Jordan wrote:

Howl's Moving Castle

Otamegartist wrote:

-Cho wrote:

Someone I really love more than anyone else killed themselves because I wasn't trying hard enough to make them happy, I don't know if anyone else knows yet and I keep expecting her to call me or text me like she usually does then remembering that she's gone and crying, I've never had to cope with losing anyone close to me before and I have no idea how to cope with it and just before it she was only asking me to spend time with me but I told her I was too busy helping a friend, then said she was sorry for ever meeting me and that she was sick of pretending she wanted to be alive and I haven't been able to contact her since. I think the only reason I haven't completely broken down yet is that I keep telling myself she won't really have done it or maybe she'll have tried and it won't have worked and that I just need to keep waiting on her telling me she's okay. I feel like all I can do right now is sit and cry, I don't want to move on because I want her to come back and I can't stop thinking about her because we were talking literally 24/7 before and that was how I knew she was okay and now I can never speak to her again so all I'm doing is alternating between forgetting that she's really gone and crying/being sick.

If heart is exist inside me. I'll cry after reading this.

Be patient okay? I don't know if I can feel your sadness, but.. don't give up. She'll be happy if you do.

Immortelle wrote:

Feeling rather lonely today *^* I hate that feeling~

HandHeldPillow wrote:

but in the end Chinese food solved the problem

Jordan wrote:

Not crying, but having no one to talk with makes me feel quite bad sometimes... Not counting school I've been a shut in for years already and because of that I have no friends IRL. I got used to that with time but sometimes this feeling of loneliness still overwhelms me. Idk.