i'm only 16 right now so i'm still in school, anyway for me,
i have been getting low grades like 89 below in major subjects especially math. the reason was because i haven't been able to listen to lessons because of my friends, i've became a lot talkative and lost focus in school. i prioritized osu! and social life.
- i distant my self with them, i started with not eating lunch with them and soon requested my sensei to change my seats so i'll be in front. it was successful and got myself higher grades since i became a highschooler.
before i distant myself with my friends, i started to think what will happen to my future.
i plan to become a chem engineer, but with my current grades i knew it won't cut it. i guess this also helped my mind to decide whether i should still have fun at the mean time or just focus on my future.
there have been highs and lows in my life, 2 of my closest friends ended their lives early. they were the ones who praised my arts ever since the beginning, and my girlfriend cheated on me.
it has been 4 months after all of these and i think i'm enjoying this life a bit more than what i expected it to be. i thought it will be really boring without my friends in school. well they sometimes look and laugh at me, when i'm alone and going straight to the library. discord has really been my friend, i've been chatting with other people i met in osu in my server. hope this can help you in some way, i just want to get this out of my chest.
