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Achromalia wrote:
Mmh. Nice to hear you're doin' better, at least.
Any plans for the vacation?
Not really... Other than stay at home. Probably bike everyday. How about you?
I honestly just hope to make music consistently. I don't do much aside from stay on the internet all day and have very few plans not to.pentaqola wrote:
Not really... Other than stay at home. Probably bike everyday. How about you?Achromalia wrote:
Mmh. Nice to hear you're doin' better, at least.
Any plans for the vacation?
my mind is blank.
i'm tired as hell.
i wish i had a real person to talk to.
but i can't seem to understand people well.
i don't know how i've become so distant with humanity.
this lonely, empty feeling has me surfacing the sea of insanity.
i'm tired as hell.
i wish i had a real person to talk to.
but i can't seem to understand people well.
i don't know how i've become so distant with humanity.
this lonely, empty feeling has me surfacing the sea of insanity.
i want to give up at this.
i almost don't care anymore.
i'm too tired.
and fighting westonini for points just makes me miserable.
i'm not sure why westonini's doing this, it's pointless.
i just want to live a bit better, and make music and art freely.
this horrid game sucks, and i'm not sure how i've gotten so obsessed with this.
and yet...
- - -
edit.
and yet... he posts. and ninja's me everyday.
i wonder what drives him to do this.
i'm not sure why even i do this.
i'm still posting anyways, even though it only has made me feel worse.
i've done this for 12 days, and i only hate it more.
i'm still so fixated on the three-month streak.
this is no longer fun -- it's unhealthy.
and i do this to myself everyday, an addiction.
and i keep posting for myself anyway, because i wanted something i could feel satisfied with. some sort of achievement. like winning a challenge.
this is no challenge, it's a hell.
so do i quit, despite what i sought?
i don't know. i can't tell.
i want to, but quitting will only make everything i've suffered and stayed up for all for naught.
why am i so damn invested?
i'm not even sure if westonini enjoys this.
i don't know.
i almost don't care anymore.
i'm too tired.
and fighting westonini for points just makes me miserable.
i'm not sure why westonini's doing this, it's pointless.
i just want to live a bit better, and make music and art freely.
this horrid game sucks, and i'm not sure how i've gotten so obsessed with this.
and yet...
- - -
edit.
and yet... he posts. and ninja's me everyday.
i wonder what drives him to do this.
i'm not sure why even i do this.
i'm still posting anyways, even though it only has made me feel worse.
i've done this for 12 days, and i only hate it more.
i'm still so fixated on the three-month streak.
this is no longer fun -- it's unhealthy.
and i do this to myself everyday, an addiction.
and i keep posting for myself anyway, because i wanted something i could feel satisfied with. some sort of achievement. like winning a challenge.
this is no challenge, it's a hell.
so do i quit, despite what i sought?
i don't know. i can't tell.
i want to, but quitting will only make everything i've suffered and stayed up for all for naught.
why am i so damn invested?
i'm not even sure if westonini enjoys this.
i don't know.
Hell no I just want this month to end so I can quit.
There's a reason why I haven't been trying hard after those first three months. I was sick of playing and sick of always having it on my mind. It's funny and pathetic to think that this dumb game actually puts a toll on my mind but strangely enough it does.
Even after those first three months were over I constantly had thoughts of this thread coming back into my mind as if it were a bad addiction, and I had to constantly remind myself to stop thinking about it and to not get too involved again. I felt so free after I stopped trying, like a weight being lifted. I know how retarded this shit sounds but that's genuinely how I felt.
I only actually started trying this month since I had that good head start. But maybe I should have stayed out of it. The harder you try at this game the worse you feel until the month's finally over.
GLHF
There's a reason why I haven't been trying hard after those first three months. I was sick of playing and sick of always having it on my mind. It's funny and pathetic to think that this dumb game actually puts a toll on my mind but strangely enough it does.
Even after those first three months were over I constantly had thoughts of this thread coming back into my mind as if it were a bad addiction, and I had to constantly remind myself to stop thinking about it and to not get too involved again. I felt so free after I stopped trying, like a weight being lifted. I know how retarded this shit sounds but that's genuinely how I felt.
I only actually started trying this month since I had that good head start. But maybe I should have stayed out of it. The harder you try at this game the worse you feel until the month's finally over.
GLHF
...i see.
i'll be sleeping sometime soon.
but it's fair enough. this really has been a stupid fixation i've had and i'm not sure why i fuck my life up so much for it. i've actually done a lot of unhealthy things for this thread.
good luck.
have fun.
i'll be sleeping sometime soon.
but it's fair enough. this really has been a stupid fixation i've had and i'm not sure why i fuck my life up so much for it. i've actually done a lot of unhealthy things for this thread.
good luck.
have fun.
have a good nappies. wait i see you typing on discord now. ok well nevermind then.
Topic Starter
a bargain!
trying my best.
nice almost an hour worth of point . gonna grab it while its hot
morning.
school.
ready to die.
school.
ready to die.
I feel like shit about myself recently.
My cold doesn't help either.
I hate my life.
My cold doesn't help either.
I hate my life.
Saftey torch
Edit: o damn i guess i should'a waited longer.
Edit2: pls anyone but Achro claim these
Edit: o damn i guess i should'a waited longer.
Edit2: pls anyone but Achro claim these
Sure, I'll take it.
Sucks to have to go to school when the only thing I need are my exam papers and announcements.
I FYCKING FORGOT MY PHONE FUCKWestonini wrote:
Saftey torch
Edit: o damn i guess i should'a waited longer.
Edit2: pls anyone but Achro claim these
WHAT THE FUCK X'DDD
THIS IS THE STUFF THAT RUINS ME
an attempt.
attempt number two??
damn you got me by like 5 seconds on that second attempt too.
getting pretty scary there.