It's been such a long time since I last posted here, about 2 years ago. There's something new. Story incoming.
I really don't like people. It takes a good amount of time before I even consider someone an acquaintance.
I knew someone from a Facebook anime page (I started it, he was an admin) and we played Osu! together. We had a lot of Skype calls and the like. I would have known him for 4 years by now. He was essentially my best friend. He introduced me to his other group of friends, and they were fine and dandy. I met someone from that group who eventually became my girlfriend (now ex-gf). I loved her, I liked my best friend, and I was on pretty good terms with the group.
Cue some night in August. I hadn't talked to them in a while. They had changed their meetings and didn't tell me about it (first flag). GF wants me to have a chat with the group. I say why not. I show up and one of the group members (call him Jake) shows up first. He says hi and I say hi. Eventually everyone starts piling in, including best friend. Jake starts making moves on my GF in front of me. She's smiling, laughing, playing along -- obviously, I didn't appreciate it. Best friend helps Jake by means of adding background music as Jake continues his speech. GF is still smiling. Best friend starts laughing. Everyone's laughing at me.
I leave without saying anything and GF was there for another hour until I send her a text telling her how I felt. She said sorry, but obviously, I could tell she didn't really care. Broke up with her in March over other matters.
Moral of the story: People will use you to your benefit. Doesn't matter who, doesn't matter why. The moment they can use you, they'll do it.
What have I done to better myself?I have not trusted anyone. If someone tries to get too close to me, I shut them off. As the words of wisdom on my profile say,
Those who you call "friends" will turn on you the moment it benefits them.
They will slander, steal, deceive, lie, manipulate, and cheat.
Do not let yourself be abandoned. Do not give them any openings.
Mercy is weakness; kindness is sin.