PUZZLEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Puzzle wrote:
Its 838 am and I'm flippin hungry. But I dont have anything for breakfast. Ah well.
I'm literally shaking right now.
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I'm literally shaking right now.
Tad Fibonacci wrote:
Puzzle wrote:
Its 838 am and I'm flippin hungry. But I dont have anything for breakfast. Ah well.
PUZZLEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I'm literally shaking right now.
Tad Fibonacchi recieved valuable drop: Puzzle
This isn't just valuable drop. This is SSR drop!Puzzle wrote:
Tad Fibonacci wrote:
PUZZLEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Puzzle wrote:
Its 838 am and I'm flippin hungry. But I dont have anything for breakfast. Ah well.
I'm literally shaking right now.
Tad Fibonacchi recieved valuable drop: Puzzle
11:04PM
holy fuck puzzles back AND tads old pfp is too? whats goin on
holy fuck puzzles back AND tads old pfp is too? whats goin on
13:36charamaru wrote:
11:04PM
holy fuck puzzles back AND tads old pfp is too? whats goin on
Me and the bois are back in town.
Now we only need your old drowzee avatar.
09:45AM
I hope it holds on, I'm actually trying to build up an answer out of minutes (maybe hours) of thinking.
I hope it holds on, I'm actually trying to build up an answer out of minutes (maybe hours) of thinking.
Tad Fibonacci wrote:
charamaru wrote:
11:04PM
holy fuck puzzles back AND tads old pfp is too? whats goin on
13:36
Me and the bois are back in town.
Now we only need your old drowzee avatar.
1:11PM
pensive
12:40 AMcharamaru wrote:
1:11PMTad Fibonacci wrote:
13:36charamaru wrote:
11:04PM
holy fuck puzzles back AND tads old pfp is too? whats goin on
Me and the bois are back in town.
Now we only need your old drowzee avatar.
pensive
YASSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS
Lmfao wtf
Tad Fibonacci wrote:
13:36
Me and the bois are back in town.
5:18 PM
not all the bois
F in chat for sosten
Westonini wrote:
5:18 PMTad Fibonacci wrote:
13:36
Me and the bois are back in town.
not all the bois
F in chat for sosten
8:42 AM. I figured out a lot of stuff I was doing wrong with anatomy last night. Did a couple of body sketches and they turned out way better than anything else I've done. Gone are the days of bad anatomy. Gone, I say! I have discovered de whey, my bruddas.
So yeah I'm just sitting on the bus happy about that.
So yeah I'm just sitting on the bus happy about that.
12:23 am
Just started a new beatmap project and I’m so hyped about it
Just started a new beatmap project and I’m so hyped about it
10:38 PM PST.
spent a lot of effort these last 10 hours on making some higher resolution 31x61 pixel bases for YnY.
i'm starting to realize how bad i am at time management and how little energy i really have.
i overestimate what i can do, and while yeah, i can get shit done, and my team likes what i'm making, i struggle to do that consistently and quickly.
if i can't fix that, i'm going to have trouble with the rest of the ~150 wardrobe items and their 11 other renders each. 1650 sprites to go through, and i can't even get through two.
i've estimated about 2 or 3 months of work, all things considered.
luckily, these are the hardest 48 sprites i'll be doing, i think. the rest should be much more manageable with the existing base.
spent a lot of effort these last 10 hours on making some higher resolution 31x61 pixel bases for YnY.
i'm starting to realize how bad i am at time management and how little energy i really have.
i overestimate what i can do, and while yeah, i can get shit done, and my team likes what i'm making, i struggle to do that consistently and quickly.
if i can't fix that, i'm going to have trouble with the rest of the ~150 wardrobe items and their 11 other renders each. 1650 sprites to go through, and i can't even get through two.
i've estimated about 2 or 3 months of work, all things considered.
luckily, these are the hardest 48 sprites i'll be doing, i think. the rest should be much more manageable with the existing base.
4:07 am est
how id i find my way back to this forum ive left it behind like years ago
how id i find my way back to this forum ive left it behind like years ago
1:15 AM PST
oh shit, miharu's back after... fuck, it's been a long while. over a year, at least, maybe about two years. nice to see ya.
oh shit, miharu's back after... fuck, it's been a long while. over a year, at least, maybe about two years. nice to see ya.
miharu_chan0 wrote:
4:07 am est
how id i find my way back to this forum ive left it behind like years ago
It's like a giant gravity well or some kind of black hole. It's been doing this to me for *years*.
why do i actually relate to this? i only witnessed this around two times, and i haven't even been here that long...Puzzle wrote:
It's like a giant gravity well or some kind of black hole. It's been doing this to me for *years*.miharu_chan0 wrote:
4:07 am est
how id i find my way back to this forum ive left it behind like years ago
11:47AM
Yes.
10:00PM
What the fxxk is my luck...
KotoriIsMyWaifu wrote:
do you mean a balloon twisted into a dog?
Yes.
10:00PM
What the fxxk is my luck...
6.20am
geography test today... perfect
geography test today... perfect
8:11 pm, 8/21/19
why is clicking cirCLES SO HARD BRO
my eyes burn too. maybe sleeping is the best option. but i gotta play more. improvement is key.
why is clicking cirCLES SO HARD BRO
my eyes burn too. maybe sleeping is the best option. but i gotta play more. improvement is key.
Cahyono29 wrote:
13:28
finding the right mousepad for osu is hard
11:41 PM
SteelSeries mousepads are pretty solid.
3.06pm
about the aforementioned geography test, it went fine
about the aforementioned geography test, it went fine
08:31 Heck
11.10pm
I have a test tomorrow. Yes, on a Saturday. Why am I not sleeping?
I have a test tomorrow. Yes, on a Saturday. Why am I not sleeping?
10:45 EEE I'M SO MOTIVATED TODAY
I hope the test went well!
KotoriIsMyWaifu wrote:
11.10pm
I have a test tomorrow. Yes, on a Saturday. Why am I not sleeping?
I hope the test went well!
8:20 am, 8/24/19
victims of contingency is an absolute banger...i wanna find more songs like it.
i've...played osu for 4 hours straight...help.
victims of contingency is an absolute banger...i wanna find more songs like it.
i've...played osu for 4 hours straight...help.
6:36 pm
so...i just found osu gameplay on porn website ._.
so...i just found osu gameplay on porn website ._.
8.19pm
I might want to remove that screenshot from my signature, I'll leave the quote there though
I might want to remove that screenshot from my signature, I'll leave the quote there though
04:25PM
The new Topic Watches design is nice ( '-')
07:59AM
Looks like it applied to the whole forum.
The new Topic Watches design is nice ( '-')
07:59AM
Looks like it applied to the whole forum.
11:34 Feeling immensely proud with sorting out my motivation. Been doing a lot so far today without feeling forced to by people I know, and sorting out an issue they never even known about, are 100% things I feel pride for.
I'll be doing more later, but it'll probably help having, and following, a timetable. It'll make everything more organised and not feel as overwhelming deciding what to do (I'm extremely indecisive - If a decision isn't absolutely obvious, I hop from one thing to the other constantly). And I'll feel a bit more a push to do my tasks.
I'll be doing more later, but it'll probably help having, and following, a timetable. It'll make everything more organised and not feel as overwhelming deciding what to do (I'm extremely indecisive - If a decision isn't absolutely obvious, I hop from one thing to the other constantly). And I'll feel a bit more a push to do my tasks.
5:24 PM PST.
...no.
i'm going to go into a pretty... well, painful topic of mine.
a sore spot that i've always been bothered by.
and i fear the worst, in seeing exactly what i've envisioned, come true.
- - -
...most people i talk to know that my mother's a tough person to talk about for me. she's been the person who's a part of why my life has been absolute shit.
she's an anxious, emotional woman. she has an air of determination in her, while being highly caring, and has a tendency to be emotionally invested in the people she cares about.
i used to cherish her as my mother.
now i don't really feel much of anything towards her. i...
...well, i can't say i really even love her.
whenever she speaks to me and calls me, everything stops. i feel numb.
i suddenly find myself gripping at the thought of her, conflicted as to what to think and how to approach her.
...she birthed me. she nurtured me, but then ignored my warnings, then dejected me. she changed me into who i am.
now she's getting married all of a sudden, to a guy she's only met for 3 or 4 fucking months. september 14th.
i was born a Jehovah's Witness. i was fairly involved in the religion's proceedings, going to every meeting in the Kingdom Hall, and the memorials, and the conventions. i met some people. i somewhat enjoyed it.
throughout the years, i would learn more about what things were like. i became a somewhat popular lad, because of how i'd frequently answer for "comments", reciting shit from a book that isn't even a translation of a bible. though i did get to sometimes read some verses from their bible translation aloud at times.
but then i slowly noticed how... off-putting the Hall was. the atmosphere reeked of plastic farces and over-enthusiastic utopian attitudes that just... unsettled me. they didn't even seem genuinely happy, though some others were, to some extent. it felt like they had to smile.
then i learned some more of what the organization behind them all really was. i considered the correlation between how it affected everyone who ate up their religious teachings.
many of them didn't even seem like good people.
i learned about their shunning policies. about their two-witness ruling, and ignorance in the face of the thousands of child molestation cases they faced. i got to understand their mentality from the inside, i know of their anxiety towards "worldly" people, and people called "apostates", that "you aren't supposed to listen to their bad words", and that they're bad people somehow.
all because they left the religion, in fact, because they were abused by it, held hostage by it.
i successfully faded out of the religion, without any counseling from elders, though it's possible i may have been condemned behind my back on my way out.
...the man my mother is marrying, is a Jehovah's Witness.
he's certainly cynical of every business that exists. he seems to also be cynical of people, in some sense. i wonder if he believes people have evil ulterior motives as well.
...he does try to treat my mother well, though. he tries, and he's doing alright. my mother enjoys being around someone, for once.
...but you can't truly be together, in love, without being married, it seems.
it has some connotations that... churn my insides.
i don't know why.
she wants to be baptized as a Jehovah's Witness. she wishes to live with him, as one, forever.
and for some reason, i feel like shit.
it hurts.
it's almost as if i'm losing her, like she's dying or something.
i'm losing her to a religion that captures people, and smothers them in superficial love, never letting them out... but once you make a mistake, you're shot out, called "mentally diseased", considered as "bad association". And either way, when you go in, someone's going to be cut out of your life.
it's either those you once knew and loved, considered "worldly", or the people you thought you knew, perhaps family you relied on, who deem you to be a filthy apostate, only to be kicked out by your own parents at a young age, when you're not even fucking 15.
the thought of her sinking into that religion truly stings.
it's like a whole other void has opened up.
i'd like to pull her out of it.
but with her, comes her future husband.
...that won't end well, unless i can get to him as well.
...and i very highly doubt that.
this is something, out of all that i've yet to figure out, i now know one of my greater fears-- losing someone i know fondly to a captive life that transforms them into a world-fearing cynic, sacrificing so much in belief that they can live forever, in the midst of 8 billion people that might as well just die by the hand of a deity that doesn't really even seem that great.
if only it were easier.
but it won't be easy.
if i could just say something-- one word, to this turn of events, it'd be...
no.
...no.
i'm going to go into a pretty... well, painful topic of mine.
a sore spot that i've always been bothered by.
and i fear the worst, in seeing exactly what i've envisioned, come true.
- - -
...most people i talk to know that my mother's a tough person to talk about for me. she's been the person who's a part of why my life has been absolute shit.
she's an anxious, emotional woman. she has an air of determination in her, while being highly caring, and has a tendency to be emotionally invested in the people she cares about.
i used to cherish her as my mother.
now i don't really feel much of anything towards her. i...
...well, i can't say i really even love her.
whenever she speaks to me and calls me, everything stops. i feel numb.
i suddenly find myself gripping at the thought of her, conflicted as to what to think and how to approach her.
...she birthed me. she nurtured me, but then ignored my warnings, then dejected me. she changed me into who i am.
now she's getting married all of a sudden, to a guy she's only met for 3 or 4 fucking months. september 14th.
i was born a Jehovah's Witness. i was fairly involved in the religion's proceedings, going to every meeting in the Kingdom Hall, and the memorials, and the conventions. i met some people. i somewhat enjoyed it.
throughout the years, i would learn more about what things were like. i became a somewhat popular lad, because of how i'd frequently answer for "comments", reciting shit from a book that isn't even a translation of a bible. though i did get to sometimes read some verses from their bible translation aloud at times.
but then i slowly noticed how... off-putting the Hall was. the atmosphere reeked of plastic farces and over-enthusiastic utopian attitudes that just... unsettled me. they didn't even seem genuinely happy, though some others were, to some extent. it felt like they had to smile.
then i learned some more of what the organization behind them all really was. i considered the correlation between how it affected everyone who ate up their religious teachings.
many of them didn't even seem like good people.
i learned about their shunning policies. about their two-witness ruling, and ignorance in the face of the thousands of child molestation cases they faced. i got to understand their mentality from the inside, i know of their anxiety towards "worldly" people, and people called "apostates", that "you aren't supposed to listen to their bad words", and that they're bad people somehow.
all because they left the religion, in fact, because they were abused by it, held hostage by it.
i successfully faded out of the religion, without any counseling from elders, though it's possible i may have been condemned behind my back on my way out.
...the man my mother is marrying, is a Jehovah's Witness.
he's certainly cynical of every business that exists. he seems to also be cynical of people, in some sense. i wonder if he believes people have evil ulterior motives as well.
...he does try to treat my mother well, though. he tries, and he's doing alright. my mother enjoys being around someone, for once.
...but you can't truly be together, in love, without being married, it seems.
it has some connotations that... churn my insides.
i don't know why.
she wants to be baptized as a Jehovah's Witness. she wishes to live with him, as one, forever.
and for some reason, i feel like shit.
it hurts.
it's almost as if i'm losing her, like she's dying or something.
i'm losing her to a religion that captures people, and smothers them in superficial love, never letting them out... but once you make a mistake, you're shot out, called "mentally diseased", considered as "bad association". And either way, when you go in, someone's going to be cut out of your life.
it's either those you once knew and loved, considered "worldly", or the people you thought you knew, perhaps family you relied on, who deem you to be a filthy apostate, only to be kicked out by your own parents at a young age, when you're not even fucking 15.
the thought of her sinking into that religion truly stings.
it's like a whole other void has opened up.
i'd like to pull her out of it.
but with her, comes her future husband.
...that won't end well, unless i can get to him as well.
...and i very highly doubt that.
this is something, out of all that i've yet to figure out, i now know one of my greater fears-- losing someone i know fondly to a captive life that transforms them into a world-fearing cynic, sacrificing so much in belief that they can live forever, in the midst of 8 billion people that might as well just die by the hand of a deity that doesn't really even seem that great.
if only it were easier.
but it won't be easy.
if i could just say something-- one word, to this turn of events, it'd be...
no.