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i don't know.
look, although i find you to be fairly kind and altruistic to some extent, and i absolutely enjoy the various discussions we've had,
holy damn, that post pisses me off.
[ahem]
something genuine is best expressed and can be best proven when words and actions correlate and are consistent with each other.
but "sorry", while actively taking an action that directly contradicts it. that kind of thing stings the most.
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anyhow, you're fine.
i'm just fucking keeling over now that i've realized what the fuck i've done to myself. i didn't reach my goal, and essentially tore my limbs out to get there. as much as i internally hope you reflected on how that can fuck others over and piss people off, in this case, honestly, there's not much of a reason to feel guilty. you just played the game, after all.