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45Traeath

Carmlillball wrote:

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- Taken into account.

- I never thought there were even other kinds of jar. The only one I know being the one for each time someone swears.
If anything, there are times when I just go back and look at the text messages/conversations on the phone I had with one of said friends.
Loads of "memeful" talk, with some traces of our former life at school, but the "memeful" talk wins because laughter is a good medecine.

- We both get it.

- I was more counting on hiding than lying, now that I think about the differences. Even though lying to hide something is more of a common thing, if we're talking steps/order.

- About that, it seems to be going good. I think I can live through the upcoming conversation, after having one with my boss about what happened at the doctor's. I got some words of advice from both of them. (Short version of the Status Update.)



2nd update (short version): I'm getting over it. Feeling so stupid for going too fast and straight to conclusions.

Listening to an Onsen (Internet station) radio show.
Hyerim
I need a full body massage
Carmlillball
Box for a single sentence.

Good that everything went well. :)


I'm definitely on core maths now and spending time changing my study timetable! I'm very optimistic for the future!
Just because I'm not doing A level maths right now doesn't mean I can't ever do it. This fact helped a lot when I was told it and I'm thankful I've been told this.
There's no point in feeling bad about myself. I'm able, but not with all these other socialising changes going on and stuff. My entire self is changing quickly. This doesn't make me incapable or worthless, this makes me stressed.
Now I got that down for future reference, I should probably continue with my timetable.
Puzzle

Carmlillball wrote:

Box for a single sentence.

Good that everything went well. :)


I'm definitely on core maths now and spending time changing my study timetable! I'm very optimistic for the future!
Just because I'm not doing A level maths right now doesn't mean I can't ever do it. This fact helped a lot when I was told it and I'm thankful I've been told this.
There's no point in feeling bad about myself. I'm able, but not with all these other socialising changes going on and stuff. My entire self is changing quickly. This doesn't make me incapable or worthless, this makes me stressed.
Now I got that down for future reference, I should probably continue with my timetable.
Things seem to be a lot different for you than last I was here, it's good to see

Status: I'm dropping in and lurking on threads just for funsies.
Tad Fibonacci
Oh hey there Puzzle. Long time no see.
I've missed you.

Status: Just got back home after having some barbecues with my HS friends.
Puzzle
Hi Tad I still love you, loveable frog-man

That is my status. I am a frog-lover.
Zelzatter Zero
Just roaming around the OT to see if there's something interesting going on here.
45Traeath
Now mourning.

n.k.'s YT channel got hacked and suspended afterwards.

Sy-s-te,ma,ti,c-Or-che-s-t-ra~.

(Seriously, though, I hope those bad people get fxxked [in any meaning] in return.)
Puzzle
Status:

Wondering if people I used to chat with still hang out here. There's a few people I miss. Nostalgia.
eblf2013
I have just had the most dissapointing cup of "coffee" ever.
Tastes like nothing.
Tad Fibonacci

Puzzle wrote:

Status:

Wondering if people I used to chat with still hang out here. There's a few people I miss. Nostalgia.
I get that.
Though I've only been on the forums for a year.
There are so many that came and went.
It's hard to not feel sad.
Carmlillball
Status: Suffering from my throat feeling tight, blocked and painful every time I eat. Been like this for a few days. I've never had this before. I've always had tickly coughs or blockages which don't feel the same as what I'm currently suffering. Nothing helps at all. Even searched online because I'm desperate to know what's going on and I can't find anything which causes this specifically. Guess I'm kinda grateful I can't self diagnose.

Feels good. /s
Puzzle

Tad Fibonacci wrote:

Puzzle wrote:

Status:

Wondering if people I used to chat with still hang out here. There's a few people I miss. Nostalgia.
I get that.
Though I've only been on the forums for a year.
There are so many that came and went.
It's hard to not feel sad.
yeah, IKR?



Carmlillball wrote:

Status: Suffering from my throat feeling tight, blocked and painful every time I eat. Been like this for a few days. I've never had this before. I've always had tickly coughs or blockages which don't feel the same as what I'm currently suffering. Nothing helps at all. Even searched online because I'm desperate to know what's going on and I can't find anything which causes this specifically. Guess I'm kinda grateful I can't self diagnose.

Feels good. /s
You can't make it to a doctor?

Status: Weekend went by too fast. It's my birthday tomorrow at least
Hyerim
AWOL

Downloading beatmaps :)
a1l2d3r4e5d6

Puzzle wrote:

Status:

Wondering if people I used to chat with still hang out here. There's a few people I miss. Nostalgia.
There's a name I haven't seen in a while. o:

Status: Can't look at this forum anymore without thinking about reopening a gfx thread for the millionth time in a row, apparently.
Zelzatter Zero
status: torturing myself with mapping.
[ Erika ]
Status: Finally added my own std diff in https://osu.ppy.sh/beatmapsets/447151#osu/2304990 after 3 years :O
samX500
Status: I am having a hard time trying to figure out how transposition affects the frequencies of the notes played.
Carmlillball
My mum won't let me see a doctor and I'm not feeling any better. Just trying to rest as much as possible. I figure It'll pass at some point. Probably some weird throat illness.

I don't want to go to college but I'll have to. I guess constant stress magnifies small inconveniences.

Btw hi puzzle! :)



Another
College has sent very well and seems my mum's starting to realize something is actually wrong. Might be able to get to a doctor soon if my throat carries on getting worse. I'm honestly worried that I'm just being a hyperchondriac, but my throat is getting rather painful. Feels like my body is constantly trying hard to vomit something but also feels I have no gag reflex whatsoever. And it stings. Eating is becoming torture, but I'm also constantly hungry.
Puzzle

Carmlillball wrote:

Btw hi puzzle! :)
Hey

That sounds like a legitimate illness to me and kind of dangerous. Maybe Strep throat. Hope you've gone and seen a doctor by now or its passed; that sounds exceptionally unpleasant

Status:

I just wanna vent about art and learning to draw.

I'm kind of surprised at how much I'm learning each day with drawing and how much it always feels like it's such a small dent in the number of things I need to do.

To be fair; I think I could actually draw some really kick-ass high quality stuff if I was focused only on portrait style drawings. I've definitely developed a pretty definitive style and I know what I want out of portraits and how to get it; and I think I'm quite good at them. But my goal is to be able to draw epic style anime/manga type scenes EG Mafia Brigade of Knowledge Seekers except with my own sort of dark/gritty spin. But theres so much to learn there - anatomy is incredibly difficult from interesting perspectives, clothes are hard; being able to do those things from interesting and eye catching perspectives with pleasing compositions is even harder... I'm constantly pushing myself to learn a bit more fundamentally about how to draw and it's a struggle. Certain concepts translate through all practice but others are hard to get an innate sense for and pick up on; I think the biggest one for me moving forward is being able ton conceptualize and visualize objects as 3 dimensional things... I'm getting much better at constructing things and using basic shapes as reference points; but some things are bizarrely difficult without being able to "percieve" them in 3 dimensions from my head; even with solid construction methods. Mostly that's a problem when I'm trying to do interesting perspectives.

So yeah. I feel like I learn so much everyday but those improvements I make are so minor and I'm just struggling to keep my head afloat in an ocean of things that need to be learned.
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