LoliFlan wrote:
Asking myself why did I ever fall in love and ever started an online relationship. Seriously I'm the biggest idiot alive.
All the effort, tears, stress, worrying, love, hopes, dreams.
What a waste. I'm such a sad person lol. If I was told I would die soon, I wouldn't even have one speck of fear.
You fell in love because you were feeling attached to that person of interest, though an online relationship is very hard to maintain as you can't force things out physically relying on things that are imaginable and only limited to certain things.
Calling yourself an idiot because you fell in love is never an option, as tough as it might get onto you- cherish the good things you
had and move on.
I can't tell how you should live your life but living a life filled with regrets and what you had done is in no way healthy.
Trust me, always getting back on what you've done will make you mental someday.
All the effort, tears, stress, worrying, love, hopes, dreams.
As long as it was equal on both sides it should turn out alright.
Your effort sure weren't in vain since upon that time you were worried and were doing the effort reaching out emotions, i'm sure it helped either sides.
and if you should ever get into an LDR or even close relationship again... don't force things out and let it run smoothly.
You aren't married to that person so there's room to loosen the grip and not let too many emotions overcome your nature.
All in all, I know how hard it can be losing your very loved ones.
I also know that you weren't the one who'd abandoned the whole thing and were left without a clue.
But, live on and don't think the world just ended because of that. You don't have an deadly illness... so lift your head up and live the remaining time of your life however you want, just don't always grab into the box of regrets whenever it's there.
I'm pretty sure you aren't over 30 yet, so try to enjoy the oncoming years. You don't know what will happen tomorrow or the day after tomorrow.
Wish you best of luck for your life.
