These days I think more often about where I will be if I continue my bad habits (procrastinating, playing osu! hah, etc.) and what I can do to become a better person internally. I'm working on putting important things like family, homework, and laundry first before I hop on to osu! or whatever I wish to do for a while.
Idk how well its going but it feels good to not worry about things that should've been done in the first place.

just leaving those misses and keep the map playing...

just earning some cash for a better future

didnt smoke a cig in 4 days, trying to limit myself to ~5 a week for a while, from that to 1 and progressively quit if possible

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I've been more honest with myself, I think?

100% focus

keep worrying about my junk PC...

so it let me play seriously

Nothing. My life is a disaster and I keep pretending that everything's fine and dandy.
I guess posting here is a good start. I'm no longer in denial and I can do something about it.

I've spent more time actually doing work before I do anything else like games and stuff like that. I have a really bad habit of getting sidetracked while I work so it's kind of hard for me to sit down and do all my work in one sitting. I've been forcing myself recently and so far, I've been seeing improvements.

Take 1 term again to complete my essay.
and doing morning exercise...
yeah thats for now...

I decided to switch to DT farming instead of nomod

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Ive been trying to gain strength, and just become a better person irl

A month from now I'm in 10th grade D:

listening to songs

It's been such a long time since I last posted here, about 2 years ago. There's something new. Story incoming.

I really don't like people. It takes a good amount of time before I even consider someone an acquaintance.

I knew someone from a Facebook anime page (I started it, he was an admin) and we played Osu! together. We had a lot of Skype calls and the like. I would have known him for 4 years by now. He was essentially my best friend. He introduced me to his other group of friends, and they were fine and dandy. I met someone from that group who eventually became my girlfriend (now ex-gf). I loved her, I liked my best friend, and I was on pretty good terms with the group.

Cue some night in August. I hadn't talked to them in a while. They had changed their meetings and didn't tell me about it (first flag). GF wants me to have a chat with the group. I say why not. I show up and one of the group members (call him Jake) shows up first. He says hi and I say hi. Eventually everyone starts piling in, including best friend. Jake starts making moves on my GF in front of me. She's smiling, laughing, playing along -- obviously, I didn't appreciate it. Best friend helps Jake by means of adding background music as Jake continues his speech. GF is still smiling. Best friend starts laughing. Everyone's laughing at me.

I leave without saying anything and GF was there for another hour until I send her a text telling her how I felt. She said sorry, but obviously, I could tell she didn't really care. Broke up with her in March over other matters.

Moral of the story: People will use you to your benefit. Doesn't matter who, doesn't matter why. The moment they can use you, they'll do it.
What have I done to better myself?
I have not trusted anyone. If someone tries to get too close to me, I shut them off. As the words of wisdom on my profile say,

Those who you call "friends" will turn on you the moment it benefits them.
They will slander, steal, deceive, lie, manipulate, and cheat.
Do not let yourself be abandoned. Do not give them any openings.
Mercy is weakness; kindness is sin.

im depressed for my lessons and rewatch fairy tail from the beginning till end :^)
i dont have any anime to watch atm, u can suggest me :3

nomod.
Then stick to HD.
and DT.
EZDT.

Starting to follow trend lately so at least i can talk if needed to if situation become awkward between my friends.

what im i kidding , weebs doesnt not talk irl stuff.

i hope this pays off

Well after about a year being locked up in my room and going through anxiety and depression, I finally got a job at a grocery store. And ever since I got this job, I've lost about 20 pounds with in about 3 months, I'm actually talking to people and I'm actually making friends. I'd say this is a huge step for me!

Downloading my new driving lessons, and yes, i'm reading them.

Lately I've been developing a checklist to complete for myself, such as exercising a bit everyday, working on my Spanish and German a bit everyday, performing at least one random act of kindness to a stranger, etc.
I've also been trying to work on my positivity, and honestly, I've been feeling a lot better recently because of it!
I hope you can also better yourself in any way you can, even if it's just by a little bit.

I need love

Actually taking care of myself, and actually trying to look and feel cute and confident.
Mostly because i hate how i look irl.

Hmm quite a lot
I've just started reading the novel Seventh Plague. I've also been trying to go over my 20-XP goal in Duolingo and to learn one new skill in each language I'm learning (check my sig) each day
I need to exercise more and then go out and hang with my irl friends. Most importantly, stay curious, motivated, and with an open mind.
Advice pls (•-•)~>

endorsing myself in my waifu dimensions

I stopped masturbating and watching porn two months ago. It's good.

stopped eating fast food

Started clearing my work and home space of all this crap, it feels so good !

Less fapping more tapping = success is not a dream rawr

I started painting, it sounds weird but it calms me down and helps me when I've had a bad day.

Got a 144hz monitor feelsgoodman

waking up at 4:30am every day has been super productive. wish i started doing it years ago.

started focusing more on school than on vidya/social networks

Been trying to get myself to make stuff as often as I play videogames.

I've only played 7 hours past 2 weeks according to my Steam.

I usually log around 90 hours in 2 weeks.

try to attend therapy

Trying to get higher rank at school

Ryoid wrote:

Trying to get higher rank at school

same??

I stopped drinking alcohol just a few days ago. Stopped masturbating and watching porn 95 days ago.

hi