ive been exercising a lot more than i used to, eating better, and trying to go out of my way to hang out with the people that i’m closest with. this year’s been pretty rough so far but i’m doing my best to push through and get back to where i need to be.
I am an aspiring programmer and am studying in this domain in Cegep (a school unique to Quebec that is between high school and univeristy). But the work we get there are way too simple for me (and many others in my course) so I often do my own code, which are a lot more complex than the teacher asks. Lately I have been coding a game of go in Java and I am also thinking of trying out python and code a maze with it.
I have started to learn motion graphics! it was the releief i was looking to have, it calms my mind and it keeps me in my comfort zone which has its ups and downs. I will update you guys if i succeed in what im dreaming about! have a good one!
I kinda understand the mmo thing. I played alot of them as well and I always came out at the end more depressed and angry then happy and fulfilled. Since I came back to osu after a long hiatus I've found it just more entertaining and less stressful then other type of community drivin games. I'm sure over time it will get more annoying, at least I'm not part of the beat map review team lol. I hear that stuff is crazy stressful.
I also have anger issues. I try not to show them as often but I'm very sensitive and if somebody whom I like/trust betrays me or does something to hurt me on purpose I don't talk to them for a while. But that's just the people I really care about or whom I've had high expectations for. Usually when I get hurt I then do questionable things and other people may see me as cold, distanced or just not a good person in general. It's also that I'm shy and people often mistake that for anger. It's not that I have something negative towards them, it's just that I'm anxious to approach them, but I'm trying to be more approachable (Even if it's hard) I'd easily approach people I get along with and people that I trust. I also sometimes think that people don't like me in general so that's a reason I distance myself too. I'm always thinking that someone may want me gone. Last thing is that I think I talk too much online. I like to talk to people on the internet and it often happens that I share too much, so when the other person doesn't reply to me I feel as if they are annoyed by me so I delete the text.
So these are the things I'm trying to improve about myself. Hopefully one day I will