What have you done lately to better yourself?

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-Eden
Now that I really think about it, I've actually done quite a lot in various aspects, I'll start off with myself and go onto other things...

Myself

After finishing school, i didnt know what I wanted to do with myself, get into a sporting carrer (working in a gym or something) but that wasnt for me. After looking around places, I decided to enroll into college and do games development because 1. I love me some games and 2. I enjoy seeing how they're made and how the mechanics work. As of now, i dont regret that one bit and i probably will never regret it. By the end of my 2 years there, i will have had the chance to actually MAKE my own game by myself or with friends and we already have an idea. This game wont be made on a low budget program like scratch but it will infact be made on either Unity or Cry Engine and we have already started making parts on Cry Engine (for those who dont know, Cry Engine is the equivalent to the Unreal Engine which is used in Far Cry 4 and such) As well as this, a Ubisoft brach just opened in my city and that is where im aiming to get to, Working in Ubisoft.

On top of all of the gaming, i've been doing a lot of work for charity. A couple of years ago, my brother in law, a couple of his friends and myself rode a bike from the north east of England (where i live) to London to watch a Football match (soccer for others). During this, we raised about £15,000 for breast cancer research and didnt get an injury as well as 'appearing' on the radio. The reasoning behind this was just 'Hey, lets do this for charity because we have nothing else to do' we done it because my brother in law lost his mother to breast cancer about a year before the initial fund raising and we all did it for her. now before this gets too sad, im going to move on.

Gaming

Since im doing a gaming cource in college, i get to play more games that anyone else does. Since i like seeing the mechanics and such, i've been working out little tricks and tip to help me improve. Lets take CS:GO for example. If anyone plays csgo and doesnt know about this, you might want to read. I didnt find this myself, i found a youtube video about it however i tried it with a few friends and it works perfectly. Now the trick is, when throwing a flashbang or other grenade off the ground, it bounces back up to about waist height. On the other hand, if you walk backwards when throwing it, it bounces over the height of 2 player models...remember that. Now im going to put you into a scenario. You're CT on dust II, behind the boxes on site, A terrorist is running in from catwalk and you miss your first few shots. If you crouch, look down at an angle, walk backwards and throw the flashbang the terrorist wont have time to react to it. By the time the flashbang hits the boxes, its already gone off, giving you a free kill. Try it, it works.

Osu!

I've been making slight improvements on osu over the past few days, I passed my first maps that are 4 stars and AR8, but when i havent been doing so good, ive been watching back at my own replays as well as other peoples replays and an auto run of the beatmap to see where my problems are. I notice that i need to work on my jumps and my streams just a bit. I have also reduced the amount of times i retry a map from 5 to 3. If i dont pass the map in 3 tries, i play others for about 30 - 45 minutes and go back to the map im struggling on. I actually passed Everything Will Freeze [Insane] like this. I freaked out in chat :/

Music

After getting so into music, i decided to go out of my way and buy FL Studio 12 as well as a few plugins for it. Im now teaching myself, pretty much, how to make my own songs. I'm startig to make Hardstyle under the name ObliivEden and am still yet to finish my first song. It took me 4 months to make a hardstyle kick and currently hae a draft of my first song on soundcloud which i dont have a name for but i am tempted to name it 'Ambience'. Currently, i let my emotions decide the song will sound. If im sad, a rather emotional melody, if im happy, a nice up-beat melody. If you want to listen to the first draft of the song the link is Here.

Sorry for the lengthy responce but that is everything. Doing all of this has made me so much happier because i actually get to do what I want to do and im not forced to do things like i was in school. Everything i have mentioned can link into my own happiness as well as my education and i couldnt be more thankful for this opportunity. I get to make my own things. Games, Music, Everything!
aigoh
Welp, I had successful high school years...then college happened.
I fell dramatically. However, this is a good chance to look into myself.

I admit my flaws, try to fix them:
  1. I tend to give up if it is incredibly stressful. Like, I wouldn't study for a midterm until the night before. Although the world seems to be falling into pieces and I feel like I want to cry, I learned to keep doing my best. Better to get a C- than fail, right? It takes a bit more effort to achieve higher. I think even five more minutes can make a difference.
  2. I am pessimistic: I try to look towards positive ends by having something to look forward to. I often reward myself with small stuff, like calling someone, shopping, or desserts.
  3. My relationships are not always good: Still trying to figure this out. Often times, it is miscommunication. It's the best to approach the person and talk it out. Also I get to know myself this way.
  4. I always think that I don't have to be perfect, since that puts me into great stress. I don't "better myself," rather find ways to deal with it
Shga
This is not how I improved myself, these are just the problems I am facing

My mental health is going to deep shit. I constantly feel pressured by other expectations (good grades, lots of studying, pass my university exams etc) and I always fall short. I am trying to perform well at tests and stuff but I get so anxious that I forget things I remembered a second ago. There's been some really unsatisfying grades that I have told no one about. I try to put a happy face on for everyone around me, trying to hide my unhappiness to not affect others negatively but I am afraid that this cover will not last forever. I've been feeling gloomy and I just want to give up on everything. Any advice?
Kei

Shga wrote:

This is not how I improved myself, these are just the problems I am facing

My mental health is going to deep shit. I constantly feel pressured by other expectations (good grades, lots of studying, pass my university exams etc) and I always fall short. I am trying to perform well at tests and stuff but I get so anxious that I forget things I remembered a second ago. There's been some really unsatisfying grades that I have told no one about. I try to put a happy face on for everyone around me, trying to hide my unhappiness to not affect others negatively but I am afraid that this cover will not last forever. I've been feeling gloomy and I just want to give up on everything. Any advice?
wow I feel you. I have the exact same problem as you. Anxiety kills me every time I have to do a very important test, like finals. I also feel under pressure as well because I did badly during past years, and I kind of disappointed my parents for my mistakes. I'm done with my studies since 3 weeks ago or so, but even with anxiety, everything went well at the end. I was able to pull off the best of myself and approve every subject. You have to believe in yourself. Try to study more. In my case, If I study 3 or 2 days before the exam day anxiety takes over me but if I study periodically before the test day I feel more secure and my attitude changes as well. I feel more positive, and stop fearing that my mind will get blank all of a sudden during the exam. This is just my case though, maybe it's not exactly like that for you.

Give yourself time. You're pushing yourself too much. Also, try to don't think too much about what others expect about you and what they'll say about it because it will make your situation even harder to deal with and it will torture you to no end. If you feel too anxious you can try drinking a cup of linden tea. I recommend you this so much. Whenever I drink a cup of linden tea, it soothes my nerves significantly. This kind of tea helped me to relax and focus more when studying. I think it's the best thing you can try to handle anxiety. It works for me.

I also think you need more support as you said you're hiding your worries and problems from everyone. I had support from some friends and it helped me a lot to gain some self-confidence. They were always rooting for me and promising it'd be all okay (and they were right!).

I hope this helps you. I felt so identified with your post so I thought this would help you with your problem, as it helped me when I was in a very similar situation. I also hope you can overcome this! :D
birra
Simple.
Making myself a bit more lack of emotion. It starts to be more annoying than ever because it even dares to rule my outstanding logical realistic mindset more than ever. Doesn't mean I'm entirely a sociopath since I still have some left, but it's just way better now.
pekkanto
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MadBuddhist
Getting all my teeth fixed (Too much soda)
Actually studying and getting ready for my exams here in december.
Going from smoking to vaping.
Started working out with my boyfriend.
I suppose i could add more, but these are key points in my life right now.
mokyu
Yesterday I just turned DT on and I surprisingly played better than usual.
Pikabutt
For the last 4 months, I've been actively using Blogilates as the go-to fitness tool, mainly because the struggle in keeping a constant weight has been an issue since the later years of high school; gone from being anorexic to slightly overweight within the span of 2-3 years. The problem before was that I barely had any physical activity outside of the occasional badminton or tennis, and now that friends have moved away for post-secondary and branched off, it's become more difficult. So I made the decision this summer to start working out at home, of which I was opposed to simply, but Cassey Ho and Blogilates changed that. Despite only following her calendars for 4 months, I can confidently say that I am currently in the best shape and place in my life. Exercising on a daily basis has done wonders for keeping the balance of being mentally and physically stable (ര̀ᴗര́)و

Shga wrote:

This is not how I improved myself, these are just the problems I am facing
My mental health is going to deep shit. I constantly feel pressured by other expectations (good grades, lots of studying, pass my university exams etc) and I always fall short. I am trying to perform well at tests and stuff but I get so anxious that I forget things I remembered a second ago. There's been some really unsatisfying grades that I have told no one about. I try to put a happy face on for everyone around me, trying to hide my unhappiness to not affect others negatively but I am afraid that this cover will not last forever. I've been feeling gloomy and I just want to give up on everything. Any advice?
Just wanted to say that you're never alone in this kind of situation, and that many others have shared a similar experience, if not identical. Can't say that I have any specific words of wisdom aside from ridding yourself of others' expectations and simply focusing on what you believe you can do and are happy with.

Reading your excerpt, I understand what you've gone through and can relate to a certain extent, not entirely. Back in the 2nd year of university, I unfortunately succumbed to a major episode of depression that lasted nearly an entire year, and often times, whenever there was a trigger like failing assignments, my mind would automatically be sent to having suicidal thoughts. And during this time, I isolated myself. One day, suddenly had an epiphany moment where I realized it was either continue attending university for a program I did not enjoy anymore in an effort to impress my parents, but at the cost of being depressed. Or, I could stand up for myself, be selfish for once and do whatever I thought would me happy in the long-run. Ended up dropping out, going to college closer to home, and have never looked back.

Like I said, not entirely identical to your situation, but there are similarities here-and-there. In a nutshell, work for yourself and nobody else; achieve your expectations and try not to focus on what others may think of you.
Babu24
i have a passing grade in biology!
Kirin
Last friday, it was the first time in 2 years I did some physical activity (except walking through the way home) and it was on P.E.
I never do P.E because of classmates and my laziness, but when I did it it was fun and I didn't thought what my classmates thought about how I played (I did some soccer that day and trust me, I suck at playing soccer)

Also, I've got a 7/10 on chemistry (which is good because i had a 4/10)

I did some improving after all heh.
Kei
I went out shopping with my best friend, and bought a gift for a friend for her birthday!

Getting stuff for others makes me feel so enthusiast and happy. I prefer buying things for the people I love rather than buying stuff for myself. The happiness I feel when seeing the happy face of the person receiving a gift from me is one of the best feelings ever. I haven't seen this person yet, but I'm looking forward to see her reaction when opening the gift, since it is something she wanted so badly.
Birdy

Kei wrote:

Getting stuff for others makes me feel so enthusiast and happy. I prefer buying things for the people I love rather than buying stuff for myself. The happiness I feel when seeing the happy face of the person receiving a gift from me is one of the best feelings ever. I haven't seen this person yet, but I'm looking forward to see her reaction when opening the gift, since it is something she wanted so badly.
Hey, that sounds like me. Nice to see similar people here.

OT: I graduated a while ago (which wasn't exactly a choice but still a way to help myself get into better times and life), started planning a collab with one of my favourite musicians, and also we started going to the gym again with my best friend.
Sync
I started learning some more math independently but haven't touched my books in a few days now
Vexx
I ran 60 miles per week for 6 months, and ran competitively with my school. I burned off everything I gained playing video games over the summer hehe :3
R e n g e
I consider it one of the best feelings in life which we can experience is to give something else :)
Water Prism
I didn't buy myself osu supporter because i knew i would waste it all unintentionally
Mr Meeseeks
I've started going to the gym in the holidays to get fit and get ready for rugby season
-Niflheim-
Stopped playing games for a while, at least i've played only osu. And Study hard. now I won the exam that will make me able to study in korea. ~
Lavax303
Almost got into U18 of Poland in rugby, trying to make my way into it :)
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