Sorting some problems around home. A bit motivated to stay alive for my own things to do before they get me down.
[Mar. 19th 2019 Update] _10% procrastinating too much around too many games (Only SV2 on "Osu!", I'm quitting, still trying to ****-mapping) _0.5% ****-mapping _25% enjoying this thread _64% (forced to be) enjoying life _0.5% trying to get back to books I'm supposed to read / translation stuff (minor hobby)
4 pounds in 2 months. A bit slow, but we're getting there.
I'm working to hopefully reach 100 lbs by the end of the year.
I still need to build up both fat and muscle, and trying to keep myself running without too many issues for a decent amount of time with my jogging unit in PE, in hopes of improving cardiovascular endurance to counter and lower my chances of heart complications later on in life. I'm not doing too well, but I'll keep going at it for however long I can.
The thoughts and experiences had are one's creative fodder.
The phantasmic world sought is one's own solace to solder.
I stopped smoking, and picked up a new habit in the form of vaping, which while not perfectly healthy, is supposedly 95% healthier, especially for people quitting smoking. Quite a controversy, that, but I believe what i've read and what i've seen, not to mention I feel just overall better than I have a few weeks prior when I was still smoking cigs.
Even if the morrow is barren of promises nothing shall forestall my return...
I started losing weight and started actually getting on top of my problem with spending money and staying motivated. Losing weight has been going well but for some reason, Saving money for me is quite hard. If I see something nice or a sale, my impulse is to buy it haha. Good luck to everyone else with what they're doing!
Winner of Emerald's Spring osu! 25k to 45k Aus/NZ Tournament! (Osu!std) Quarter finalist of Osu Friendly Tournamnet 20k-60k! (Osu!std) Participant in the Ausu! 4k Mania Tournament
Exercise and osu! are my coping mechanisms for stress which I started at exactly February 1 of this year. So far the stress I've been experiencing (mostly from education) has been lessened so I guess its a good thing.
i'm only 16 right now so i'm still in school, anyway for me,
i have been getting low grades like 89 below in major subjects especially math. the reason was because i haven't been able to listen to lessons because of my friends, i've became a lot talkative and lost focus in school. i prioritized osu! and social life.
- i distant my self with them, i started with not eating lunch with them and soon requested my sensei to change my seats so i'll be in front. it was successful and got myself higher grades since i became a highschooler.
before i distant myself with my friends, i started to think what will happen to my future.
i plan to become a chem engineer, but with my current grades i knew it won't cut it. i guess this also helped my mind to decide whether i should still have fun at the mean time or just focus on my future.
there have been highs and lows in my life, 2 of my closest friends ended their lives early. they were the ones who praised my arts ever since the beginning, and my girlfriend cheated on me.
it has been 4 months after all of these and i think i'm enjoying this life a bit more than what i expected it to be. i thought it will be really boring without my friends in school. well they sometimes look and laugh at me, when i'm alone and going straight to the library. discord has really been my friend, i've been chatting with other people i met in osu in my server. hope this can help you in some way, i just want to get this out of my chest.
I read this book awhile ago, called "The Subtle Art of Not Giving a F*ck". While a little satirical, it does have a lot of really great life advice and I recommend it. Anyway, I was really afraid of this college interview I had, but I felt a lot better after reading that book and I actually did pretty well at the interview.
I also have a lot of bad habits I have to break... like uh, not finishing my own songs, triple tapping on doubles in osu, forgetting about my japanese anki deck for a week and having to review 500 cards. :/
Hey! I'm a geometry dash and osu! player, music producer, and weeb ;w;
l started to study way more for school and I'm doing Physical Education after the half term. l also have a friend.
I suffer with anxiety which is depressingly bad and l isolate myself a lot from people irl. However, I'm now reading aloud sometimes in English class. This, to me, is my biggest ever achievement. Even if me reading is the only time anyone hears my voice.
Started to care a lot more about art too, this year, as in my school coursework and hobby. I've improving with both quite dramatically.
ive been exercising a lot more than i used to, eating better, and trying to go out of my way to hang out with the people that i’m closest with. this year’s been pretty rough so far but i’m doing my best to push through and get back to where i need to be.