I don't know what caused you to come to that conclusion and I won't pretend to know.
GSG95 wrote:Like I suspected, I've grown up to become trash and a disappointment to my parents. I'd better take myself out soon.
But I do understand that life can sometimes be depressing. You're fine, you can get through it!
If you hate yourself then go work on yourself enough so that you can learn to appreciate yourself.
If you hate being "trash" and "a disappointment" to your parents then work on yourself to change that.
Life isn't about how hard you hit, it's about how much will you be able to get hit and still get back up.
Being alive alone is pretty much a constant stream of embarrassment, what matters is that you can overcome it.
Sorry if all this may sounds a bit cheesy. But I think that your parents would be truly disappointed if you decides give up on yourself.