so numb and apathetic towards everything. But today is a complete 180, I feel perfectly fine. I'm so confused. I haven't had a super apathetic / numb day in months, so I don't know why last night was terrible.
Well, I have an idea of why last night sucked, but what happened really wasn't that bad, I think I just kinda lost control of everything. I don't know, I just hope it doesn't happen again.
Achromalia wrote:
Penguin wrote:
Achromalia wrote:
heya penguin. apathy comin' in?
yeah, last night was one of the worst nights of my life for like no reason. I felt so numb and apathetic towards everything. But today is a complete 180, I feel perfectly fine. I'm so confused. I haven't had a super apathetic / numb day in months, so I don't know why last night was terrible.
Well, I have an idea of why last night sucked, but what happened really wasn't that bad, I think I just kinda lost control of everything. I don't know, I just hope it doesn't happen again.
...mmh. shit, i don't remember what that feels like, to just suddenly come across apathy after naturally feeling emotion and expressing oneself with some degree of ease. to me, indifference is natural. i dunno how to help, fuck.
but yeah. shit, dude. i'll sympathize on the note that apathy's a mindfuck for sure.
try to stay healthy, alright? you'll manage. i personally believe, though, that apathy shouldn't be too feared. in fact, in a weird way, i think you should give apathy its own medicine, and give 0 fucks about it, understand that sometimes things won't be in control, that it's alright if you find yourself in a funk with your emotions or the lack thereof, regardless of how heavy it feels, whether it's numbing or hysterically impactful.
but in a way, i'm putting too much attention towards it, so, i guess i'll lay off of that now, but it's something fairly personal and thus i'd like to share my thoughts in case it does pop up again. expect it to, don't be surprised by it-- but if you must be upset, feel free to. if you're already in it and nothing makes sense because you can't seem to feel a damn thing, still, feel free to not feel at all. even if it's unnatural to you, work with it, adapt, and manage.
i hope that helps.
other than that, yeah. let's hope it doesn't come around. in fact, move on and get shit done! >:O
work through things, even you gotta think about your situation for a bit. if you're stuck, reach out. get some perspectives.
good luck, man.