Hell no I just want this month to end so I can quit.
There's a reason why I haven't been trying hard after those first three months. I was sick of playing and sick of always having it on my mind. It's funny and pathetic to think that this dumb game actually puts a toll on my mind but strangely enough it does.
Even after those first three months were over I constantly had thoughts of this thread coming back into my mind as if it were a bad addiction, and I had to constantly remind myself to stop thinking about it and to not get too involved again. I felt so free after I stopped trying, like a weight being lifted. I know how retarded this shit sounds but that's genuinely how I felt.
I only actually started trying this month since I had that good head start. But maybe I should have stayed out of it. The harder you try at this game the worse you feel until the month's finally over.
GLHF
There's a reason why I haven't been trying hard after those first three months. I was sick of playing and sick of always having it on my mind. It's funny and pathetic to think that this dumb game actually puts a toll on my mind but strangely enough it does.
Even after those first three months were over I constantly had thoughts of this thread coming back into my mind as if it were a bad addiction, and I had to constantly remind myself to stop thinking about it and to not get too involved again. I felt so free after I stopped trying, like a weight being lifted. I know how retarded this shit sounds but that's genuinely how I felt.
I only actually started trying this month since I had that good head start. But maybe I should have stayed out of it. The harder you try at this game the worse you feel until the month's finally over.
GLHF
